TTC 1st child 35+ (Please spoiler any PG news/announcements).

[HappyAuntie]

Just got the call - not viable. My HCG dropped from 24 to 23, and progesterone dropped from 8 to 6.

It's completely shitty, and it's absolutely what I expected to hear. My bleeding turned pretty heavy last night and I started passing large clots today. I already knew it was over, the call just makes it official.

Now it is official, and now I can finally take some f*cking ibuprofen for these f*cking cramps, and have a f*cking drink or five tonight, eat a f*ckload of chocolate, and say f*ck as much as I want to.

 

[purplelou]

OMM - I am completely delighted for you!! yay!!

wooly - enjoy your cake - you deserve it.

FM - glad you are safe, please stay that way! fingers crossed for you in this TWW

dwrgi - ohh two good eggies and good SA too!!!! yay! I am very excited for you, and your FS sounds positive too. now just to keep hopeful xxx

Butterfly - I was admiring your artwork - on someone elses avatar - beautiful!

padbrat, lava

never - giant In case you are lurking x I read your journal - Im a secret stalker

afm - we have just bathed the dogs - now they smell nice and are clean but look terribly indignant!

 

[purplelou]

HA - f*ck f*ck f*ckity f*ck.

I am so sorry.

 

[Dwrgi]

HA-I am with you, for f**king f**k's sake, where's the f**king justice????!!!!

So sorry hun and so know how you are feeling, after playing the numbers game a few years ago. It is truly the pits. I am thinking of you and sending you a truckload of hugs!

 

[Butterfly67]

HA I'm so sorry and will join in the f*ck brigade. Have a damn f*cking good drink tonight for sure and I will have one for you too.

 

[Macwooly]

Just got the call - not viable. My HCG dropped from 24 to 23, and progesterone dropped from 8 to 6.

It's completely shitty, and it's absolutely what I expected to hear. My bleeding turned pretty heavy last night and I started passing large clots today. I already knew it was over, the call just makes it official.

Now it is official, and now I can finally take some f*cking ibuprofen for these f*cking cramps, and have a f*cking drink or five tonight, eat a f*ckload of chocolate, and say f*ck as much as I want to.

So sorry to hear this

 

[onmymind17]

Just got the call - not viable. My HCG dropped from 24 to 23, and progesterone dropped from 8 to 6.

It's completely shitty, and it's absolutely what I expected to hear. My bleeding turned pretty heavy last night and I started passing large clots today. I already knew it was over, the call just makes it official.

Now it is official, and now I can finally take some f*cking ibuprofen for these f*cking cramps, and have a f*cking drink or five tonight, eat a f*ckload of chocolate, and say f*ck as much as I want to.

Ohhhhhh noooooooo oh sweetheart i am so sorry, and yes you can say f*ck as much as you want, damm its just not right!!!!

 

[Neversaynever]

HA...I'm so sorry

XxX

 

[lavalux]

HA,
I am so sorry. That is just shitty and unfair. That little angel icon with the fallen wings just breaks my heart because I know you must be feeling awful and angry and you have every right to feel that way. You deserve a sticky bean and some happy news that you can rely on. I think that this entire thread needs to scream our bloody heads off for you at the same time .... f*CK!!!!!!!!!!!

FM,
Praying you caught that eggie and the hurricane leave you alone!

OMM,
That is fabulous news about the insurance. It feels so good when you have a plan in place (and yours is solid) and when you don't have to worry where in the hell the money is going to come from.

Dwrgi,
Love the kitty. I am excited for you. It IS quality, not quantity! With ICSI, both are sure to fertilize and then you need to start getting ready for baby. Or babies! I would trust your FS and he sounds very positive about your chances. Keep us posted on the transfer. Enjoy your movie.

Purple,
Hope you are feeling well.

Twinkle,
Thinking about you!

Wooly,
Sorry about the BFN. Treat yourself to something special tonight!

Never,
I will be checking out your new journal. I like the name! Hugs!

Padbrat,
Keep us posted on the ED IVF. Your specialist sounds great!

AFM,
Nothing new to report. I'm home early because I had to drive to Augusta, GA for court this morning and didn't feel like coming back to the office after 5 hours of driving time today. My fur babies (Lucy & Sasha) are going nuts! One is running up and down the hall and jumping onto the high back of our living room chair, then flying back down the hall again, with the other hiding behind the coffee table and pouncing as she passes while I sit on the couch with the laptop watching the show like a tennis match. Better than TV.

 

[FutureMommie]

HA- Do whatever the eff you want to tonight. Sending all kinds of your way!

Lava- I hope you are feeling better soon.

 

[rottpaw]

HA - f*ck f*ck f*ckity f*ck.

I am so sorry.

HA, I completely agree with Lou. I am so, SO SORRY. Massive hugs coming your way!

 

[Dwrgi]

Hello Everybody!

How are you all today? How are you HA? I'm thinking of you and hoping that you feel a little bit better today-it never rains, hun, but now on to IVF!!! Gotta have a plan! I'm sending you big hugs!!

