SLC I was the complete opposite. I just wanted to hibernate and couldn't face the housework at all. I remember everything seeming so pointless. I was hoovering the stairs one day when I got really angry and thought why the hell am I doing this? Nothing matters anymore, who cares about the stairs. And I threw the Dyson down the stairs!
But I've heard of lots of people saying similar to you. It almost like your trying to get back control of something, anything. Because losing your child you had no control over. Just do whatever you feel is best for you -
Sally it is not a bad omen! It's more than likely just a sign that either BnB is rubbish or you are hopeless with computers
please don't let it stress yourself out
AFM I'm getting closer to 'that day' the same gestation I was when I lost Emily. And you know I hadn't really given it much thought to start with but now that it's coming closer I'm freakin out a bit. I feel guilty and sad that this baby will make it further than she ever had the chance to
I still don't feel the same love or attachment to this pregnancy as I had the last time, I guess I am still in protection mode. I don't think that will ever leave me now. I just have this horrible morbid fear that something will happen again, that I don't deserve this baby
I went to the cemetery yesterday and completely lost it I was howling away hugging Emily's headstone I could barely breathe
it's been a long time since I've let go like that... A long time since I e felt the need to I suppose.
I have a scan on 'that day' and I think that's only adding to my anxiety. I am happy we are being closely monitored by I feel my anxiety levels reach the sky everytime we have a scan appointment closing in. Scans are not a happy time for me.
Sorry for bringing my worries here girls