Sticking Together Until We All Get BFP's!!!!

[Wishing1010]

I'm terrified of giving birth

 

[Megamegan]

Yep giving birth is possibly gonna suck, but hey, it only lasts a little while- I figure it can't be too traumatic seeing as people keep doing it over and over.

As far as the beta results go: Apparently the dude who read what test they were giving me was a little misinformed. They didn't do a beta test! They only did a qualitative blood test. Poor nurse caught me in bitch mode when she tried explaining that to me on the phone, lol. I was like "HE SAID HE ORDERED A BETA! How do I know everything is okay?!!?" Lol. She was so calm and sweet and patient. I think these OB nurses really get put through the ringer with constant interaction with moody pregnant women.

I feel very alone and unsure and I just wish I could see the poppyseed in my belly. It is so, so hard to believe it is real. I want you guys to join me ASAP so we can share in this experience!

 

[Wishing1010]

Aww Megan, that's got to be nerve wracking! Ugh! I'm sure your little bean is snuggling in tight and going to be your forever baby

 

[aidensmommy1]

I'm terrified of giving birth

my hsg hurt more than birth lol. Really, it did tho. Birth was nothin as long as ur open to an epidural . That baby worked like a charm!

 

[aidensmommy1]

Daphne - did the hsg hurt you?

Megan - where's your beta results?

Mary - everything ok?

An - congrats. Time flies!

I'm okay, just very depressed :-\. There's been a whole lot of bad things happening the past couple months and it seems like its all getting worse instead of better. Ugh. I just need ONE good thing to happen to my family! But the bad things just keep piling up. :-\.

I did find some possible good news for my TTC journey yest tho. There's two Chinese herbs called Yi Mu Cao and Xi Xian Cao that have proven studies showing they unblock tubes of scar tissue, along with the enzyme I'm on, and it was proven in MOST cases to work in 10 days! That's insane. I'm not expecting any big and quick result from them but I am going to order them by Monday and take them for at least 30 days before my repeat HSG. I was losing all hope with just the enzyme alone but these herbs help the tube function again, which is what I've been worried about is my tube opening but not working. FX this all works! Itd be a blessing on its own just to know I'm not infertile.
Anyways, I'm still here seeing what all of u are up to but I've been so depressed that I haven't even felt like typing! That's when I know my depression is pretty bad. I may start seeing a counselor or therapist. I feel like I have the entire universe on my shoulders right now & need someone who can help me find ways of coping with all of this crap. I can't go to my mom like I usually would because she's just as stressed and depressed as me. Ill tell u about how the town cops harassed us in front of my kid FOR NO REASON AT ALL when I feel like typing another book lol. This happened the night before last and I'm still pretty upset about it. Sigh.

Jess, I see u caught O this cycle . FX so tight for u! I'm praying June is a lucky month for all of us! I could def use some luck right now.

 

[froggyfrog]

Well af is here. Onto the next one.

 

[aidensmommy1]

Well af is here. Onto the next one.

I'm sorry .
Tons of for your new cycle!

 

[aidensmommy1]

Hi ladies. I'm still at the hospital awaiting doctors orders to admit me. Pain is unbearable.

Mdscpa:

Glad to hear the dye finally flowed through your tubes. Do you think the push of the dye unblocked something? I'm not familiar with tube blockage stuff.

The doctor believed something is blocking both my tubes. She usuallt just use 2ml of dye with her other patients and it's enough. Mine only filled up my uterus. So she added 5ml more that was the one i felt so much pain then it finally went through my tubes till it spill out. So i think it inblocked them hopefully. My uterus is deflected to the right but doctor told me not to worry about it and i will conceive soon. I just had bleeding after it not due to period left over though.

I bet u get ur bfp asap now . Ur odds are up 25% higher this cycle and the two following. Good luck!

 

[Wishing1010]

Well af is here. Onto the next one.

I'm sorry Chelsea

 

[Jrepp]

Froggy I sorry!

