SilverB, if I were you, I'd erase the "only" from your statement that you've only been at this a year... a year is a long time in this business!
I'm so glad your GP was supportive and caring - a kind bedside manner goes SO far toward making this journey easier to bear. FX'd the tests show something useful.
I completely agree with your having a Plan B. When I think about what I would do if we decide to stop ttc, it definitely helps me to focus on all the things we love to do that would be much harder and WAY more expensive with kids - we do a lot of spontaneous traveling, we love going to the theatre and opera, eating at restaurants that have absolutely no appeal to a kid's palate, etc. I think about how I could turn the room that we hope will be a nursery into an office and craft room for ME (since our home office is definitely DH's domain - I couldn't find anything in there if I had a map leading right to it!).
I also gave up the "I can't do this because I might be pregnant" thinking AGES ago... I had cut so much out of my life and it wasn't getting me anywhere, and most women do all sorts of things before they find out they're pregnant, so to hell with it. I eat my sushi, I enjoy a glass of wine, I will be riding roller coasters next week (woo hoo!), and everything will be fine. My RE is all in favor of me eating sushi, and my counselor likes to remind DH that the baby doesn't get any blood from the mother for several weeks so he should not worry about me having the occasional drink.
Missy - I've also had follies "disappear", and it's almost always just that they were being measured by two different people with different sets of eyes. So one that the first tech found big enough to measure, the second tech might have judged it wasn't quite big enough. Also, sometimes the follies are on the back side of the ovary and harder to see, so they aren't always visible at every scan. You're right, the bloods will give a lot more info as to how they're doing - they really have to look at both the u/s and blood together to get the complete picture. Ask your nurse about the disappearing follies when she calls and see what she as to say. But even so, your follies are still doing great!!
Any idea when retrieval will be?
Never, I hope you're having a better day.
I agree with what the other ladies said - if the thought of stepping in front of a car even entered your thoughts at all, you are depressed, and you owe it to yourself and to your future baby to get some help. On my darkest day, it's not like I laid there in bed planning out exactly how I would do it... it was no more than a thought that literally crossed my mind in an instant. I was frightened that it had even occurred to me. It was like I was observing my own thoughts, saying "Whoa, where the hell did that come from?" to myself. Admitting that I needed help was really, really hard - I felt like an absolute failure that I couldn't make myself well. In retrospect, I think the biggest mistake I made was in waiting so long to ask for help, that I let it get as bad as I did before accepting that I wasn't able to handle what we're going through. My RE said he wished more of his patients would seek help for their mental health, that he sees so many who need the help and aren't getting it. Miscarriage and infertility are incredibly difficult to bear. A recent study determined that the stress caused by infertility is comparable (in both the emotions felt and in their intensity) to the stress caused by receiving a diagnosis of cancer or by the death of a parent or sibling. If you knew someone struggling with a cancer diagnosis or the death of a parent, you would be completely understanding and supportive of her need for emotional support - you deserve the same compassionate, loving care. Take good care of yourself - your baby needs you.
FM, I am so thrilled with how well your nephew is doing! I know what you mean about him giving you the strength and inspiration to keep going.... In recent weeks I'd been giving a lot of thought to stopping ttc and really wondering if I should have gone ahead with this cycle or started our pre-vacation break now so we could really use it as a period of discernment. I kind of only went ahead with this cycle because DH wanted to, not because I wanted to. But then on Sunday evening we went to a fall festival at a local outdoor living history museum... the place was swarming with families with young kids, all in their Halloween costumes, doing fun (and hokey!) fall festival things - hayrides, making s'mores, pumpkin chucking, etc - I burst into tears about 15 minutes after we got there because I was overwhelmed with thoughts of how much DH and I would love to bring our kid(s) to an event like this, and how much we would love to introduce them to new experiences, and how much fun we would all have together.... In moments like that I know we're not done, I know I have to keep trying....
Pad, we're all itching to hear your story and hear how everything went yesterday!! I hope you and your DH have some time to enjoy your exotic surroundings.
AFM, had my IUI this morning. Based on my estrogen level, he thinks I have three mature eggs. And DH hit it out of the park - count was 200 million! And 95% motility! Nothing to do now but wait.... (And enjoy the aforementioned roller coasters next week!) If this one doesn't work, we're taking a break until February. We'll use the break to decide if we want to come back and do one more IUI or just start IVF then. I got word from my insurance company this week that they're dropping Follistim from their list of "preferred" medications in 2012, so if this cycle doesn't work we'll go ahead and pre-order a bunch of Follistim now so we can get it at a cheaper price than what we'd have to pay in February. Lousy number crunchers.
Sorry I've written another epic novel today. Hope you all have a good day.
) And don't worry cause the chances that all attaching isn't very high anyway. Goood luuck lot's of hugs and baby dust xxxx
Many other things about NHS is wonderful but somehow fertility is sthg that the government assumes that best left to nature almost. 
yes we having a role reversal 
around then, but I keep temping and it now looks like it was actually around CD 20 - never mind, next month I am definetlely giving the CBFM a go, we need to try and get our timings right to give ourselves the bet chance 
there was just a 9 week sac and a very large yolk sac...no fetal pole was ever there so I have always felt a bit of a fraud grieving for Ginge which I know is compltely irrational but it is there 
wish I could be that way though. 
