Life after Loss Support Group........All Welcome :)

[feeble]

Oh sweetie, how horrid for you

At least your home now and can just be at ease with your family x

I wouldn't have been able to deal with that situation at all x

 

[Andypanda6570]

Happy New Year, everyone!!!!
Nikki, Glad your here I missed you
Sorry to everyone who had a hard New Year. I could not wait for it to be over, I couldn't drink cause I had to drive. I actually felt better not drinking. I hope 2012 bring much peace to us all who have lost and hope to those who are trying and all the best of luck for a H&H 9 months to those who are pregnant.
I Love You All.. Thanks SO SO ,much for being there for me and for understanding my pain. You all are amazing

 

[MummyStobe]

Happy New Year everyone.

Just wanted to say a big thank you for helping me through the darkside of 2011.

I really hope that 2012 brings each and every one of us everything that we wish for and dream of.

Love you all x

 

[babylou]

Hello all.

Just wishing you all a Happy New Year, and hope we all have a better year this time around.

Thanks for all your support over the last few months, I don't know what I would have done without you all.

xx

 

[Nikki_d72]

Hi ladies - Happy New Year! This is going to be a better one for all of us. It just has to be!

Nikki - welcome back! Missed you hun I am so sorry about the test result - how utterly awful.

Sally, I am still hoping for a miracle, lovely. Thinking of you

Good luck on the scan, feeble, hope everything goes ok. Will be thinking of you on the 5th, let us know how it goes.

Well, I went to the party and managed 2 hours before finding myself in floods of tears in a side room and having to drag the whole family home again (an hours drive, and we were meant to be staying over, so my autistic son was screaming, I was crying, it was awful). The other couples were loud, raucous, not my sort of people at all. I felt instantly excluded. I was fine until they arrived, but quickly started to descend into quietness, and then got upset. I just knew I couldn't stay there any longer. I felt terrible, and my friend felt awful too, because she didn't realise how important it was for me to have a quiet NY. I thought she would have understood that, or at least realised that inviting their friends without telling us wasn't the right thing to do, but I guess other people just don't get how this affects us. To be honest, though, I would have hated it even if I wasn't grieving. It just wasn't the evening I would have chosen. We have other mutual friends and any of them would have been fine. So feeling pretty crappy, but my lovely family have cheered me up no end. They are so supportive. I don't know what I would do without them.

I'm so sorry Helen. Other folk just don't get it at all, no matter how sensitive they may be. it's over now, hopefully we can all allow ourselves to look forward a tiny bit now. I'm glad your family are supporting you.
xxx

Not much to report here - just feeling deflated and hating work more than ever - we did over 70 covers last night in a tiny place so it was hellish. There will be about another month or so of this to go, at least I've got a job I suppose but I'm really over it. The 2 days I have off in the middle, my MIL and her partner are coming so I'll get no rest really. It's time to ourselves I'm really craving - we've only had one day without being with other people in what will be 15 days by the end of their visit, it's all getting a bit much for me really - I'm quite a solitary person at the best of times. I'm pretty bitter that the one chance I had for a break in the whole year was spent with folk who allegedly came to see us because of what happened but then didn't even ask how we were doing. Now we've used all my holiday allowance and all our money up to come away more stressed than we went. New Year's Resolution - to be more assertive and practise saying no to things that don't suit me. (and lose 3 stone, start making jewellery again, drawing and painting again and have my rainbow - not much to ask, is it?!)

Hope you are all well girls, it's good to be back with you. Thank you all for the great support you've given me over these last 5 months, I genuinely couldn't have gotten though this so far without you all.

 

[Bride2b]

Does anyone else feel so impatient with waiting around to ttc /af / tww that it seems so bloody long & that you just want to fast forward time?

So this is where I am....5 weeks tomorrow since I lost Bertie, I stopped bleeding 14th/15th ish Dec (so 2 weeks ago) I dont expect AF will arrive anytime in the next week at least. I just want to fast forward a month to see where i'm at! This may sound silly but however much I want to be pregnant I cant get pregnant until at least Feb as I have a bloody £1500 wedding dress (thats very fitted to get into) I figure I wasnt really even showing at 19 weeks when I had Bertie, so as long as I am less than 5 months pg on my wedding day the dress will fit! Thats is I fall pg quickly (sooooooo hope I do). The other thing is that I havent done anything to not get pg since the bleeding stopped - am I stupid?? I feel I dont want to deny myself falling again, part of me thinks if things happen almost immediately my bloody dress wont fit but I dont want the pregnancy to not work out as a bit of revenge for me worrying about a dress (as a life is so much more precious than a dress). My mind is in overdrive....sorry ladies!

