HappyAuntie
LTTTC#1 after 5 mcs
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I agree, take the rest. Your mind and heart need it even if you think your body doesn't. I am so sorry, honey. God, what a shitty week this has turned out to be. Apparently we need a f*ck it wagon around here in addition to the whatever wagon, so we can hop from one to the other as needed.
AFM, finally had a good meltdown this morning. Yesterday I was much more philosophical about it all, and really just glad to be out of limbo. But today I'm a mess. I have to have a rhogam shot because I'm Rh neg and DH is Rh pos. My other two mc both happened in a clinical setting (1st one I ended up in the ER, 2nd was a D&C) so I just got the shot as a part of the other business going on already. but today I have to go to the hospital to get it done. My clinic faxed the order over to the hospital, and I called the hospital just to confirm they'd received the orders and I was good to go (didn't want to get over there just to wait some more) and apparently there was some confusion over there and I absolutely did not have the mental resources to handle it. I kind of blew up at the hospital receptionist over the phone, hung up, called my nurse back at the clinic and asked her to please just take care of this and call me back when it was ok for me to go over there because I just can't handle even this tiny of a challenge right now. She was so supportive and caring and said she'd take care of everything, to just sit tight and she'd call me back later. She did, about 20 min later, and said everything was arranged, I could go over to the hospital any time between now and 7p and just walk in and they'd be ready for me. She even called my GP and had them fax over my blood type info so I could avoid that wait while the hospital confirmed my blood type before moving on to the antibody screen and rhogam shot. (In the meantime, I had a complete sobfest so now my whole face is puffed up and red and I have a headache, but hey, at least now I can take some f*cking ibuprofen for it, right?)
Anyway, the sobfest felt good, and the arrangements are made for my shot, and now I can just go do that and come back to the couch.
DH came home yesterday with an arm load of DVDs he'd rented for me, a GIANT bag of m&m's, a pint of Ben & Jerry's, and a six-pack of hard lemonade. After three of these, he knows just what I need. I usually give myself permission to loaf around and not shower and just be sad until all the movies are watched and all the m&m's are gone. (After last night, the liquor is already gone.) That's how I roll. F*ck it. F*CK IT!
AFM, finally had a good meltdown this morning. Yesterday I was much more philosophical about it all, and really just glad to be out of limbo. But today I'm a mess. I have to have a rhogam shot because I'm Rh neg and DH is Rh pos. My other two mc both happened in a clinical setting (1st one I ended up in the ER, 2nd was a D&C) so I just got the shot as a part of the other business going on already. but today I have to go to the hospital to get it done. My clinic faxed the order over to the hospital, and I called the hospital just to confirm they'd received the orders and I was good to go (didn't want to get over there just to wait some more) and apparently there was some confusion over there and I absolutely did not have the mental resources to handle it. I kind of blew up at the hospital receptionist over the phone, hung up, called my nurse back at the clinic and asked her to please just take care of this and call me back when it was ok for me to go over there because I just can't handle even this tiny of a challenge right now. She was so supportive and caring and said she'd take care of everything, to just sit tight and she'd call me back later. She did, about 20 min later, and said everything was arranged, I could go over to the hospital any time between now and 7p and just walk in and they'd be ready for me. She even called my GP and had them fax over my blood type info so I could avoid that wait while the hospital confirmed my blood type before moving on to the antibody screen and rhogam shot. (In the meantime, I had a complete sobfest so now my whole face is puffed up and red and I have a headache, but hey, at least now I can take some f*cking ibuprofen for it, right?)
Anyway, the sobfest felt good, and the arrangements are made for my shot, and now I can just go do that and come back to the couch.
DH came home yesterday with an arm load of DVDs he'd rented for me, a GIANT bag of m&m's, a pint of Ben & Jerry's, and a six-pack of hard lemonade. After three of these, he knows just what I need. I usually give myself permission to loaf around and not shower and just be sad until all the movies are watched and all the m&m's are gone. (After last night, the liquor is already gone.) That's how I roll. F*ck it. F*CK IT!