Never used opk, updated - let the journey begin :)

[JAM1611]

This is the test in question now xx

 

[Bumblebee24]

YES that is most certainly a true BFP congratulations Huni xx

 

[JAM1611]

Thank you hun. I know it must be hard for you!

Im haven’t even told OH. Im surrounded by all of his family too! I think will wait until Thursday and see if AF arrives then play the old ‘I haven’t come on’ card. As we dont go home until Friday i will suggest getting some tests on the way home. Im really nervous to tell him in all honesty. I know its not like hes not ready or anything its just with my OH you just never know how he will take things lol xx

 

[Bumblebee24]

Hahaha tell other half when your ready Hun. It's fantastic news and a great strong BFP 3 days before AF xx

Am sure oh will be happy and also nervous but a fantastic journey becoming a parent. Enjoy the rest of you hols. X

 

[BB1982]

Congratulations Jam, most definitely a BFP!! Even if you peed on the window it’s a hormone in your pee that you only produce when pregnant that triggers the he chemical reaction to produce the pink line!! I’m so pleased for you. I was crap at not telling people so you’ve done well not to blurt it out. How bloody exciting.

Thanks for all your kind words. I’m still in half and half land of feeding and formula right now. Can’t quite seem to say the words out loud ‘I don’t want to feed anymore’, but I can feel that’s the road we are heading down.
My best friend is a BFing support peer and she BF her own 3 kids well over a year each. It’s hard when someone has supported you so much, it feels like I’ll be slapping her in the face turning around now and quitting. I don’t think she’ll see it that way. We talked when I was pregnant and I said all along I would try and hoped it would work but I wasn’t going to let it be a huge emotional stressful issue again this time if it didn’t work out, and that’s exactly what I’m doing again!! I’m in total awe of people who battle through and conquer BFing and I wish I was more like them but I think formula might just be better suited to our lives right now.

 

[JAM1611]

Thank you!! I don’t really believe it tbh lol Im going to do another in the morning as i have one more with me. Its going to be hard not saying anything to him but i want to be alone not around everyone. Its so hard as im really close with my sister in law and mother in law and they are both here too! So its hard not telling them xxxx

 

[Bumblebee24]

BB I think your right, you can’t let it take over. I think there is ALOT of pressure put on women to BF but sometimes it just doesn't work. I really don't think your friend will feel that way at all huni but only you know what’s best. Your hormones are all over the place too which wont help with if you’re feeling a little emotional or anxious. They say baby can pick up on that too, not sure how true it is or if it would affect anything. But I know when I started to hear my dd start to stir I felt my heart rate increase immediately and then she’d go from 0 to 1000 screaming her head off and I just couldn’t get her to latch once she was like that.. I have enough milk supply to feed 10 babies LOL my boobies where massive. Funny now but they looked fake at times. I remember waking up and id fallen asleep on my front they where flat but really round circles and I have leaked all the way through my pads, bra, PJ top and to the mattress. I just cried, it was so painful, that along with DD not latching was it then I’d given up.

So, ladies I’ve got this scan tomorrow as you know, I am SO bloody scared to do a pregnancy test but really want to as I want to have an idea if my levels are still up and what questions to ask. The thought of taking a test to hope for a bfn is heart breaking.

JAM I know its hard hun but it is a really good strong BFP result before AF is due. I am really happy for you chic x what an amazing thing to tell your other half as an end of your holidays

 

[JAM1611]

I totally agree with bumble. Dont put too much pressure on yourself BB. If you can you can if you can’t then you can’t lovely.

Bumble wouldn’t a test still possibly show as a positive atm? Even if you have miscarriaged. Cant imagine what your feeling at the moment. I just hope for you that you get the closure you need tomorrow and you have the all clear to start again right away.

Will pop a picture up in the morning with an update.

Thank you. I just hope this is it for me and it a sticky one!

Xxx

 

[BB1982]

Bumble, I agree with Jam, I think if you test you’re not going to get any answers as your levels may still be high after a loss, or because baby has somehow hung on in there. I think the scan is the only thing that will give you the answers you want, but I totally get why you feel you want to test. Do what you need to do my lovely, we’re all here for you as always no matter the result. I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow.

DS got sent home from nursery after vomiting all over the place. Hoping he just got too hot but he’s had calpol and been asleep on the sofa since. I’m just praying it’s not a virus/bug.