I am also playing mind games with myself, as I was convinced an IC caused this. Then a few days ago I went to the docs and he looked at my notes and saw I had been given antibiotics for a possible water infection 2-3 weeks before having Bertie, he said that might be an indication & could be brought up with the consultant as a possible cause. Nobody actually clarified I had a water infection (I just didnt feel quite right-could it have been my cervix starting to mess about). Anyway.....I am back on the IC trail and am convinced again that this is what caused this to happen. The doctor did tell me they are not likely to find a cause (hence him looking at my notes). In most cases ladies are diagnosed with IC due to finding no other cause in the 2nd tri loss. Obviously this has unveiled a load of questions about the next time round for me. Has anyone here been diagnosed with IC? (I know there is a thread on the gestational complications part about IC but dont feel I can really ask questions there yet as I havent actually been diagnosed with it.)

Sorry to waffle on......

Yay its 2012!

 

[kiki04]

I think Kelly had an IC so she should be able to help you out when she gets back from vacay

 

[blav]

Bride2be-I was diagnosed with IC...I know a good amount about it now if you have any questions!

AFM- has arrived! Which, I'm happy about for a few reasons. It means I almost certainly ovulated which I wasn't sure about, it means my period is basically the same as it was before the baby, and it means OH and I will be back to in a couple weeks!

Happy New Year to all you amazing, strong, caring ladies.

 

[yazoo]

Hi girls,

Happy New Year to each and every one of you. 2012 can only get better for us & I hope that all you dreams come true.

I was greeted on New Years Day with the arrival of AF. I had dreamt I was pregnant and was kind of getting my hopes up but it wasn't to be. So yet another month of trying & I hate it. I really thought I would be pregnant by now. On the other hand I am thinking maybe its better that it didn;t happen this month as it would be a lot to deal with along with going back to work. Also I have another follow up on the 13th & I will know for sure whats going on with my body after that. Hopefully next month will be the month.

Nikki- Its so good to have you back. I'm really sorry about the test & arrival of AF. I hope you can take some time out & destress. Sorry that the inlaws are stressing you out.

Sally- I hope your ok hun. Thinking of you.

Helen, big hugs to you. I'm sorry your NYE didn't go so well.

Sorry I know I have missed loads but its 1.30 & I can't sleep and my brain is all mushy.

Oh girls a quick question- Have any of you noticed that your AF is more painful since giving birth? My back is in bits & it was never like this before Jakob. It seems each month the pain gets worse.

 

[kiki04]

My AF seemed to have gotten lighter since Hadlee But that being said I would love to trade shoes with you right now! If AF showed up today I would be a happy camper so I at least could begin a fresh new cycle CD48 and counting!

 

[feeble]

After J, my periods were much much heavier and really far apart... Thats why we fell with our angel without meaning to!

After the angel they got back to lighter/more reasonable quite quickly so I think it's just we bit of time that's needed after a full term birth for everything to settle x

Having heavy periods makes you more fertile though, because the egg has somewhere deep and comfy to stick.

 

[Hellylou]

Tanya and Blav - sorry AF got you Here's to next month, though! I am sure it will happen soon To answer your question, Tanya, my periods have been way more regular and 'normal' since I gave birth. Before I got pg, they were all over the place, heavy, irregular, spotting, etc. Now they are like clockwork with no spotting and only last a week. It's a miracle! I guess everyone is different.

Krissy - CD48! How crazy is that? Is it worth going to docs to get checked? Does it feel like AF is on her way at all?

Gemma - wish I knew more about IC, but I know plenty of ladies on here do. Hope you get some more info And yes, I am completely impatient too.

AFM...I am trying not to get my hopes up too much here. I did a test yesterday and BFN. I shouldn't even be trying yet, and there was only one BD right around what I think was O. I really have no idea, but I am cramping like crazy lately and AF is due Friday. Trying not to symptom spot, but I have acne, sore bbs, and nausea. All in my head, I just know it. Why do we torture ourselves like this? If it did happen this month it would be a serious miracle. I am so trying to convince myself it didn't happen, but it's very hard not to kind of wonder...so AGH let AF just come and put me out of my misery here! I need to wait to see kidney consultant anyway...I'm so foolish.

 

[Nikki_d72]

Hey, has anyone heard from Susanne (Ellie10) ?

Tanya and Blav I'm sorry too that the witch got you. Hopefully 2012 will bring us all our rainbows.

GL Helen xxx

 

[kiki04]

Tanya and Blav - sorry AF got you Here's to next month, though! I am sure it will happen soon To answer your question, Tanya, my periods have been way more regular and 'normal' since I gave birth. Before I got pg, they were all over the place, heavy, irregular, spotting, etc. Now they are like clockwork with no spotting and only last a week. It's a miracle! I guess everyone is different.

