Sticking Together Until We All Get BFP's!!!!

[aidensmommy1]

I'm honestly having a pretty rough go of it right now. I didn't want to be all negative when good things are happening for everyone else. My leg is absolutely killing me. It's like a constant state of painful sleep that I can't seem to get rid of, with a lot of fire like pain (like someone sewed a red hot poker into my leg). It sucks so bad. If the pain in my foot doesn't go away, they are going to have to do another operation and do the same thing to the nerve in my foot.

On top of that, ttc is really depressing me right now. I just passed baby #2's edd and I'm really depressed. I have worked so incredibly hard (as have all of you) only to either fail miserably or get there only to have everything taken away. It's really hard emotionally on me right now to be seeing so many people getting positives and I'm still just milling about. I told my hubby today that I am over the dissappointment and heart break. I'm so glad for those of you that have gotten a positive.

I think I'm just mentally not in the greatest mind set right now and I don't want to rub off on anyone as being mean or bitchy or anything.

you just described exactly what I was feeling until about a wk ago. :'-(. Its a horrible feeling. I seriously thought I was breaking down, I couldn't even put into words how I felt but what u wrote is right on how I felt. Its coming up on the date of what should have been my EDD as well and as I was saying to Kenna, that's been on both mine and dhs mine alot. And I also told Kenna I was bitching to her because I didn't want to ruin everyone else's good days with my negativity. I guess we just can't help it sometimes..
I did get myself to come out of that rut and I know you will too. As you said, you have been through soo much but yet, here you are still trying. The positive thoughts will start to come back. I'm always 110% happy for the ladies on here who get bfps, its just ANY woman ttc for a while is going to get very jealous and feel hurt about ANY bfp announcements. Its ok for us to be jealous. Its in our nature. I get jealous & hurt by womens pregnancy's on fake tv shows! Lol
I hope you find your way through this funk asap! I felt horrid when I was just recently in my funk. I just wanted to cry every single day . Its hard. I hope u get a giant surprise & a huge wave of happiness with a blaring BFP this cycle! I am praying so hard for you.
Anyway, I had to comment on this post, it literally is word for word how I was just feeling when I wasn't coming on here much for a bit and i didnt want to say anything and ruin the mood. plus seeing all these hsgs come out clear is hard BUT id never wish anyone to have a blocked tube so i feel happy all at the same time! it all can be so emotional!!! Obv i only get jealous over HSGs because mine wasn't so good and i just wish we ALL would have clear tubes & great fertility, all around! That'd be a perfect world . Im still PARTIALLY feeling down but over the past couple days, good things (other than ttc) have been happening and I'm praying things will start looking up . Come on June! FX! keep your head up jess! I feel a strong good luck streak coming our ways!

 

[mdscpa]

Any news with megan? Hope she is doing great.....

 

[Megamegan]

Hey ladies.. thanks for thinking of me Daphne! Doing fine here. I'm about 5 weeks now and all is well so far. Today I slept in til about noon and that finally convinced hubby that I do not need to give up caffeine, lol. I need my little half cup of coffee pregnant or not.

I've been on this site less but still take time every couple days to read up on everyone. I hope good things are right around the corner for you ladies, especially those who are having a particularly rough time.

 

[Jennuuh]

Happy 5 weeks Megan

 

[mdscpa]

Good Morning Ladies...

Got a dip today as I always get early on my LP.... Got CHs (broken lines I know why though) but i'll leave it like that. It gave my O on the day i had brown stain and the day of my trigger shot. Good thing we did BD very early in the morning of that day (which might be the cause of my stain late in the afternoon before the shot) few hours after the shot that's when i felt something very painful in my ovaries continued the next day on CD15, so it's possible i released the egg(s) from CD14-CD15.. We will see. Now it's time to start TWW.

 

[ab75]

Congratulations Chelsea.
Good luck ladies, hope you all catch your egg(s)(mdscpa)
Xx

 

[mdscpa]

Congratulations Chelsea.
Good luck ladies, hope you all catch your egg(s)(mdscpa)
Xx

Thank you ab75... How's everything going?

 

[Wishing1010]

FX for you, daphne!!!!!!!

Jess, I'm sorry you are still having so much pain I truly hope the pain goes away without having another surgery, but if not, I hope the next surgery is the last needed to fix your pain.

 

[Wishing1010]

Hey ladies.. thanks for thinking of me Daphne! Doing fine here. I'm about 5 weeks now and all is well so far. Today I slept in til about noon and that finally convinced hubby that I do not need to give up caffeine, lol. I need my little half cup of coffee pregnant or not.

I've been on this site less but still take time every couple days to read up on everyone. I hope good things are right around the corner for you ladies, especially those who are having a particularly rough time.

I don't think I could give up my 1/2 cup of coffee either. Happy 5 weeks!!!!!

 

[ab75]

Congratulations Chelsea.
Good luck ladies, hope you all catch your egg(s)(mdscpa)
Xx

Thank you ab75... How's everything going?

