Thanks squish, lunaty & lfernie
The overall reason I sought help was for the kids, I didn't want my behaviour having a detrimental effect on them! Sadly I see quite a few of my bad traits already showing in Jordon, but I don't know if that's him 'being young' or whether my behaviour has rubbed off on him! GOD I HOPE NOT! I just hope I've not left it too late for getting help
On a good note though, the lady said they reckon people with Bi Polar are highly creative so maybe I have some well hidden talent that I can channel, although judging by the cake I made I doubt it!
I've brought the boys a new sketch pad each and some new pens, Jordon likes to draw and Devon likes to do what Jordon does lol
I've also strip washed all my nappies today whilst Cassidy is in manny sposies due to the craps
Squish thanks for offering your ears (or rather eyes lol) I may just take you up on that! Although sometimes I can talk for England and sometimes I just observe and don't feel much like socialising if you know what I mean. I then worry people think I'm being ignorant or something but I'm not! It's really hard to explain which is so frustrating!!
So I'm going to try and close my eyes and get some sleep in a moment, I'm shattered after the last couple of days! I'm just dreading coming back down again but I know it's inevitable
Anyway ladies, I hope you all had a fab time today and hopefully now I don't have to worry about work I'll be able to make the next one
Nighty night
x x x