October Sticky Beans!

[todmommy4568]

Jess I think the book is good for anyone regardless of how great or not great their marriage is. If anything it can't hurt haha. I'm sure baby is just too active to catch

Krissie that is so weird. I would see what happens in a couple days because cd8 seems super super early but yesterday seems like a good shot

 

[Angel5000]

I found baby HB this morning right away. So relieved.

And I talked to DH and he and I are going go through the Love Languages book together. After the fight we had earlier I am on edge, and pregnancy is making so insecure. I think this will help.


On a completely different note - I can't eat. I'm not nauseous, no morning sickness, just NO appetite. I feel perpetually full. and if I try to eat anything I feel sick like I overate and start to gag. I didn't realize until I went to bed last night and DH asked how much I had ate (he was gone yesterday until 9pm so he didn't see me eat any meals) that all I had managed to eat was some cottage cheese, two tomatoes, and two very small slices of pizza (which made me feel really sick).

Today I picked up fresh fruits/veggies to use in my juicer, because I can get down liquids, and that will get me some nutrients and DH insisted I buy some ensure to get some nutrients. This sucks. I mean, on the positive side I'm not gaining any more weight but I don't think this is the healthy way to go about it.



Krissie - Without the temps between CD6 and 8 I can't say for sure you ovulated, but it's certainly possible. OR you could just be high right now and it will drop again for O. It was really common for my temps to rise real high sometimes early on and then drop again at O. There's also a chance you O'd yesterday, with today's big jump. I say keep testing adn keep up the BD, just in case.

 

[todmommy4568]

I would definitely get some ensure at least that way you know you are getting nutrients. Or a complete meal replacement powder that you could mix with milk. Ensure has a lot of sugar in it so I would lean towards a different type of meal replacement.

 

[Angel5000]

I went ahead and picked up a pack of ensure today because it's what Safeway had that I was familiar with. I also grabbed the carnation instant breakfast drink mix. It isn't a meal replacement but has some nutrients and will be easy to drink. I actually managed to get down two pieces of toast today, 30 oz of juice from juicer (apples, carrots and celery - really very good actually), an ensure, a carnation drink, some string cheese, and I'm going to manage some soup tonight. It's better than I've done for several days.

Tomorrow I'm going to try to cook chicken, and do quinoa and veggies. I doubt I'll eat much of it, but I do love chicken legs so that will help I think.

A friend recmmended a different meal replacement drink that's "healthier" than ensure, but the store didn't have it so I have to check a different store.

 

[krissie328]

Jess- I had a very low appetite in first and second tri. It wasn't until my last month that I gained 2/3 of my weight. I tried to focus on eating the most nutritious food I could tolerate.

So I have excessive ewcm this evening! Still no positive opk so hoping maybe tomorrow. I'm not sure today's temp is accurate so just waiting to see what the next two days does. But I suspect I'm about to o.

 

[cupcake.]

Yay for impending O! I really hope you get your positive OPK soon!

I hope you'll get your appetite back soon jess but in the meantime i think you're doing great trying to get in as many nutrients as you can with the juices and stuff baby will take whatever it needs and you're making a great effort!
Also when is your next scan? Are you going to find out the gender or stay team yellow?

 

[Angel5000]

So, when we posted our announcement photo on FB I started with a note that said, "After 14 months, 2 miscarriages, and a lot of testing I bring you..... " (I referred to the CPs as miscarriages because that's what my RE called them, and no one knows what a cp is, and it somehow feels like it downplays the heartache we still feel). Anyway, I did it on purpose, I know how hard it is to see pregnancy announcements on FB, especially when TTC and I didn't want anyone to assume it had just "happened" For us. I wanted to share our heartache and struggle because I also (selfishly) wanted people who have kept asking "why don't you have kids don't you want them" to realize we had been trying and we were not just "unable" to get pregnant we were having losses. And I wanted to share with those who are going through the same thing that they were not alone.

Anyway.... it sounds all sappy when I write it out like that, but my simple sentence referencing our troubles was the closest I could come to saying all of that ^

A friend messaged me yesterday (5 weeks after the announcement actually) and thanked me for sharing my struggles becuase she too has had 2 MCs (at 5 and 6.5 weeks) and has been trying for a year and she felt so alone, and confused and lost and it gave her some strength to know that we had gone through the same thing and now we are having a healthy baby (FX) and that it can happen. I knew she'd been trying, I didn't realize she'd had 2 MCs. My heart broke for her, BUT I know that if i hadn't shared my own story she never would have felt comfortable sharing with me. We talked for a long time, I gave her my RE's information so that if her OB won't help her at her next appointment she can go there, because they are amazing. I am praying she gets her sticky bean soon.

Sorry, I guess that was kind of a ramble. But I felt so divided about sharing that personal information (my fb is friends only, and I'm picky about who is on it, being a teacher and all, but still - lots of people) and now I'm so glad I did. I feel like the topic of TTC struggles, and infertility, and Miscarriages just are taboo in our society and it kills me that so many women have suffered in silence.

I don't know how I would have made it through this journey without you ladies.


Krissie, that actually makes me feel better. DH, and the friend styaing wiht us both are worried and keep telling me I need to tell my doctor I Can't eat. Don't know what she's going to do except tell me to eat. The friend was saying he doesn't think this is normal but he's only had one kid and so I doubt his experience is enough to encompass all the normalcies of pregnancy. Hope you O soon!!

