Good evening girls, I hope you are well
I know I dont really post in here often but I do come and read and try and keep up with you all - I'm like a silent stalker! I just dont really have the energy to be on the laptop much so I use my phone to log on and catch up but it makes replying a nightmare!
Helen I dont know if I've said but I'll say it again OH MY GOD CONGRATS!!!
Is that our first 2012 BFP? Heres to many many more BFPS and rainbows in 2012
Andrea your doing amazingly well with losing weight - keep it up girl!
Krissy I hope AF comes soon - and stops messing you around.
Kelly I'm sorry AF got you after your trip away - but good luck for this cycle!
Gemma I'm sorry about what your going through with OH. I went through similar things and thought he really didnt feel the same way about our loss as I did. But then he did and said some things out of the blue that made me realise that he does hurt and he does think about our daughter, he just tries so hard to 'keep it all together' for my sake, and his. And he is much better at putting on a brave face than I am. Perhaps it is the same with your OH. I cant find any of the websites now but I remember reading a lot about how losing a child is different for the mother and father and how actually it can cause the break down in a lot of relationships as both parties try to deal with things differently.
It did make me think of this poem though -
It must be very difficult to be a man in grief
Since "men don't cry" and "men are strong" no tears can bring relief.
It must be very difficult to stand up to the test
And field calls and visitors so she can get some rest
They always ask if shes alright and whats shes going through
But seldom take his hand and ask "my friend but how are you?"
He hears her crying in the night and thinks his heart will break
He drys his tears and comforts her but "stays strong" for her sake
It must be very difficult to start each day anew
And try to be so very brave when he lost his baby too
AFM: I am doing OKish. I have the cold at the moment so basically sneezing, snuffling and coughing my way through the day! I have my psychologist appointment on Tuesday and my next scan on Thursday which I am already panicing about. I keep getting a feeling of dread now that I have passed 13 weeks... as horrible as it sounds I know my hospital will only do a D&C / D&E upto 13 weeks - afterwards you have to deliver naturally and I just cant get that out my mind
On a slightly more positive note I appear to have a baby bump that has come from nowhere