Jan/Feb 2023 Bundles of Joy!!!

[cazza22]

Happy v day @cazza22.
Ure bump is so gorgeous. I so so hope I get to have a bump like that again one day.
since the miscarriage 4 cycles ago all I’ve had is BFNs and I feel so so fed up.
8 months ttc now and time is just running out.
Don’t think I’m gonna get my rainbow but I’ve started maca and coq10 and I pray they don’t mess my ovulation up and I ovulate at my normal time and I pray they help me get my sticky take home bub.
Cd6 now so it’s the really crappy boring part.
Sorry I don’t post as much In here I just find it can be very painful.
I do check In on you all to make sure your all ok but I rarely post.

Oh sugg I'm praying so hard you get your rainbow this cycle darling. What DPO are you? Have faith my lovely this WILL happen for you

 

[Suggerhoney]

Oh sugg I'm praying so hard you get your rainbow this cycle darling. What DPO are you? Have faith my lovely this WILL happen for you

Awww thanks love.
I’m cd10 and got my peak today. I’m really surprised because I really thought it was gonna be supper late because of the maca.
since being on the coq10 I’ve had so much more cm.
I’ve never tried it b4 but I hear great things about it.
Also I was taking maca after I had my 4th loss in 2020, I was advised by a lady on here about it who said it can help prevent miscarriage.
So I started taking it on 1st November 2020 then In Jan 2021 on cycle 11 ttc we fell with our youngest:

I was not taking maca when I had the miscarriage and chemical in June and April, that was the only thing I wasn’t taking so I hope it works this time too.
One thing I have noticed since ttc this time is a lack of cm. But since starting the maca and coq10 on cd2 I’ve had loads.
Gonna give dh the fluttery eye lashes tonight when kids In bed lol.

 

[cazza22]

Awww thanks love.
I’m cd10 and got my peak today. I’m really surprised because I really thought it was gonna be supper late because of the maca.
since being on the coq10 I’ve had so much more cm.
I’ve never tried it b4 but I hear great things about it.
Also I was taking maca after I had my 4th loss in 2020, I was advised by a lady on here about it who said it can help prevent miscarriage.
So I started taking it on 1st November 2020 then In Jan 2021 on cycle 11 ttc we fell with our youngest:

I was not taking maca when I had the miscarriage and chemical in June and April, that was the only thing I wasn’t taking so I hope it works this time too.
One thing I have noticed since ttc this time is a lack of cm. But since starting the maca and coq10 on cd2 I’ve had loads.
Gonna give dh the fluttery eye lashes tonight when kids In bed lol.

Yeahhhh for the excess CM babe get on that hubby of yours and catch that healthy egg . We're all rooting for you sugg x

 

[Suggerhoney]

Yeahhhh for the excess CM babe get on that hubby of yours and catch that healthy egg . We're all rooting for you sugg x

Hahahaha oh that made me laugh. We did manage it so hopefully it’s a good egg. Only time will tell eek. I will probably ovulate tomorrow so I feel good we got tonight in. Now the wait eeep

 

[realbeauty86]

Ugh this week has been so annoying… I just need to vent a lil sorry if some of it is tmi
First off I’ve been sleeping all day darn near. My hubby hates when I’m sleep when he go on break from work and when he get off at night lol but he says he understands and know it’s the baby. I feel like this is how it should’ve been first trimester but it wasn’t.

my vagina feels like it had a hard workout at the gym, so sore. The baby likes to sit and lay low for some reason and it hurts to walk, I ordered a belt but I don’t know how that will help my vagina.

also I had problems with boils before pregnancy, true hormones are making them so bad and by my vagina. I have one the size of a golf ball by my ass and a few more on the outside of the lips. It’s so embarrassing and painful.

