i did a little tweaky Maureen, not that it needed any thats for sure! I was just soooooo excited to be able to tweak your BFP test
As for you feeling Scared, thats totally understandable chick
i believe any woman who has gone through a loss or more will know exactly where your coming from... Pregnancy is scary just on its own! and becomes even more scary etc when you already have fears and upset from previous losses
I fell pregnant back to back 3 times in a row!!! this pregnancy i fell within 5 weeks of my last MC and the pain i had from that MC and the 1 previous was very Deep and Raw... I was scared, i didnt want to truly believe it, i didnt bond at all in the early days, i was constantly going to the toilet and checking for blood, any flutter, any cramp etc would make me stop dead in my tracks. Before i went for my 7 week scan i convinced myself that much that i had miscarried again, i was going through my head right ill ring my mam first, come home tell everyone on BNB, then remove my tickers etc and just go and curl up in bed and sleep for the next 20 odd years!
Im not going to lie to you and say oh you'll be fine, the next 8-9 months will be a Breeze!... You will worry and you will fear the worst, you will symptom spot and it will take time to be convinced that this pregnancy will stick and it will make it!...
Ive found my comfort in doing little milestones, i.e making it through day by day, making it to my first scan, then making it to my first midwife appointment... now im looking forward to my 12 week scan.. Every time ive ticked off a little milestone i feel super Happy
it will take time, but dont beat yourself up about