 

[confuzion]

I'm sorry Chealsea. Hopefully this will be the last time you see AF for a 9 months .

 

[HopingforBabi]

Hi ladies! I am new to B&B and I thought I would share my story with you! I'm just gonna copy and paste from my introduction so I don't have to type it all again lol

Hello everyone,
I am new to B&B and thought I would share my story and let everyone know a little bit about me! I am 24, husband is 26. We have been TTC for 2 1/2 years now. I am a proud army wife last year in august I unexpectedly found out that I was pregnant. I was in shock because I didn't think for some reason that it would happen so easily (I've had troubles with my periods since high school) and being so active in sports I hardly had an AF. (I'm not over weight and do not have pcos) But for the first time ever in my life my periods became regular for 2 straight years! (Miracle!) and I was so happy to be pregnant! Having military's insurance is a blessing, but can be complicated; so by the time I had my first ultrasound I was 14 weeks! I just didn't feel like I was growing and I knew something was up! The technician put my little bean on the monitor and I didn't see the little flicker of a heartbeat. My sweet baby had passed away and was only measuring 8 weeks after everything was said and done, I knew I wanted to get right back in the saddle and try again! So here I am now still waiting on a little miracle to come into our lives. I recently had an ultrasound and blood work done and we discovered that I haven't been ovulating, but there are no cysts and doc says everything is good to give Chlomid a go! I am very excited to try this medicine and I hope it works! I've never been so nervous and excited for AF to show! I'm trying to stay calm so I don't delay her from coming but it's so hard!! Thanks everyone for reading my story!! I'm here if any of you need support or have went through anything that I have! Maybe I can find a first time Chlomid partner and we can do this together!!

 

[Jrepp]

So frustrated right now!! Kind of want to spit on the nurse (no offense to my nurse friends). I am apparently not allowed to get any more drugs intravenously I clouding benydryl and I have an orange rash covering my entire body that itches like a mofo.

 

[Wishing1010]

Hi ladies! I am new to B&B and I thought I would share my story with you! I'm just gonna copy and paste from my introduction so I don't have to type it all again lol

Hello everyone,
I am new to B&B and thought I would share my story and let everyone know a little bit about me! I am 24, husband is 26. We have been TTC for 2 1/2 years now. I am a proud army wife last year in august I unexpectedly found out that I was pregnant. I was in shock because I didn't think for some reason that it would happen so easily (I've had troubles with my periods since high school) and being so active in sports I hardly had an AF. (I'm not over weight and do not have pcos) But for the first time ever in my life my periods became regular for 2 straight years! (Miracle!) and I was so happy to be pregnant! Having military's insurance is a blessing, but can be complicated; so by the time I had my first ultrasound I was 14 weeks! I just didn't feel like I was growing and I knew something was up! The technician put my little bean on the monitor and I didn't see the little flicker of a heartbeat. My sweet baby had passed away and was only measuring 8 weeks after everything was said and done, I knew I wanted to get right back in the saddle and try again! So here I am now still waiting on a little miracle to come into our lives. I recently had an ultrasound and blood work done and we discovered that I haven't been ovulating, but there are no cysts and doc says everything is good to give Chlomid a go! I am very excited to try this medicine and I hope it works! I've never been so nervous and excited for AF to show! I'm trying to stay calm so I don't delay her from coming but it's so hard!! Thanks everyone for reading my story!! I'm here if any of you need support or have went through anything that I have! Maybe I can find a first time Chlomid partner and we can do this together!!

I took clomid the cycle before last (I've only taken it once). I should be on clomid again next cycle, so I'll be right behind you! I'm very sorry for your loss, I can't even imagine the pain you must be going through. I'm glad you are getting back into the saddle, you deserve a second chance for a beautiful, healthy baby!!!! Lots of sticky baby dust to you!

Oh btw, my name is Kenna. Welcome to our group!

