Oh magic I hope you can get out, I hate when I get in those moods too! Try doing somthing that relax's you that you enjoy doing. I like to color when Im in one of the moods lol
Thanks hun but i dont think this is going to shift for a while
The talk of engagements has reminded me again and being in a cranky-ish mood for the past 2 days has added to it.....
I Proposed to OH a year ago to this day (i know its not really the done thing to do but i was in the moment)
He looked at me and said yes, he updated his status within seconds and was happy, we smiled for 2 days solid, he kept calling me wifey and it was really nice.... until it dawned on him he would have to tell his folks and suddenly things changed.
He said he was going home to tell his folks, he said his dad was out so he told his mum, he told me that his mum asked if i was pregnant first then went on to say she thought it was best to change the status back just incase his dad found out, he said he asked his mum to help him tell his dad but his mum told him to wait as it wasnt the right time to tell him. Instantly my heart sank when he said about taking it off facebook as i felt like i was a dirty little secret, anyways that was that, until he told me that his mum thought i was a gold digger (yeh my heart broke and its never healed) i was gutted, i thought me and his folks, specially his mum got on really well, there has never been any issues and so i was hurt to hear that.....
during the next few months we had occasions where me and his parents would be in the same place and things were uncomfortable, they stopped inviting me round to their house, stopped asking how i was when he called them, no contact at all.....
Me and other half had a few drinks one night recently and as its been building up inside me i asked him over and over why they thought i was a gold digger, i think he got annoyed with me asking all the time so he snapped (he was also VERY drunk) he shouted they dont think your a gold digger!!!! so i looked at him and i said to him, your parent didnt have a clue about the engagement did they??!!?? It was you who thought i was a gold digger..... and yup there it is, he has led me to believe for a year that his parents didnt like me and thought that about me when it was him who thought it.......... my heart is so broken i dont know how to fix it.......
I spoke to my aunty one day about it (about the same time it was happening) and i said to her that it broke my heart to think his folks thought that shallow of me but i had a gut feeling it was him who really thought it and if that was the case i could never forgive him....... thats the worst thing in the world to call a woman, i for one am deffinately not a gold digger and if i was i would be the cheapest gold digger in the world as i dont have any bling or flash things, at best all i want is a £2 bag of tea lights........
What do i do!!??!!
and cramping so we will see if it's not my 
I'll have a good 
and off to the 
. But still...that does hurt to see that one line!
and to this day it still really bugs me but like your fella he doesn't like confrontation and just shuts down if I try to discuss anything like that so I know what you are going through.