I spoke to a health visitor today who said I should continue to offer the breast but top up after the feed with an ounce or 2 of formula, to see how hungry she is after each feed. She doesn’t drink much of the formula but is hungry and wanting more boob an hour later! Most frustrating.

 

[Bumblebee24]

I hope it is for you too JAM, I really do sweetie xx

Just took one and it's still showing ever so slightly so FX my hormones are going down quickly as I only lost it fully late Sunday. My body won't O again until it thinks am not pregnant anymore.
I've gone full circle now passed sad and now totally pissed right off that it's happened again. Hey and Ive read today that after a second miscarriage your chances of a 3rd increase to 35% lucky lucky me.
Sorry to rant ladies. Think my hormones are just getting the better of me. I still hurt SO bad

 

[JAM1611]

You rant away love. Thats what we are here for. Hopefully your levels start dropping quickly so your body goes back to normal xxx

 

[BB1982]

I know everybody is different but both my sister and my friend both had two miscarriages each before finally getting pregnant with sticky beans. They’ve both gone on to have two babies each and didn’t experience any further losses. But I’m sure that lots of others might experience more losses, so that’s something maybe to speak to the gp or midwife about maybe. I wish I had a crystal ball and could tell you how the story ends. Xx

 

[JAM1611]

I also read that somewhere you seem to be more fertile after a loss. So fingers crossed for you bumble!

Done another test this morning. I even did it in a pot and dipped into it so its no question a positive. The picture was seconds after dipping. I think i know how i will tell OH. Just got to get my plan to work. Its so weird. I haven’t got much symptoms tbf. My boobs are huge and a bit tender and thats it really other than my RHR on my fit bit being high. Looks like i had an inplantation dip too xx

 

[JAM1611]

This was 3/4 mins later. AF due tomorrow! I think thats a pretty strong line so i hope that means everything is gping well. Xx Ps. Ignore my nails. Camping has ruined them lol x

 

[BB1982]

That’s a bloody fantastic line! Very pleased for you Jam, it’s fantastic news. I find it so funny that we all tell each other on here before we tell the dad’s! Lol. We are certainly on all a journey together, and how different all the journeys are.

Bumble, have been thinking if you lots today. Hope you’re doing ok my sweet. Xx

 

[JAM1611]

I was just thinking the same. 3 total strangers know my news before OH does lol!!!

Me too. How was your appointment xxx

 

[Bumblebee24]

Just glad today is over & am going to have a large g&t xx
It went as expected nothing to be seen think lining which I think is good and means thing have come away ok. My blood levels were 29 no idea what that means but she said it's extremely low. Again a good thing. Am back next week to re check bloods. I'll have to take DD as it's school hols. I've just said Mummy has had a really sore tummy recently and I need a few tests.
She also asked about my having polycystic ovaries??? I am not going to do anything about it until 6 months time if I still haven't fallen pregnant or I miscarry AGAIN. I've had enough of being prodded and poked. X
However I have decided that I'm going to use OPKs to check that im actually ovulating x

Congratulations again jam. What's the plan to tell your other half

 

[BB1982]

Bumble, make it a very large G&T after everything! I’m glad everything looked ok, and that they are continuing to monitor you not just pushing you out the door with a ‘good luck next time’ attitude. Does you DD have a tablet or iPad? You could sit her in the apt with headphones and let her watch YouTube crap for a while if you don’t want her hearing stuff? Just an idea.

I so wish everything had turned out differently for you. Xx

 

[JAM1611]

Well as heart breaking as the whole situation is atleast everything is going for the better. I think opks for your first cycle is a good idea. As you say just to check you ovulation as it could be a little all over the place at first.

My plan is to go to the beach tomorrow evening to watch the sunset again and then say to him ‘you know how you keep saying it happens when it happens. Well its happening’ and hand him my tests and hopefully a little trinket of some sort with dad on. Looked today at the little village we visited and couldn’t find anything with dad on. Im just hoping i can persuade him to go down as i have already brought it up and he was just like mehh it’s supposed to be cloudy tomorrow lol. I so wanted to tell him today but i just want tomorrow over with and AF hasn’t arrived. I feel like its all not real atm! Xx

 

[Bumblebee24]

Yeah she's got an iPad, good idea I'll do that xx

Jam that is such a cute idea absolutely love it x