Im so bored being at home I wanna cry. But my hip sucks and it gets so sore because my body is changing. I just feel helpless and useless. Can’t even have sex with my husband. He even been trying to keep parts of the house clean cuz he know I’m going thru some shit. And I tell him sorry I’m not trying to not do anything and he says no it’s ok, I can help out more. He’s sweet for that but I don’t think I like how I feel. Idk about another baby after this lol this may be it for me. Oh and I’m still vomiting when I eat certain things, just out of no where smh

 

[cazza22]

Ugh this week has been so annoying… I just need to vent a lil sorry if some of it is tmi
First off I’ve been sleeping all day darn near. My hubby hates when I’m sleep when he go on break from work and when he get off at night lol but he says he understands and know it’s the baby. I feel like this is how it should’ve been first trimester but it wasn’t.

my vagina feels like it had a hard workout at the gym, so sore. The baby likes to sit and lay low for some reason and it hurts to walk, I ordered a belt but I don’t know how that will help my vagina.

also I had problems with boils before pregnancy, true hormones are making them so bad and by my vagina. I have one the size of a golf ball by my ass and a few more on the outside of the lips. It’s so embarrassing and painful.

Im so bored being at home I wanna cry. But my hip sucks and it gets so sore because my body is changing. I just feel helpless and useless. Can’t even have sex with my husband. He even been trying to keep parts of the house clean cuz he know I’m going thru some shit. And I tell him sorry I’m not trying to not do anything and he says no it’s ok, I can help out more. He’s sweet for that but I don’t think I like how I feel. Idk about another baby after this lol this may be it for me. Oh and I’m still vomiting when I eat certain things, just out of no where smh

Oh huny you sound so fed up bless you. Is there anything the doctor can prescribe for the boils to reduce the swelling or any creams/ointments to help? Sounds so painful so no wonder you're not having sex. Also my tiredness has kicked back in too hun I'm so sleepy like all the time . Feel like I need to nap right now but I need to put away a week's worth of laundry that's built up while we've been away at our caravan. A pile as tall as me ffs.
I hope you can get something to help your pain x the tiredness will subside again soon for us hopefully darling x bug hugs x

 

[realbeauty86]

Oh huny you sound so fed up bless you. Is there anything the doctor can prescribe for the boils to reduce the swelling or any creams/ointments to help? Sounds so painful so no wonder you're not having sex. Also my tiredness has kicked back in too hun I'm so sleepy like all the time . Feel like I need to nap right now but I need to put away a week's worth of laundry that's built up while we've been away at our caravan. A pile as tall as me ffs.
I hope you can get something to help your pain x the tiredness will subside again soon for us hopefully darling x bug hugs x

The ob says I can see a dermatologist but I feel like I went that route and nothing helped, creams and certain stuff to wash with. It’s never helped and with pregnancy what more would they really do lol

Last night I had to pray because I’m stressed. Me and my husband just keep getting into it. Idk how he can be so sweet and so stupid on other days. He’s like a stone cold wall some days with no human emotion. It stresses me out cuz he say I walk around looking miserable and I’m not happy. He just don’t understand. I just feel like he always complaining about me when I do all I can. Im praying for strength because I may end up leaving him. I don’t want to but I’m tired of crying and him not understanding. Everything just sucks right now. Sorry if it seems like I’m running a pity party. I literally have no one to talk to. My bff while drunk told me I’m wrong most times I talk lol like d damn really. They are both Leo’s. So I don’t wanna run to talk to her anymore.

 

[Megan0625]

@realbeauty86 I'm sorry to hear about the boils, those sound miserable! I definitely understand how you are feeling. Tbh, my sex drive is extremely low right now and I expected it to be much higher. But I'm tired all the time! And my abdomen feels sore and I do get random pelvic pain from where our daughter likes to sit. I felt super energized the first couple weeks of the second trimester but the fatigue is really back. I need daily naps to feel alive lol. And I get frequent headaches 2-3 times a week. It's honestly really hard for anyone to understand that has never been pregnant. Some days I feel great and barely feel pregnant and some days I feel like I've been hit by a truck. My daily walks with our dogs have helped a little bit (I try to go at least 1.5 miles a day) with my fatigue but it's still pretty hard most days.