Heike - my next OB appointment is August 3rd for my next regular check up and then she'll order the gender scan. Not sure when that will happen but hopefully soon after! I'm thinking sometime before end of August for sure! DH wats to stay team Yellow. I told him he could if he wanted but I was finding out the gender. he agreed to find out gender.

 

[krissie328]

Jess- I am so glad your story helped someone. After I had Christian I opened up a lot more about ttc and our struggles. I tell people now when they ask because I find it empowering now and not shameful like I was with ds.

So my temp was up today so maybe I did o on cd 13. I'm ntnp sure why I had ewcm yesterday though.

 

[Blackrain90]

Jess I definitely had the same appetite issue, it for better for me around the 20 week mark. And I'm glad you were able to help someone else by sharing your TTC struggle.

Krissie I think CD13 is possible but would definitely suggest to keep testing for a few days. You've gotten lots of good BD in though!

 

[krissie328]

I got crosshairs today.

 

[todmommy4568]

Jess that is nice that you put that in there. I agree it is super taboo and that was a very sensitive way of making your announcement

Krissie that's awesome!!

 

[Angel5000]

Thanks.


Krissie -yay! CH! FX! soooo when does the line porn start?

 

[krissie328]

I will start testing Sunday. I know it's crazy early but it was the directions of my doctor so I can get blood work asap when I get a bfp.

I have osom tests which are suppose to be more sensitive than frer. I also have one clear blue digi and an old style frer but those are to confirm.

 

[cupcake.]

Yay for crosshairs!

 

[Angel5000]

So, random issue I'm having.... earlier this month I thought I had UTI - had some pretty bad bladder pains, etc. The tests all came back negative as no UTI. Yesterday evening I started having similar pains. It's ridiculous, and I don't want to go back to the urgent care clinic if it's not a UTI. They said last time that they suspect it could be that my bladder is irritated. Well, it's definitely irritated today. Got no sleep because of it (pretty severe pain) and today it's back and forth.

I still had some left over "pain" pills they give for UTI. Took one last night finally around 2am and managed to get some relief and fell asleep at 3am. :/ I'm taking another one before I go tutor or I don't think I'll make it through my tutoring session. Overall, this sucks. I actually suspect its from soda. both times I have had it occurred the day of and after having had a couple sodas (I am drinking non-caffeinated soda like sprint but carbonation maybe?). IT's the closest connection I could come up with. Going to talk to OB about it at my next appointment but if it doesn't go away in a couple days I'll have to go back to the walk in clinic or get a dr appointment. I cna't keep this up.

 

[cupcake.]

Sorry to hear that jess.. Definitely get it checked out again if it won't go away soon, if you can't sleep because the pain is so bad then there must be something up!

Afm, OH and I attempted to dtd last night.. I keep hearing how pregnant sex is the best and stuff and i was so excited and definitely aroused and stuff (sorry about tmi!) but we couldn't! It felt like my vagina was completely dry, even after a good amount of lube! It was so uncomfortable so we stopped and OH said that i wasn't dry at all and he barely got in..

Again i'm sorry for tmi but i'm so disappointed OH is great of course, he was gentle as can be and said he's up for trying again but doesn't want to force anything and he has no problem being intimate without intercourse. But i really wanted to i've never had a problem like that and i think it's probably because of the big amount of blood flow that things are swollen and super sensitive but for me definitely not in a good way... So yeah, that wasn't fun at all

 

[krissie328]

Jess- I had the same problem when pregnant. I was further along but I asked to be checked for a uti 3 times because of the pain. Every time it was negative. My ob never paid much attn to it as a concern. But it sure sucked.

Heike- I didn't find pregnant sex good until the end. But that could ah be been because I was trying to get that kid to come. In all seriousness I'm sorry it didn't work out. I'm sure it's due to all the extra blood. I use to bleed after sex until I was almost third tri.

 

[krissie328]

My chart sucks! I had three high temps, thought for sure I had od. But then I had two low days and now I just don't know. My cm changed creamy but it was never very fertile except the day after I supposedly o'd. I'm feeling very discouraged this cycle. I started progesterone two days ago so if I didn't ovulate I'm sure I screwed up any chance this cycle.

I have decided next cycle I'm going to do 75 mg. I have enough pills I can split a couple and increase my dose some. And if that doesn't work I will try 100 mg the final cycle before I go back to the doctor.

 

[Angel5000]

Heike - Oh that sucks! I'm sorry about that!

Krissie - I'm so glad to hear I'm not the only one! Everyone is like "well go to the doctor and get meds" and I am trying to explain they won't do anything because if it's just like last time (and it feels like last time) they'll tell me that there's nothing wrong and it's just irritation and they wont' give me anything. The only reason they even gave me the meds last time is that I was going camping and they were waiting on lab results so they didn't want me to be uncomfortable while camping.

I'll give it 2-3 days using the numbing pills I have left over and if it's still an issue Monday I'll go in.


Sorry about your cycle. Sounds so confusing to have to figure it out yourself. :/ Hopefully the increased pills will help next cycle.

 

[krissie328]

So third day of low temps and no more crosshairs. So I'm counting this cycle as a bust and just waiting for a new one.