Purple-forgot to say that the kitty cat is 'Georgie' my ten year old feline furbaby. She is gorgeous, although not so gorgeous at 5.30 am every morning when she wakes me by tapping my chin with her paw. Also, she has taken to sleeping on my pillow, and I am just tooo soft to push her off! Hope you're feeling okay, hun?

Hello y'all!! Big hugs to everybody on here!!

Just had THE call, and neither egg has fertilized. Egg quality seemed good, sperm seemed good, just that it's a statistical fact that two eggs literally meant putting 'all your eggs in one basket' ha ha ha! Not. The embryologist himself said that with twelve follcicles at least, he was expecting around 8 eggs, which is where I was at. I knew yesterday that two eggs was bad news, and sort of braced myself, but still feel absolutely gutted. So we will have our debrief soon but decide where to go from there. Not all IVF cycles work first time round anyway, and we have just got to think about whether we're prepared to do another or accept that it just wasn't meant to be.

So, I don't know about you guys but I'm going to have quite a few drinks tonight. SOD IT! And, as HA, said, for f***ing f**k's sakes and as Purple said, for f***ety f**k. This is truly pantsville UK!

Love to you all,
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[Desperado167]

Chris ,Fantastic news lovely ,you are getting closer to your sticky bfp ,sooooo happy for you,

 

[Desperado167]

Dwrgi and ha ,am so so sorry ,

 

[purplelou]

oh Dwrgi - I am so so sorry - that is just crappy news, I will repeat - F*ck!!!!! I know there is nothing I can do that makes this better, but hope your FS has some good ideas and can make a plan with you when you seen him. what an awful day. sending you a ton of cyber and loves xxxxx

 

[lavalux]

I am so sorry, Dwrgi. I hope you try again. Can they adjust your meds prior to EC to increase number of follies? I'm interested in what they say at the debrief. Maybe this is a fluke. Your quality is good. I don't know as much about IVF, but when my first IUI failed & I asked for them to change my meds so I'd have more follies, they agreed & we had better success. Please keep us posted.

 

[Dwrgi]

I am so sorry, Dwrgi. I hope you try again. Can they adjust your meds prior to EC to increase number of follies? I'm interested in what they say at the debrief. Maybe this is a fluke. Your quality is good. I don't know as much about IVF, but when my first IUI failed & asked for them to.change my meds so.I'd have more follies & they agreed.

Thanks Lava!

They were delighted with the number of follicles (considering my amh) and also pleased with the womb lining which suggested a good supply of oestroegen, thus a good supply of eggs, and surprised that they only yielded two eggs. Embryologist said he had expected at least 8. So, was the problem with the trigger shot-not enough trigger??? I don't know. Lots of questions. I just feel complete disbelief and don't know what to do with myself as I had my head around a comlete bed rest type of break over the next few days.

Thanks for your concern though, hun! Hope you and your beans are okay??
xxx

 

[onmymind17]

Hello Everybody!

How are you all today? How are you HA? I'm thinking of you and hoping that you feel a little bit better today-it never rains, hun, but now on to IVF!!! Gotta have a plan! I'm sending you big hugs!!

Purple-forgot to say that the kitty cat is 'Georgie' my ten year old feline furbaby. She is gorgeous, although not so gorgeous at 5.30 am every morning when she wakes me by tapping my chin with her paw. Also, she has taken to sleeping on my pillow, and I am just tooo soft to push her off! Hope you're feeling okay, hun?

Hello y'all!! Big hugs to everybody on here!!

Just had THE call, and neither egg has fertilized. Egg quality seemed good, sperm seemed good, just that it's a statistical fact that two eggs literally meant putting 'all your eggs in one basket' ha ha ha! Not. The embryologist himself said that with twelve follcicles at least, he was expecting around 8 eggs, which is where I was at. I knew yesterday that two eggs was bad news, and sort of braced myself, but still feel absolutely gutted. So we will have our debrief soon but decide where to go from there. Not all IVF cycles work first time round anyway, and we have just got to think about whether we're prepared to do another or accept that it just wasn't meant to be.

So, I don't know about you guys but I'm going to have quite a few drinks tonight. SOD IT! And, as HA, said, for f***ing f**k's sakes and as Purple said, for f***ety f**k. This is truly pantsville UK!

Love to you all,
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Awwwwww DAMMIT!!!!!!!!! Honey i am really sorry, awwww man that just sucks, thats all i can say. I am sending you tons of hugs, and am here for you any time you need me!!

 

[onmymind17]

Chris ,Fantastic news lovely ,you are getting closer to your sticky bfp ,sooooo happy for you,

Thanks honey, DH and I are so excited. Now i am just hoping that everything else works out.

 

[lavalux]

Drwgi,
I know it isn't a perfect science and sometimes they need to keep tweaking the protocol, but it just seems like the fault lies with the doctors here since you responded so well to the meds and had 8 follies ready to go. I'm so frustrated for you!!! You still deserve to rest up. The process is tiring physically and emotionally and you need to enjoy your little break this week.