 

[realbeauty86]

@realbeauty86 I'm sorry to hear about the boils, those sound miserable! I definitely understand how you are feeling. Tbh, my sex drive is extremely low right now and I expected it to be much higher. But I'm tired all the time! And my abdomen feels sore and I do get random pelvic pain from where our daughter likes to sit. I felt super energized the first couple weeks of the second trimester but the fatigue is really back. I need daily naps to feel alive lol. And I get frequent headaches 2-3 times a week. It's honestly really hard for anyone to understand that has never been pregnant. Some days I feel great and barely feel pregnant and some days I feel like I've been hit by a truck. My daily walks with our dogs have helped a little bit (I try to go at least 1.5 miles a day) with my fatigue but it's still pretty hard most days.

Think I’m gonna start walking every morning. I need something. I’m thinking of going to Chicago and stay with my mom a couple weeks. Hubby feels like he needs a break so I’m gonna give him that. Guess that’ll determine if we make it or not. I don’t have high hopes. He’s usually set once his mind is made up. Anyhoo… hope your sex drive come back. It sucks when it’s gone. And so true, I think my husband thinks all pregnant women are the same. His first wife must didn’t go thru anything smh

 

[cazza22]

Think I’m gonna start walking every morning. I need something. I’m thinking of going to Chicago and stay with my mom a couple weeks. Hubby feels like he needs a break so I’m gonna give him that. Guess that’ll determine if we make it or not. I don’t have high hopes. He’s usually set once his mind is made up. Anyhoo… hope your sex drive come back. It sucks when it’s gone. And so true, I think my husband thinks all pregnant women are the same. His first wife must didn’t go thru anything smh

I am so sad for you going through this hun. We need our hubby's support and understanding now more than ever?. They don't know how lucky they are these men of ours. I truly hope tye absence makes his miss you and realise what you have together huny xxxx

 

[Megan0625]

Think I’m gonna start walking every morning. I need something. I’m thinking of going to Chicago and stay with my mom a couple weeks. Hubby feels like he needs a break so I’m gonna give him that. Guess that’ll determine if we make it or not. I don’t have high hopes. He’s usually set once his mind is made up. Anyhoo… hope your sex drive come back. It sucks when it’s gone. And so true, I think my husband thinks all pregnant women are the same. His first wife must didn’t go thru anything smh

I'm sorry you are going through that! This is definitely a time when we need our partners' support, so I really hope you two are able to work everything out. I think it's just really difficult for some people to understand what we go through during pregnancy and how to meet our needs during such a vulnerable and difficult time. I hope you are able to get some clarity during this time too, and enjoy time with your mom!

 

[realbeauty86]

Thanks ladies. I appreciate it. So I went to the ER yesterday and they ended up lancing the bigger boil I had. Gave me a so called shot for numbing and I felt every bit of slicing. It was terrible. Idk how long it takes to go down but the pressure part is gone but it’s still quite large so idk. Guess time will tell

 

[cazza22]

Thanks ladies. I appreciate it. So I went to the ER yesterday and they ended up lancing the bigger boil I had. Gave me a so called shot for numbing and I felt every bit of slicing. It was terrible. Idk how long it takes to go down but the pressure part is gone but it’s still quite large so idk. Guess time will tell

What a relief that they lanced it hun I hope that gives you some relief?. Did uou and hubby manage to have a chat? I really hope you're ok darling girl x

 

[realbeauty86]

What a relief that they lanced it hun I hope that gives you some relief?. Did uou and hubby manage to have a chat? I really hope you're ok darling girl x

we talked some… I honestly think he’s bipolar. I wish I could suggest for him to find out but he would never go. It’s like I don’t know how to set my heart up for him, of course I wanna be married and I love him with all my heart but it’s hard. I know he loves me but once he mad, he just don’t care in that moment but once he’s calm he’s back to loving me. It’s really like he’s bipolar. I know my heart won’t take it forever, my first marriage was abusive and even tho he isn’t physically abusive, he’s mentally fucking me up slowly. So for now I’m just praying on it

 

[cazza22]

we talked some… I honestly think he’s bipolar. I wish I could suggest for him to find out but he would never go. It’s like I don’t know how to set my heart up for him, of course I wanna be married and I love him with all my heart but it’s hard. I know he loves me but once he mad, he just don’t care in that moment but once he’s calm he’s back to loving me. It’s really like he’s bipolar. I know my heart won’t take it forever, my first marriage was abusive and even tho he isn’t physically abusive, he’s mentally fucking me up slowly. So for now I’m just praying on it

