Team Angels

[Baby-Cakes]

Roben I second everything the ladies have already said and hope this doctor is wrong, will be thinking of you x x

 

[Peach Blossom]

Aw, Roben, I'm so sorry for the stress your doctor is causing you. I hope and pray that everything is ok... If you need us, we are here to help you from losing your mind. Xx xxx

 

[Widger]

I feel like I'm reliving a nightmare. Today, 3 weeks after the IPS testing in which we were told by the u/s tech that the baby was fine, perfect and the NT measurement was 1.3mm, I get an *email* from a doctor on base (not even an ob/gyn btw), who tells me that they have found some abnormalities and had problems seeing what the tech saw during the ultrasound and views weren't clear. As a result we need to repeat the test.

I am losing it. I feel like it's 2008 and I'm going to hear that my precious, desperately longed for baby is going to die. The thing that makes me most furious is that he had 3 WEEKS to tell me this, and now I'm 15 weeks pregnant and if something goes wrong I will have another late term loss and have another dead baby. I asked him what abnormalities, what is wrong and he said he wasn't sure and gave me vagaries, not answers.

My DH is away until next Friday and all that is keeping me from losing my mind is my son right now. I am so worried and scared and don't understand why this is happening. Everything was fine on baby, everything inside where it belonged, everything formed, good heartbeat...what abnormalities? I just want to scream with frustration.

Sorry for the rant. I hope the rest of you are doing well.

Roben - I really hope that they are just being over cautious. I'm hoping that all is well and you give us good news xxx Thinking of you

 

[Widger]

Wow - the times has flown by since I last popped in.

I've been so busy going back to work a couple days a week - yes only two days but it is amazing how the time goes by in the week that I haven't had time to come on.

So how the devil are you all???

Chilli - I just can't believe that you are almost half way through your pregnancy already!!! It is fantastic that your girl was able to join you in the scan too. I'm so overjoyed for you....... still

Rebaby - Hope you are feeling ok. Can't believe that you are almost half way through pregnancy too. How is it being pregnant now that Toby is running around? Bet you don't have time to be tired/ill etc?

Roben - As per my last post, I'm thinking of you lots xx

Peach - Lili is gorgeous. I bet she has some lovely summer clothes to grow into

Tink - Sorry for bfn. Hoping you are not out this month.

Babycakes - How are you doing with the gang?


Well my gorgeous little boy is nearly a year old - can you believe it? He's so adorable and I love him more and more each day - if that is possible. He is turning into a little toddler before my eyes. He is crawling, cruising and babbling non stop and is just such a funny little character. I thought he'd be walking by the time 12 months came as he's been crawling, pulling himself up and cruising since 7 months but I think now he's so happy to crawl fast across the room that he isn't really interested. I mean he pretty much sprints across the room with his baby walker or pushchair - whatever he can get his hands on but just don't think he's ready psychologically to let go. Anyway, he'll just do it when he's ready. I'm just happy to watch him progress.

I've gone back to work a couple days a week and I'm not enjoying it that much. Things are just different and I found it really weird going back. You normally leave somewhere after a year away, not go back so a little strange.

A few friends have recently announced pregnant again and I must admit there is a little part of me that wants that too. But then I think about how much I'm enjoying looking after Daniel and having my body back, I think maybe not. I think we will NTNP from next month to see how it goes. I really don't want to be obsessing about symptoms etc but I think that even when NTNP, you prob eventually do that anyway...... does that make sense?

Anyway, thanks Tink for setting up this group. It has been great to share our experiences together from our miscarriages, to first baby and also for some onto their second (or one to come)

Hope you are all well xxxx

 

[Rebaby]

Rebaby - Hope you are feeling ok. Can't believe that you are almost half way through pregnancy too. How is it being pregnant now that Toby is running around? Bet you don't have time to be tired/ill etc?

I'm fine thanks, it seems as though the time is flying by, i think this pregnancy is going twice as fast as my pregnancy with Toby and that went fast enough!!!

It's certainly been a very different experience this time, not just from a physical point of view (completely different symptoms, cravings and bump for e.g.!) but the psychological/emotional side of it too. I almost feel a little guilty in a way as i just haven't had the time to do some of the things i did when pregnant with Toby, like spending hours lying playing music to him through a earphone in my bellybutton, stroking my bump and talking to it and daydreaming endlessly about what he/she would look like. Between work and housework and having a toddler there just hasn't been chance yet. So i do sometimes feel a little bad for the baby. Also because other people don't seem to be as excited for us this time, even though we are of course equally as excited as we were with Toby, just in a quieter sort if way iykwim?

I think we will NTNP from next month to see how it goes. I really don't want to be obsessing about symptoms etc but I think that even when NTNP, you prob eventually do that anyway...... does that make sense?

Yes that does make sense! We've never TTC in the strictest sense of temping/chartin/opks etc we've always taken a NTNP approach but if anyone were to ask if we were trying for Toby/this baby i would say yes of course, as in my mind we were trying just by stopping using contraception and were wonderfully lucky that's all it took for us each time. Doesn't stop the symptom spotting though!

