Nikki, there are are couple of things about you experience that I can relate to and I hope that we can take some strength from each other x
Firstly my ex-best friend got pregnant 3 days before me, also with a little girl, she lives up the road from me and I see her about three times a week, she's due in a week or so I would say, it's heartbreaking. I just have to ignore her if I see her, I know that must sound cold but I have to keep strong for jasper and there is no way if I had to have any more contact with her, I would find it possible to keep it together
Also when I was 18 weeks pregnant with my angel, I was also 'told off' by a holier than thou hippy type who decided to tell me that utrasound definitely WOULD give my baby brain damage and then again a few weeks later told me off for cleaning my carpet as it was 'more harmful crap for your unborn'
She wasn't even willing to discuss these things, just told me that shed never had an ultrasound because she trusted her body. Well I went into my next ultrasound and found out my baby had died, horrid woman.
I have really researched ultrasound and in return for perhaps a tiny tiny change of harm to a baby, we have much less physically disabled to the point of having no quality of life, babies born into the world. We can check a child's heart before they are born rather than after which is far more complicated.
We can offer the best help to our children from an early age. I would be worried about not knowing if my babies had a heart condition or something! Or one not working kidney! These things might not present problems for years, what a risk is that?
It's hard for me, and I am sure it is for you, because this is stuff people should just 'know' isn't it? I am fairly sure that before I had a babyl I would have been a bit more sensitive towards those who had lost a child but so many seem ignorant to our pain!
Maybe our angels have taught us, to be stronger, more sensitive people.
I really feel for you, I would hate to live next door to her, is there anyway you can arrange to go away, visit your mum etc and use that as a reason why you cannot be her backup?
Good luck missis xxx I am so sorry you have to go through this, isn't life so bitterly cruel at times x x x