welshgem and michelle big
![hug :hug: :hug:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/hugs2.gif)
to you both! You have came to the right place for support and advice, the girls on here are so nice and really know their stuff!
victoria....i never found out what caused the mc. Think it was just one of those things though ive heard that a mc can be the cause of blocked tubes. Thats what im hoping anyway....so that the hycosy will dust them out and give them a good oiling lol. Ive had my bloods come back as 'normal' too. Dhs sa's normal...everythingbloody normal. We should have a brood of 10 by now!
We definately thought that dhs sperm must be the problem. We tried to get pregnant just after id had my mc (to my ex) for 2 whole years we tried and tried. I went to my drs and they did a day 14 blood back then. Not sure what it checked but it came back normal! The next step was supposed to be dh getting an sa done but could i get him to go? Could i heck! Talk about male bloody pride! Think he was too scared of what it would say!so deep down i resented the fact he wouldnt find out! I was desperate to find the truth! I tried to convince myself i didnt really want a
![Baby :baby: :baby:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/baby.gif)
anyway! Told myself i was tooo young and should enjoy life...kids only ruin your life right? But i had such a deep desire to be a mum...i ended up buying a horse! Told myself i wanted to enjoy that....didnt need kids! Over the years i added to my furbaby family and now have 2 horses, a dog and 4 cats! Well...i needed something to mother! My
![sex :sex: :sex:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/sex.gif)
life went downhill, it kind of felt pointless...i mean...
![sex :sex: :sex:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/sex.gif)
was to make babies and i couldnt get pregnant so doing it felt fraudulent if that makes any sense! Lol so only dtd about 2 or 3 times a month if dh was lucky! Some months we could go without doing it at all!
A couple of years ago i went into boots and they had a male fertilty test where u could check the sperm at home! I was super excited and bought it! Took it home and had to give dh sexual favours (that are usually reserved for birthdays and when im after something hehe) in order for him to give me a specimen for the test! Imagine our
![Shocked :shock: :shock:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/icon_eek.gif)
when it said normal! Think hubby was super relieved but it got me thinking that there must be something wrong with me! After all these years of us thinking his swimmers where usueless! Now i was scared, but didnt know what to do next.
Well...about 18months or so ago i went to a fortune teller and she asked me if i was pregnant! I said...no..no way! She said are you sure??? I said yip...no bfp for me! She asked if i was really sure cos shes usually always right! I explained my ttc 10yrs! And she said she could defo see me with a baby! I went home and started thinking...i was near the end of my cycle....what if she was right?
![yipee :yipee: :yipee:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/yipee.gif)
i started googling pregnancy symptoms and got soooo excitied! I had sore boobies! Wow...maybe i WAS pregnant! Rushed out and bought tests....bfn! Damn....maybe the test was wrong? I discoved ttc sites and realsied how little i really knew about ttc! I thought that the egg got released and after that you had a week or so to catch it before your period and thats how u got pregnant! Anyway af came...i wasnt pregnant but after everything i learnt from the ttc sites it got me thinking that maybe...just maybe i had been
![sex :sex: :sex:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/sex.gif)
at the wrong times!! It gave me sooo much hope! I became a bit of a ttc expert lol...temping (the only way other than blood to confirm ov) opks (tho they detect the lh surge they dont confirm ov) examining cm (which was something i was totally oblivious to) i used preseed, concieve plus....softcups! You name it...we tried it! But month after month that damn
![witch :witch: :witch:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/witch.gif)
flew in
![Cry :cry: :cry:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/cry.gif)
i went back to my drs they did cd21 bloods....normal. Dh went to his dr for official sa....normal. I got reffered to fs back in october...another cd21...normal....another sa...normal. Bloody NORMAL! Now im just waiting for the hycosy in June! Im on cd24 just now (i think) ive been taking a sleep hormone called melatonin(there was been studies to say it improves egg quality and fertility) well anythings worth a shot right? I have a friend who was ttc 20 months with 60 day cycles...she took it and bam...bfp first time after taking it! So it gives me a little hope this month.
If hycosy comes back normal then im 'unexpalined'. But that doesnt mean nothing wrong. Sometimes they cant tell whats wrong till they start ivf. It can be that the outer shell of the egg is too hard for the sperm to penetrate or the sperm arent up to the job despite normal sa's. They say that most unexplained cases will concieve naturally within 6 or 7 years! Quite often they will give chlomid as it increased quantity and quality of eggs therefor more chances every cycle! And lots of ladies with unexplained infertility on here have gotten bfps with it! I have even considered buying it on the net without prescription cos dont think my doctor will prescribe it for me. I will do ivf if i have to but really want to give natural a chance too. I will need to lose quite a bit of weight for ivf so whilst waiting i really think i will give chlomid a shot. Think they start at 50mg to see how it goes then they up it but think i would go straight for the 100mg...seems like thats the most successful from what ive seen!
So...all in all ive been a crazy ttc mad woman.....with one dream. I cant and wont give up the dream. I need to hold my baby in my arms to be complete. I wish each and every one of you a lovely
![Baby :baby: :baby:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/baby.gif)
and i know that one day...we will all be mums! And i hope we can be friends and support each other on our journeys to motherhood!