Krissy - CD48! How crazy is that? Is it worth going to docs to get checked? Does it feel like AF is on her way at all?

Gemma - wish I knew more about IC, but I know plenty of ladies on here do. Hope you get some more info And yes, I am completely impatient too.

AFM...I am trying not to get my hopes up too much here. I did a test yesterday and BFN. I shouldn't even be trying yet, and there was only one BD right around what I think was O. I really have no idea, but I am cramping like crazy lately and AF is due Friday. Trying not to symptom spot, but I have acne, sore bbs, and nausea. All in my head, I just know it. Why do we torture ourselves like this? If it did happen this month it would be a serious miracle. I am so trying to convince myself it didn't happen, but it's very hard not to kind of wonder...so AGH let AF just come and put me out of my misery here! I need to wait to see kidney consultant anyway...I'm so foolish.

What would be the worst case scenario of getting pg before seeing the kidney specialist? If it is something that can easily be postponed I will keep my FX for a beaming by saturday

AFM- I dont feel her coming really But because of my charting, I have had 2 days down on the decline so I am guessing tomorrow they will drop below coverline and then within 2 more days AF should be here. I have no idea what went haywire this month. I have never ever ever had a cycle this long!!! I almost feel like there is some eery creepy stuff that has to do with this. Had AF come on time, I wouldnt have been able to try for the following (jan) cycle. But now that it has been so prolonged like this... I wont miss that window... AND by chance I do get it this month, I puts my EDD right around Hadlees. Within 2 weeks Some higher power made this happen to me so I can get my jan bfp Thats my random thought for the day

 

[Hellylou]

Hey, has anyone heard from Susanne (Ellie10) ?

Tanya and Blav I'm sorry too that the witch got you. Hopefully 2012 will bring us all our rainbows.

GL Helen xxx

Thank you. I was wondering the same thing. She hasn't checked in in quite a while..

What would be the worst case scenario of getting pg before seeing the kidney specialist? If it is something that can easily be postponed I will keep my FX for a beaming by saturday

AFM- I dont feel her coming really But because of my charting, I have had 2 days down on the decline so I am guessing tomorrow they will drop below coverline and then within 2 more days AF should be here. I have no idea what went haywire this month. I have never ever ever had a cycle this long!!! I almost feel like there is some eery creepy stuff that has to do with this. Had AF come on time, I wouldnt have been able to try for the following (jan) cycle. But now that it has been so prolonged like this... I wont miss that window... AND by chance I do get it this month, I puts my EDD right around Hadlees. Within 2 weeks Some higher power made this happen to me so I can get my jan bfp Thats my random thought for the day

I don't think it would be the end of the world if I am pg before I see him. I have appt with kidney specialist on 19th Jan when we will be doing my next set of tests (checking protein leak and kidney function). I am not on any meds because he knows I am going to TTC again, but he wanted me to wait til New Year to see what my kidneys are doing by themselves with no meds. Last set of results in Oct were great, and that was with no meds and after my loss, so I am hoping the trend continues. The goal is to get my protein leak as low as poss before I get pg, because it will start to rise during pregnancy. If I am already pg, I think he will be unimpressed. But I would be very happy!

Fingers crossed there is a higher power controlling your bizarre cycle, and it's all with an end goal in sight! Sounds v positive.

 

[Bride2b]

Helen - are you sure your out? How many DPO are you? Good luck hun xx

Tanya - for the arrival of the

Britney - glad your ok about the , its a countdown to the next ov now hopefully we will get there about the same time (if she arrives for me soon). I just started an IC thread so maybe we can chat about crappy cervix there!!

Krissy - WTF???? Say no more!

AFM I WANT TO BE PREGNANT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Hellylou]

No, I'm def not out. I am not even due AF yet, I just tested early. I think I O'd around 22nd December, as I got a postive OPK on 21st and DTD on 21st, just the once, so I think my chances are there, but not exactly great. We shall see...

 

[blav]

Bride2be-I'll check it out. I hope that AF gets you soon! OH and I both feel really positive about this cycle so we'll see how it goes! I want you to be my pregnancy buddy (maybe I can will your period to arrive???)

 

[Bride2b]

No, I'm def not out. I am not even due AF yet, I just tested early. I think I O'd around 22nd December, as I got a postive OPK on 21st and DTD on 21st, just the once, so I think my chances are there, but not exactly great. We shall see...

Ah man that sounds good....timing sounds perfect, fingers crossed!

 

[Bride2b]

Bride2be-I'll check it out. I hope that AF gets you soon! OH and I both feel really positive about this cycle so we'll see how it goes! I want you to be my pregnancy buddy (maybe I can will your period to arrive???)

Lets hope so!!!xx