I'm ok, thanks for asking. Starting to get really nervous for my scan next week, wish I could push a fast forward button lol xx

 

[mdscpa]

Everything will be fine..... I know the feeling of waiting.... Everyone of us here feels the same way when we anticipate for something to be good...... Just try to relax (i know it's hard, i don't even know why i say it) but that's better that making yourself worry so much which is not good for you and your baby... Praying for both of you.... You will be fine.....

 

[Jennuuh]

Congratulations Chelsea.
Good luck ladies, hope you all catch your egg(s)(mdscpa)
Xx

Thank you ab75... How's everything going?

I'm ok, thanks for asking. Starting to get really nervous for my scan next week, wish I could push a fast forward button lol xx

I definitely feel you there! I have 10 days and I just want it to be here now! Make sure you post a photo so we can guess gender based on nub theory! Or, at least I can

 

[ab75]

I will definitely post a pic jennuuh xx

 

[Jennuuh]

I will definitely post a pic jennuuh xx

Mine is July 3rd, and I'll definitely post one for you to see too!

 

[aidensmommy1]

Good Morning Ladies...

Got a dip today as I always get early on my LP.... Got CHs (broken lines I know why though) but i'll leave it like that. It gave my O on the day i had brown stain and the day of my trigger shot. Good thing we did BD very early in the morning of that day (which might be the cause of my stain late in the afternoon before the shot) few hours after the shot that's when i felt something very painful in my ovaries continued the next day on CD15, so it's possible i released the egg(s) from CD14-CD15.. We will see. Now it's time to start TWW.

looks like we are both 3dpo test buddies! My pattern is going a bit downward BUT it usually either goes up very slow anyhow or in a downward pattern the first few days and this is my first cycle temping vaginally so we shall see how my temp goes tomorrow. At least.i got some bding in last night JUST incase I some how oed late. I don't think I did, esp since my nips have been soooo very sensitive since O. I just think I had a second surge or something.
I am happy u bd'ed enough to catch that egg and I hope the tww goes by quickly for u!

 

[Fiza123]

Hi everyone!!
Mary so you are 3 dpo, the waiting game begins..
Jess get well soon..
Megan I hope your pregnancy is smooth n praying for a healthy baby for you

Now my part of story..since the Last Af Iam having severe pulling and tugging pains in ovaries and the uterus..its been a very dragging pain, i was ignoring it all throughout, so my Dh took me to a gynaec and she was worried that i might have ectopic pregnancy..got beta hcg done..result hcg 2 ..which means negative..
Then she just gave me pain killers .
But my symptoms are worrisome..as i have dizziness and pain even after taking pain killers..I scared this might be endometriosis..my lower abdomen feels heavy and bloated.
Need your prayers..
I think am going to get a thorough check up done when I go to India..my home country..I know a very good gynaec there..so i guess have to wait for a month n manage with pain killers..

 

[aidensmommy1]

Hi everyone!!
Mary so you are 3 dpo, the waiting game begins..
Jess get well soon..
Megan I hope your pregnancy is smooth n praying for a healthy baby for you

Now my part of story..since the Last Af Iam having severe pulling and tugging pains in ovaries and the uterus..its been a very dragging pain, i was ignoring it all throughout, so my Dh took me to a gynaec and she was worried that i might have ectopic pregnancy..got beta hcg done..result hcg 2 ..which means negative..
Then she just gave me pain killers .
But my symptoms are worrisome..as i have dizziness and pain even after taking pain killers..I scared this might be endometriosis..my lower abdomen feels heavy and bloated.
Need your prayers..
I think am going to get a thorough check up done when I go to India..my home country..I know a very good gynaec there..so i guess have to wait for a month n manage with pain killers..

you may just be someone who gets very strong O pains. I get pinches, dizziness, headaches, etc when I'm O'ing. It all worried me at first too but apparently I'm all normal (besides my tube, which I'm praying is open! Its now been 60 days exactly since I started the enzymes!) anyways, id keep temping and just watch ur temp pattern for now and hopefully we'll b able to put ur pain with an O rise or something. The other thing could be a cyst. Its very common for cysts to form after O and ive had one before that hurt soo bad that I went to the ER, they too thought ectopic but then they did an ultrasound and catscan and found a cyst the size of a golf ball on my ovary. It was very Easily taken care of with birth control bills tho and after my one & a half months on bcp, I conceived Aiden! . Just something for u to ask the docs about. Good luck hun and I hope u feel better!!! And asap!!!

 

[mdscpa]

Good Morning Ladies...

Got a dip today as I always get early on my LP.... Got CHs (broken lines I know why though) but i'll leave it like that. It gave my O on the day i had brown stain and the day of my trigger shot. Good thing we did BD very early in the morning of that day (which might be the cause of my stain late in the afternoon before the shot) few hours after the shot that's when i felt something very painful in my ovaries continued the next day on CD15, so it's possible i released the egg(s) from CD14-CD15.. We will see. Now it's time to start TWW.

looks like we are both 3dpo test buddies! My pattern is going a bit downward BUT it usually either goes up very slow anyhow or in a downward pattern the first few days and this is my first cycle temping vaginally so we shall see how my temp goes tomorrow. At least.i got some bding in last night JUST incase I some how oed late. I don't think I did, esp since my nips have been soooo very sensitive since O. I just think I had a second surge or something.
I am happy u bd'ed enough to catch that egg and I hope the tww goes by quickly for u!