Being mentally drained can sometime feel worse can't it because its all consuming and no end in sight when you're in that moment of arguing and torment. I've been there girl. I wish there was something I could say to help but it sounds like you know he needs to speak to someone maybe?. It's so hard to get these men to Any kind of doctor or therapist to speak about their feelings and mindset isn't it?. Like how are we supposed to help them if the won't help yhemselves? So draining especially while in a vulnerable pregnant state x thinking of you huny I hope you can both find your way through this

 

[Suggerhoney]

Hi @realbeauty86 I’m bipolar type 2 and if you want to ask me any Questions or anything at all I’m here for you love. U can pm me .

Glad u had the boil lanced but oh my Outch.
When I was 14 weeks pregnant with my 3 year old son I had to have a tooth out, and I swear she didn’t give me enough anaesthetic, I felt everything and it literally felt like she was breaking my jaw. Was absolutely agony.

I wonder if when pregnant they can’t give you as much?
I wondered that at the time, but now reading what happened to you makes me wonder even more.
Gosh love I really hope and pray In Jesus Name that heels quickly.
Thinking of you love

 

[realbeauty86]

Hi @realbeauty86 I’m bipolar type 2 and if you want to ask me any Questions or anything at all I’m here for you love. U can pm me .

Glad u had the boil lanced but oh my Outch.
When I was 14 weeks pregnant with my 3 year old son I had to have a tooth out, and I swear she didn’t give me enough anaesthetic, I felt everything and it literally felt like she was breaking my jaw. Was absolutely agony.

I wonder if when pregnant they can’t give you as much?
I wondered that at the time, but now reading what happened to you makes me wonder even more.
Gosh love I really hope and pray In Jesus Name that heels quickly.
Thinking of you love

Thanks lady. Idk about the amount with pregnancy. She used a whole syringe filled. I actually had a bubble that was in my spine from my first epidural lanced and they too said it would be numb, although
Some ppl feel it. I felt it then also smh. I’m just a glutton for pain smh. Seems that way. I’m so ready to have my body back. I could cry. I think I’m done after this baby lol seriously. Lately I get a bad cramp in my vagina when she sitting low. I have to stand still til it passes.
Well I got my date set now for induction so I will be induced on my bday Jan 9th and 10am unless I have to go in sooner.

 

[Suggerhoney]

Thanks lady. Idk about the amount with pregnancy. She used a whole syringe filled. I actually had a bubble that was in my spine from my first epidural lanced and they too said it would be numb, although
Some ppl feel it. I felt it then also smh. I’m just a glutton for pain smh. Seems that way. I’m so ready to have my body back. I could cry. I think I’m done after this baby lol seriously. Lately I get a bad cramp in my vagina when she sitting low. I have to stand still til it passes.
Well I got my date set now for induction so I will be induced on my bday Jan 9th and 10am unless I have to go in sooner.

Haha I said my 3 year old would be my last and then I went on to have my youngest and now trying again.
I desperately want another baby and to be pregnant again. Having that miscarriage made me want it even more.


Jan will come around in no time

 

[realbeauty86]

So I had my new ob put in for me to have a full panel of labs concerning my vitamin levels, because I had Weightloss surgery years ago and I’m supposed to take quite a few vitamins but some drs only worry about baby and not the mom. My new doc was fine with doing my levels and everything is actually fine except my vitamin D levels. They were extremely low like 3 point something. So she wrote me and said to start back my vitamin D3. I’m glad I stuck to my guns and had them do it.

 

[realbeauty86]

Haha I said my 3 year old would be my last and then I went on to have my youngest and now trying again.
I desperately want another baby and to be pregnant again. Having that miscarriage made me want it even more.


Jan will come around in no time

lol I guess that’s true. After my first, going thru that terrible labor, I was like never again. Took 9 years tho but I did it again lol

I hope you get that baby then, anyone who WANTS it, I think should be able to have it.