Hi Tayla,
Im Nicole. I am 25 years old, and has just recently said goodbye to my angel baby on September 12th, 2012, on their 18 weeks birthday. Every day is a new struggle so far, and I am unsure of how to move on with my life since this.
I completly understand the rollercoaster feeling. I am like that every minuate of the day. If it wernt for my son Landon (11months) I would not even have the encouragement to get myself out of bed.
welcome to our thread and sorry for your loss. i lost my LO at 13 weeks in jan and lost my rainbow last week at 9 weeks.
i know exactly how you feel. i felt the same after my loss in Jan, but the lovely ladies here helped me through, to the point where life had meaning again and i was happy, but that was all taken away again last week.
I now have 3 angels.
i have an appointment next week at the recurrent miscarraige clinic again. This is where i was last week when i had the bad news.
it was arranged fri 2 nov as they want me to see professor quemby again who i saw in may, she is one of the country`s leading experts in recurrent miscarriage.
We are away on fri 2 nov and as she is only there once a month it would have been december. However the lady that runs ths clinic who gave us the bad news last week, has fitted my in next friday morning at 8.15am, so we can see the professor again.
At least by seeing her and chatting things through, we can see if she has any other ideas of what to do next. She did some tests in may and there was nothing untoward there.
They took some of the tissue this time for testing, but that will take 3-4 months to come back and that is looking for chromosonal problems. if it is that then it is one of those things.
if it isnt that then they need to look for something else, obviously my age wont be helping.
My acupuncturist sees to think it is to do with my blood and when i see him for my first appointment next week he is going to look at increasing the blood flow to the womb.
i just want my first period to start now as soon as possible so we can get on with it.
After first D & C 3 years ago my Af was 5 weeks and 1 day. After the birth of my LO in Jan it was 6 weeks and 1 day.
DH and i still havent spoken about trying again, but i have to do it as soon as possible because i will go crazy if he makes we wait like he did for 4 months at the beginning of the year. 4 wasted months, then 4 months of trying. 8 months later back to square 1. Cant afford to waste that much time anymore.
Why, why, why.