not exactly, I'm not ready for a BFP... I'm so scared at the moment. I still live at home with my mom and her boyfriend in our new house, which is huge, but if I had an LO, I don't think her BF would want me in the house (which I completely understand). My OH would be scared out of his mind (he doesn't do well with children at the moment) and I don't know exactly how he'd handle it - we've talked about it before and he thinks that abortion is fine and that's what you should do - BUT he values my belief that abortion is wrong in my personal eyes and understands that I wouldn't have one. There is no doubt that I would raise LO (if there was one
- let's not get ahead of ourselves).
He also lives at home and shares a room with his twin brother (I know they are both almost 21, but it's the only option at the moment). So I don't know where I would live - I'm in school at the moment (a realllly expensive school, which I got scholarships for) and OH is at a community college, but we both won't be done for a couple of years. I'm just so uncertain of where we would go, that's why we are WTT. I'm so anxious I guess and haven't told even my OH, as I don't want to freak him out in case it's nothing (because it has been before).
It was so wierd though because 2 days ago, when my OH was working, he randomly called me and told me that he thinks that we would cope and be able to survive off the money he makes delivering pizza if there ever was an LO to come along, which makes me keep thinking Oh god... it's a sign iykwim... that was in no way him trying to say let's have a baby, just letting me know it would be okay. I just am scared
Sorry for the paragraphs..