I know you'll be 3 dpo, I was just waiting for your chart update and i'm right, lol. We're definitely gonna be test buddies this cycle ... I'm looking forward on tomorrow's temo as well and see how it goes from there. We did try to cover our bases and this time we have a lot of help so i'm not worrisome i released the egg earlier. CD13 they were still there. DH made lots and lots of research that egg (the dominant/lead one) might be released when it reached a certain point majority says 24mm. So adding how much my egg grow we assumed that i might be releasing one on my own before receiving the trigger shot. That's why we decided to BD at wee hours on CD14 despite the fact we were advised not to. And then the brown stain that day..After the shot on cd14 we are advised to BD only after 24hours but also we did not follow that, because me and DH feel like i might be o'ing night of CD14 so we did BD again and again..... I know it's better to have good swimmers there prior to the release of the eggs. So better BD in advance than be late.... I just hope any one of them will took......

FX for you mary. you got great timing as well. Praying your tube open up so big and suck those swimmers...

 

[Fiza123]

Hi everyone!!
Mary so you are 3 dpo, the waiting game begins..
Jess get well soon..
Megan I hope your pregnancy is smooth n praying for a healthy baby for you

Now my part of story..since the Last Af Iam having severe pulling and tugging pains in ovaries and the uterus..its been a very dragging pain, i was ignoring it all throughout, so my Dh took me to a gynaec and she was worried that i might have ectopic pregnancy..got beta hcg done..result hcg 2 ..which means negative..
Then she just gave me pain killers .
But my symptoms are worrisome..as i have dizziness and pain even after taking pain killers..I scared this might be endometriosis..my lower abdomen feels heavy and bloated.
Need your prayers..
I think am going to get a thorough check up done when I go to India..my home country..I know a very good gynaec there..so i guess have to wait for a month n manage with pain killers..

you may just be someone who gets very strong O pains. I get pinches, dizziness, headaches, etc when I'm O'ing. It all worried me at first too but apparently I'm all normal (besides my tube, which I'm praying is open! Its now been 60 days exactly since I started the enzymes!) anyways, id keep temping and just watch ur temp pattern for now and hopefully we'll b able to put ur pain with an O rise or something. The other thing could be a cyst. Its very common for cysts to form after O and ive had one before that hurt soo bad that I went to the ER, they too thought ectopic but then they did an ultrasound and catscan and found a cyst the size of a golf ball on my ovary. It was very Easily taken care of with birth control bills tho and after my one & a half months on bcp, I conceived Aiden! . Just something for u to ask the docs about. Good luck hun and I hope u feel better!!! And asap!!!

They did an ultrasound scan but said that i dont have any cyst. Yes you are right about the O pains..as i have them for 2 days.,but never experienced it right after my af n continue for soo long...
Please do keep looking at my charts n let me know if u find any chances of O..

 

[mdscpa]

Hi everyone!!
Mary so you are 3 dpo, the waiting game begins..
Jess get well soon..
Megan I hope your pregnancy is smooth n praying for a healthy baby for you

Now my part of story..since the Last Af Iam having severe pulling and tugging pains in ovaries and the uterus..its been a very dragging pain, i was ignoring it all throughout, so my Dh took me to a gynaec and she was worried that i might have ectopic pregnancy..got beta hcg done..result hcg 2 ..which means negative..
Then she just gave me pain killers .
But my symptoms are worrisome..as i have dizziness and pain even after taking pain killers..I scared this might be endometriosis..my lower abdomen feels heavy and bloated.
Need your prayers..
I think am going to get a thorough check up done when I go to India..my home country..I know a very good gynaec there..so i guess have to wait for a month n manage with pain killers..

you may just be someone who gets very strong O pains. I get pinches, dizziness, headaches, etc when I'm O'ing. It all worried me at first too but apparently I'm all normal (besides my tube, which I'm praying is open! Its now been 60 days exactly since I started the enzymes!) anyways, id keep temping and just watch ur temp pattern for now and hopefully we'll b able to put ur pain with an O rise or something. The other thing could be a cyst. Its very common for cysts to form after O and ive had one before that hurt soo bad that I went to the ER, they too thought ectopic but then they did an ultrasound and catscan and found a cyst the size of a golf ball on my ovary. It was very Easily taken care of with birth control bills tho and after my one & a half months on bcp, I conceived Aiden! . Just something for u to ask the docs about. Good luck hun and I hope u feel better!!! And asap!!!

They did an ultrasound scan but said that i dont have any cyst. Yes you are right about the O pains..as i have them for 2 days.,but never experienced it right after my af n continue for soo long...
Please do keep looking at my charts n let me know if u find any chances of O..

You're temps are still on the low side so you might be preparing to O or are O'ing today. Once we see at least 3 days high temps FF will give you cross hairs. FX your temp will shoot back up tomorrow.