 

[Tink1o5]

Glad to see you ladies are doing well.

I just wanted to pop in and say i started spotting last night and woke up to full fledged AF. So im out. =( what a waste of so many test... i must have spent around 40 dollars or something. Maybe more. =( makes me feel really stupid.

 

[Peach Blossom]

Aw Tink, I'm sorry. don't feel stupid... When you want something so badly it's entirely understandable. xx

 

[Rebaby]

Glad to see you ladies are doing well.

I just wanted to pop in and say i started spotting last night and woke up to full fledged AF. So im out. =( what a waste of so many test... i must have spent around 40 dollars or something. Maybe more. =( makes me feel really stupid.

You're not stupid at all, i have a serious poas addiction when it comes to the 2ww and also early pregnancy, i have been pregnant 4 times and would seriously dread to think how much money i must have spent

I will have my fingers crossed for next cycle for you.

Hope doesn't stay too long

 

[Chilli]

Oh Tink - don't feel like that - we've all been there! fInd a source of cheapie tests would be my only advice. Big hugs til your BFP.

Widger - great to hear from you and that your little boy is doing so well. Work is hard after you've been off. I found my priorities had just changed completely and I didn't much want to be there but knew I had to.

Rebaby - I wish time was flying for me! It's been a long old drag and I'm only halfway there. 20 weeks scan tomorrow which I feel is the last hurdle to believing this baby's really coming. My little girl just felt a kick and is thrilled. Hoping that time speeds up over next 20 weeks - perhaps returning to work will help.

Hi to everyone else, especially you Roben

 

[Widger]

Tink - I can't tell you how many ovulation sticks and pregnancy sticks I have used....... we've all been there!!

Chilli - Good luck for tomo xx

Rebaby - I've heard lots of friends say same thing about baby number 2 - no time as looking after number 1, not time to relax etc xxx

 

[RobenR]

Hi everyone, thanks for all the kind words and thoughts. After lots of arguing and trying to get more information from the doctor, he won't say or confirm anything. I now get messages passed to me through the receptionist because he won't talk to me to my face or on the phone. We have to wait until June 7 for one scan, and then another specialty scan a week later. And in the meantime as my bump gets bigger and I start to feel baby move, I fear even trying to bond with baby, in case we have to make the worst decision ever.

Glad to see everyone else is doing well, and Tink - here's hoping for next month for you for sure!

 

[Rebaby]

I'm so sorry for what you're having to go through Roben, i hope that the 7th June comes around quickly and that the news is good

Take care

 

[Peach Blossom]

Roben, I'm so sorry for what you're gong through. can you go to a different doctor?

 

[Chilli]

Roben - that's so exhausting for you you poor thing! Can't you go private somewhere else for the same scan? If not I hope the 7th comes fast for you.

AFM My scan was a bit of a disaapointment as she couldn't see everything as baby was facing the wrong way to check heart and cord. Everything she checked was fine but I have to go back again in about a week to try again. She assured me there's nothing to worry about - but I am anyway! Really wanted to put a lid on all the worries today

 

[Tink1o5]

aww chilli dont worry hun im sure everything will be fine. Just look at it this way you get to see your LO on ultrasound again. YAY =)

 

[Rebaby]

Oh no, that's a shame Chilli i would say "don't worry" but i know i'd be exactly the same I hope baby is more co-operative next week and you're able to put your fears to rest

 

[Peach Blossom]

Aw chilli, sounds like you've got a shy one!! Are you finding out the sex? Try not to stress too much lovely!

Well, Lili has to have blood tests to check for chromosomal abnormalities due ti her small stature and the fact that she has a single palmar crease on her hand (used to be called a simian crease)... I'm not going to worry about it, I feel that she is fine, just little... Hope I'm right!!

Tickets are on sale for the baby loss concert... I know that most if you can't make it as your either stateside or having babies! But if you know anyone who may want to come then pass the message on!

Here is a recent photo of the micro baby... Who is measuring 9lbs 6oz!!
https://i165.photobucket.com/albums/u73/jessicalchu/5d0485e3.png

 

[Rebaby]

Aww Peach she's so beautiful i hope all the blood tests come back clear, i am sure you're right, she looks tiny but perfect if you ask me

 

[Widger]

Roben - Must be so frustrating and worrying for you at the moment. Is there anywhere else you can go? xxx

Peach - Good luck with blood test. My friend's baby has always been on 2nd percentile and she's nearly one and met all of her milestones. She's just smaller than others. In that pic Lili looks absolutely adorable.

Chilli - I'd be worrying too so me saying dont worry would be really hypocritical........ don't worry On a serious note, your baby just didn't want to play ball that day, that's all

 

[Peach Blossom]

Yeah, I'm sure everything is fine with Lili... They're just freaking out as she's nowhere near the 0.4th centile!! we have small Chinese genes in our family!! My cousin is only 4ft 10!