Hi ladies! Just wanted to check in. I just spent about an hour catching up on the last week of posts...I feel a little bad, like I'm not being supportive to you guys going MIA, but at the same time I know you understand. I have struggled with the same thing you guys have been talking about, just brain and emotion fatigue from constant TTC thoughts. So I have just disconnected a bit since I'm out this month because of my procedure and am hoping to recharge mentally as well. But I still care about you and your journeys!
Beaglemom, sooo sorry to read that the IUI didn't do the trick for you this month. I was really pulling for you. Will keep my fingers crossed for next month.
Erin, the last few days of the TWW are always the WORST! Ugh, sorry you're dealing with so much mental anguish with the testing dilemma...hope you get your BFP and don't have to worry about that anymore!
Savvy, I'm sorry you are dealing with discouraging family issues. It's always difficult when people we love disappoint us. I'm sad that when we finally are blessed with a little one, he/she won't have a grandma, as DH and my mothers were both taken from this earth too soon. But on the other hand, I'm glad his crazy, backward family is hundreds of miles away and we only have to visit them every 6 months or so. Hope you can regain that connection you cherished with your MIL.
Missacs, hope that nurse is right!! Something you said about your husband just made me mad at mine! LOL I didn't know that smokeless tobacco contributed to infertility. I just googled it, and am now frustrated.
My hubby grew up in a very backward, redneck situation and has made himself an incredible person all by himself, and chewing is the one habit he has not ditched. So coupled with the fact that he is several years older than me, I'm really worried about his sperm. I mean, I have checked out as completely normal, gone through so many tests and now a procedure tomorrow, and he has not gone for his SA yet. I understand he is very busy, and that is a hard thing for a man, but it's making me very frustrated. At first he said he didn't need one, he looked at his sperm in a microscope. He is a cardiologist...not a sperm tech. He only agreed to go after my OBGYN, whose opinion he respects because they were in med school together, said that even she couldn't tell by looking in a microscope. Then to top it off I asked him about it on Sunday and he said that he would figure out a time. Then he said that his Medical Assistant (who had been trying with his wife for two years and finally got preggers! Yay!) had to go "do that" three times. Then declared, "I'm doing it once, and that's it!!" I just bit my tongue but was really mad. After all we go through...sorry you have to go jack off in a little room...boohoo!
Okay, thanks for the venting, and sorry to unload like that. Don't want to give the wrong idea, he is such a wonderful man and husband. But I just don't think men understand what this process is like for us.
So yeah, going for the D&C to remove the polyp and LEEP for the severe dysplasia on my cervix tomorrow. Have never had to be knocked out for anything before, so I'm pretty nervous and stressed, even though I know it's a "minor" thing. Would appreciate any prayers or positive karma you want to throw my way.
Hide the tests, put them as far away from the bathroom as you can. Try to wait it out at least another day or two if possible. Remember, good things come to those who wait! 