 

[Wishing1010]

So frustrated right now!! Kind of want to spit on the nurse (no offense to my nurse friends). I am apparently not allowed to get any more drugs intravenously I clouding benydryl and I have an orange rash covering my entire body that itches like a mofo.

Whoa, wth is causing that rash?! I'm sorry Jess, this has been such a crazy experience. I hope your pain is better and you can sleep in your own bed tonight!

 

[MolGold]

Jess: Aw, sorry! Hope you feel better soon!
Chelsea - Hope AF treats you well.. sorry

Mary: I hope the herbs work their magic... I am so sorry about the humiliation you faced, but I hope you feel better now hun.. we all are here for you.

Megan : yay again for your bean and remember you are not alone now, not for the next 9 months

Kenna - My 1st round of clomid failed too. Hope this cycle is the lucky one for us all!

Hey HopingforBabi - I know how hard it is to lose a baby. I lost one at 7 wks and didn't TTC again for a while. I hope you get your BFP soon and FX for clomid!


I had a bad round of AF , and very unusual too. I tested, and I had a faint line on a cheapie which turned to BFN in the next FMU test Now I am contemplating holding off BDing to get my tubes scanned. I was so depressed after the BFN I just cried while I drove home, while I bathed. Basically every moment alone I ended tearing up. I am nearing O time and not BDing along with moving houses and work is getting to me Hope I get some answers soon. I hope June is luckier

 

[Jrepp]

I think I'll be discharged today! I can wiggle one toe. No clue about the rash. Bp still in the 130s and pulse still over 105.

Welcome new ladies. If you want to read my story check out my blog, link in signature.

 

[wncmomma]

Yep giving birth is possibly gonna suck, but hey, it only lasts a little while- I figure it can't be too traumatic seeing as people keep doing it over and over.

As far as the beta results go: Apparently the dude who read what test they were giving me was a little misinformed. They didn't do a beta test! They only did a qualitative blood test. Poor nurse caught me in bitch mode when she tried explaining that to me on the phone, lol. I was like "HE SAID HE ORDERED A BETA! How do I know everything is okay?!!?" Lol. She was so calm and sweet and patient. I think these OB nurses really get put through the ringer with constant interaction with moody pregnant women.

I feel very alone and unsure and I just wish I could see the poppyseed in my belly. It is so, so hard to believe it is real. I want you guys to join me ASAP so we can share in this experience!

Megan, I know EXACTLY how you are feeling! I finally told hubs and we are both constantly saying " I cant believe there is really a baby in there?!" I live in utah and there are soooo many babies being born here doctors dont even see you until you are 10 or 12 weeks! And that's even with me being high risk! Where as all my sils live in Texas and they always go in at 6 weeks! Its sooooooo frustrating! And to top it all off I cant find a dang OB! None of them are accepting patients or have terrible reviews! I know what you mean about feeling alone! I have saved one of my cbd to take next week to make sure my hcg is rising. But after 3 weeks nothing I can really do to make sure since it inly reads to 3+.

How are feeling? I have back pain and nausea but nothing too terrible !

I haven't been on in a while so welcome to all the new ladies! I hope your time ttc and in the tww is quick and happy!

 

[Wishing1010]

I think I'll be discharged today! I can wiggle one toe. No clue about the rash. Bp still in the 130s and pulse still over 105.

Welcome new ladies. If you want to read my story check out my blog, link in signature.

Still sounds like you are having issues I'm sorry, Hun.

 

[aidensmommy1]

So frustrated right now!! Kind of want to spit on the nurse (no offense to my nurse friends). I am apparently not allowed to get any more drugs intravenously I clouding benydryl and I have an orange rash covering my entire body that itches like a mofo.

wait, I don't understand why they wont help u! What's ur rash from?! (sry if u already said it..im behind :-\) Can u explain to me more? I get so frustrated FOR you! You & I have had a really rough couple of months. Ugh. Can't wait for a gust of good luck to hit us all!