*** Positive Mental Attitude TTC - Anyone joining us? ***

[lilesMom]

i just got really freaked this eve and i dont know why. last time few days before spotting this happened, but i also dreamed twice that i woke up covered in blood and had mc, i havent dreamed it this time, thank god, i really hope this is just me being a dummy, xx

 

[Smiler82]

Lilesmom you ok?? Sorry I don't quite follow, you spotting? Or just worrying about it? Of course you're going to worry its natural. Take a deep breath hun Perhaps its worth looking into some kind of medidation, think I am going to try that next time as I know the nerves are going to be hard to handle. Thinking of you sweetie xxx

 

[lilesMom]

ive already calmed down, the spotting was last time, just gettin flash backs today cos i was nervous i prob wasnt making sense ha ha, i just got a hypno cd today to relax, i think im more wound up than i thought, im banishing bad thoughts and every now and then they burst out funny enough the big slice of cake i had calmed me down a bit

 

[lilesMom]

i meant i had the same freaked out for no reason feeling happened last time before i spotted so i was worried same was gonna happen but i think i just freaked out cos i was supressing it too well for a bit , iykwim

 

[Smiler82]

Yeah I get you Think you're right, when stuff gets repressed it can randomly burst out. Your cd sounds good-as does the cake!!

 

[lilesMom]

works for me anyway how u doin hon?

 

[Smiler82]

I'm alright thanks hun Taking it one day at a time at the mo, seems to be working. I would really like to know exactly how many dpo I am, but I can't, so just got to live with it! Have been having some more symptoms, but I found out clomid can give you symptoms even after ovulation so I'm not counting on anything at all. Agreed with DH that I'll test on Sunday or Monday if still no sign of AF....

How are you feeling today? I hope you're feeling better. Have you tried your cd yet?

 

[lilesMom]

god that must be so frustrating !!! fx for u honey, it would be sooooo great xx
im good babe, i was being a dumbass i calmed down a bit again, its hard not to worry sometimes xxx thanks x
um.... i hope symptoms r bfp not clomid xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Smiler82]

Ah no you're not being a dumbass you're acting in a totally normal way considering what you have gone through. I know I would be the same x

I am feeling really frustrated today! Yesterday I was ok, today not so much. Funny how we change so quickly eh! I've been getting awful heartburn and it's just starting to p*ss me off. I got it badly with both my pregnancies (though not til much later) but it just reminds me of being pregnant. It is prob just the progesterone, wish it would stop! xx

 

[lilesMom]

this whole thing is startin to really annoy me, we shouldnt have to have it so hard. i think we deserve a break now u with ur bfp and me with a good scan.
fx xxxxxxxxxxxxx big hugs xxxxxxxxxx
i dont think il relax properly til tues, im tryin but i cant il pretend i am, that helps a bit ha ha
hopefully u wil have great news to distract me with at the weekend xxxx
lifes sucky sometimes but lets hope all the hassle works for us this time xxxx
if not i think im takin a yr off, there is only so much a girl can take
sorry im a bit of a downer today again. i just have no clue if its gonna be good r bad tues. not an inkling wish they invented some super duper monitor for us that would tell us what was happening inside us id pay good money for it

 

[Smiler82]

Oh, I didn't know you had a scan on Tuesday lilesmom I know I will be practically vomiting with nerves in the run up to my next scan. I hope you've managed to try your hypnotherapy CD, I really think something like that will help you to relax a little. Well maybe not relax exactly but enable you to handle your worries with a bit of calmness xx How far along will you be on Tuesday?

We both def deserve a break, I will be thinking positively for you for the scan xxx

I'm going out tonight, don't really feel like it atm but it will prob do me good. I will let myself have a couple of glasses of wine and not feel guilty about it! I think tomorrow is going to drag so badly. DH is away tomorrow night so I think my head will be spinning out of control!! Must get in a girly film and some ice cream or something

xxx

 

[lilesMom]

yeah i do babe, im so switchy, sometimes im fine then others im freaked, doh!! hurry up tues il be 7w2d
so should get heartbeat i hope
i did the cd yest and today, it is nice, i prob be fecked if i didnt have it

ur so right to go out, yest i didnt feel like goin to cinema before i left but i enjoyed it and totally forgot my own problems or imagined problems, sorry kinda forgot the whole PMA thing for a little bit. its creeped back again thank god. il try hang onto it now

yeah get face masks and stuff for tomor nt and do the whole girlie thing, sounds good
thanks for listening , sorry for rambling xxxxxxxx

 

[lilesMom]

hopeful how r u chick?
miss cat and b2b r ye gone ? xxxxxxxxxx

 

[mommylov]

I know I dont come on here too often but just wanted to send some good, sticky dust vibes everyones way!

 

[lilesMom]

thanks amy, right back at u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Hopeful335]

Hi ladies. Oh lilesmom I have a reassurance scan Wed-know itll be wrong compared to my dates do that makes me anxious but more anxious about getting throug nxt few days as this is when in miscarried last time!!

It is too hard-we shouldn't have to go through this, we do badly want these babies yet there's young 14 year olds who don't want them dropping on!!

I've never been one to really considers faith or not before-I'm not massively religious but this whole business has made me really question what do think.

Thinking of you both right now and sending you baby dust (sorry no smilies on my phone) x x

 

[lilesMom]

yeah my scan is at 7w2d and 7w 4d is when lile stopped growing i do know why im freaked but hopefully it will be great .
fx for us hon, least we will have some idea next week and will try make time dissappear in the mean time xxxxxxxxxx
fx for heartbeats xxxxxxxxxxxxx
lots o to u too hon xxxxxxxxxx

 

[withlovemom]

Hey girlies,

how r u all doing?? sorry, i have been away for a really long time..

Congratulations to all who had a BFP.... my best wishes n prayers will be with you all through out the full term

n baby dust 2 everyone else who is ttc..

as far as i go, i n hubby hv nt really started to ttc..i mean v r but wid protection.. hubby feels we should wait till next year.. i know its lil sad but i dont want to put a lot of pressure on him..he has been a total sweetheart n supported me really well through my mmc..so i dnt want @ do anything tht would be against his will..

hugs 2 all d lovely ladies at this forum..

 

[Smiler82]

Oh ladies I am sending you both so much love luck and PMA...hope your scans go great. Will be thinking of you and anxious to hear how you get on xxx

Lilesmom I'm glad th CD helped, keep with it

I went out tonight to take my mind off everything, walked into find a baby shower at the next table! In a wine bar?! WTH? Was still good to get out, just couldn't believe it! Xxx

 

[lilesMom]

with love mom thanks sweetie, xxxxx sorry to hear ur waiting but if its the right thing to do for ye then u r so right to do so. im praying this goes well for me but if it doesnt im gonna take a step back too xx
hope ur ok with the decision and keeping well xxxxxxxxxxxxx

thanks smiler xxxx
there is no escape from babies and preg is there , when u dont wanna think about it, its every where xx