Bumble, that sounds horrid, I hope you’re right and it’s over now and your body starts to have cycles again. It’s so awful, I feel so emotional for you.
Jam, hope your holiday is going well and that you’re keeping your mind off TTC/TWW and having fun.
Mme, have you had longer cycles before?
I’m ok, well, no that’s not strictly true. It’s just what I say. I’m finding feeding REALLY hard. DD got weighed today and has lost weight. We were hoping she’d be back to birth weight and we could be signed off from the midwives but instead I was crying in front of her saying how DD is on me sucking my dry empty boobs for hours every day. Midwife advised adding in two formula feeds a day to get her weight up.
To be honest I was so relieved she suggested it. I’d been sat for days with tears streaming down my face as I tried to feed her with empty boobs. I just wanted to quit breast feeding at that point. DH got some formula and she had 4 ozs at lunchtime. I felt ‘liberated’ from being her sole provider. But then DH said ‘you need to pump while she feeds’ and I came crashing down to earth again. Obviously he wants me to keep BFing her. I do too in a way, all that goodness I know is best for her, but I’m already so sick of being trapped in the house by relentless feeding, having only 2 or 3 outfits that I can easily feed in, not be able to properly look after DS. So now I’m going to add pumping, washing bottles, sterilising and making up feeds to the list of things I need to get done while STILL trying to BF her. I keep reading it gets easier after 6/8 weeks, but to be honest that feels like it may as well be in 10 years it seems so unachievable. Why can’t I be one of those mums who just takes to it, loves it, and the child thrives? It’s just so bloody hard. She’s only 2 weeks old for goodness sake, I feel pathetic!