Think I'm out already

[BelleNuit]

Well girls, I started spotting so I'm most likely out. My spotting is way lighter than previous months so I think the B6 is helping. I'm going to up the dose a bit higher this next month and see if I can get rid of the spotting altogether before tapering down.

Can't believe I'll be on to my 8th-10th cycle (depending how how I count it) in a couple days

 

[mrs unicorn]

Nooooo belle. Really hope it stops, or means something else. I had IB on the evening of 11 DPO, if I hadn't had a bfp that day and my lp wasn't so long I'd have thought it was af at first. You know your body best though it's so crap that it's taking so long

Blakes - glad you're feeling a bit more positive. Think we'll be slightly more relaxed next cycle. We'll still bd around o time but every other day, and no temping or opks - totally over that!

 

[BelleNuit]

That's uni. Despite that horribly high number its only been 7 months. I keep reminding myself that we'll get there.... that's like 8 missed eggs either way though. WTH!

I will just stick with my lifestyle changes and supplements! Ive been doing some reading and those changes can work wonders for some people!

I'm so terrified may end up with unexplained infertility at the end of this

 

[mrs unicorn]

Oh hunny try not to think like that, or at least it affect you everyday. I know it's really hard, I feared it before my MMC and I still fear it now. I just try to push it to the back of my mind. It creeps in and I have a little cry occasionally but then I dust myself off and tell myself I don't want to live fearing this all the time. You're right with the lifestyle changes though. Hopefully they'll make you feel better in yourself, not just for TTC sake.

 

[mrs unicorn]

Meant to say it's not quite the same worry as before the MMC as I know sperm can meet egg but it's getting past that point now. As it was an empty sac, embryo stopped growing very early on, so I worry there's something wrong with my lining etc. But it's the same 'what if I never have kids' worry, and it's so crap. Xx

 

[BelleNuit]

Thank you Uni, it gets harder each month, those worries get a little bit bigger as time goes on.

I am feeling much better with the changes I've made so far. It can only keep getting better.

 

[greenarcher]

Nooo! So sorry to hear belle. I hope uni is right :/ just implantation big hugs

 

[BelleNuit]

Thank you Green! I'm hoping you will have better luck than me this cycle!

 

[BelleNuit]

Oh man. Guys. I have Raynaud's Disease, which is a circulatory disease. It usually doesn't bother me except for when it gets too cold. But i was just reading that it's linked to infertility, poor implantation and miscarriage due to poor blood flow. I'm devastated. There is no easy fix for Raynaud's except for super dosing on niacin (a B vitamin) and trying to improve circulation. The problem with Raynaud's is your blood vessels spasm with emotional distress or with cold which restricts blood flow. I may have better luck with conceiving in the summer months

I'm going to take up jogging to improve circulation and super dose on niacin

 

[blakesmummy09]

Don't count yourself out Hun. I have epilepsy and was given the wrong medication when started my periods which could of caused infertility and now I have two children. Maybe try some hot water bottles on your stomach during the tww and wear socks as the Chinese swear by a warmer womb so it might help x

 

[mrs unicorn]

Belle - if you're active everyday surely that should help? Even if it's running on the spot for a few minutes? And like blakes said, hot water bottles and generally keeping warm too.

AFM - bfn again. Sorry green, no line porn for you! I think I'll test tomorrow just because I got that +opk on cd15 so not 100% sure I od on cd14 so I could be 10 DPO today not 11. I'm thinking I'm 11 though. Oh and I did a FRER yesterday, nothing on it so I cracked it open just for a closer inspection - nothing. Today there's a lovely little pink line. So sad. I'm staring at it wishing it was real I really should just bin them straight away!

 

[hopefullys]

Pink line unicorn on frer? Mine took a while to fully show up. Have you done another today? X

 

[mrs unicorn]

No just an IC and nothing. The FRER is just because I took it out of the case I think. I hate that they do that but it's my fault for keeping it.

 

[mrs unicorn]

Just so you can see it. DO NOT DO THIS!! I should know better.

 

[mrs unicorn]

Rubbish pics coz I was sat in bed! They might look a bit grey but trust me it's pink and clearer than the pics. Just so I don't do this again - I promise I'll bin my tests after the time limit from now on!

 

[blakesmummy09]

I've had those happen with a frer I learnt my lesson from that never check a test after 10 mins because it just gets your hopes up too much x

 

[mrs unicorn]

I know, I've seen lots of ladies do that and think it's a bfp. Don't worry I'm under no illusions here!

 

[hopefullys]

Aww I can see it, yeh could be an evap but time will tel! Do another test in couple days, fingers crossed for u!

 

[mrs unicorn]

Aw thanks hopefullys but not sure if I'll bother testing again now. Not feeling any symptoms whatsoever.

 

[BelleNuit]

Uni I hope it's not just an evap! If I tested and got something like that I would for sure have to test again the next day!

Well my spotting continues. It's light pink. AF should be here tomorrow I am finding this so hard to deal with. That's 8 busted cycles counting my one month NTNP. I'm becoming terrified it will never happen.

I would be a good mom too.