TTC 1st child 35+ (Please spoiler any PG news/announcements).

[heavenly]

and Heavenly - Im impressed with you not-testing. well done you

So am I!

 

[purplelou]

and Heavenly - Im impressed with you not-testing. well done you

So am I!

 

[purplelou]

ok, Ive had my lunch (and now I feel sleepy!) so Im back and will attempt to remember everone (and Ill probably fail miserably - so sorry in advance) Im going to have to do this in bits cos Im sneaking on at work (naughty!)

Carole - I hope you feel better soon, its rubbish to be feeling so poorly!! and thank you for the "Lava" update

HA - big I was stalking your journal (but couldn't reply cos BnB was having issues yesterday, anyway I just wanted to send you loads of

Twinkle - any news from the GP?? I hope the bleeding is stopped for you xxx

never - I think you are away soon?? have a fab trip in case I miss saying it before you go

 

[heavenly]

Well I am leaving work at 3.30pm today, going to the health shop to get some co-enzyme Q10 and some Royal Jelly and Bee Pollen, keep hearing amazing things about both of them re helping the eggies!!

 

[Lady H]

Hi All - looks like the witch finally got me after 33 days, which is quite a difference from my 26/27 day cycle. Never mind, on to cycle 10....

 

[heavenly]

Hi All - looks like the witch finally got me after 33 days, which is quite a difference from my 26/27 day cycle. Never mind, on to cycle 10....

Sorry to hear that, but FXd for the next cycle for you! xx

 

[missyt]

Carol, I hope you feel better. I hate when people come to work sick. Then they infect everyone else.

Dwrgi, sometimes you just need a "me" day to feel sorry for yourself and take in everything that is going on. This journey is definately tough. I wish there was a world where infertility didn't exist either.

LadyH, I'm sorry you got AF. Is there anything you did different this past month that could've thrown off your cycle? I never used to pay attention but now I do and certain foods and stresses can affect your cycle length.

AFM, irritated with DH again. I was trying to relax and meditate last night but I was interupted by the dogs chewing on DH's earbuds that he left laying on the floor. I basically blew up at him and told him he needs to start pulling his weight around the house because I'm tired of doing everything. The least he can do is pick up after himself.

 

[purplelou]

Missy - get that eggy!! I so hope this is your month you deserve it!!

FM how's everything with you?? any adoption news?

Dodger - and good luck for this cycle

Ipen - any news ??

 

[purplelou]

Heavenly - I don't know if you already brought but superdrug and wilkinsons both carry C0Q10 and it's a lot cheaper than say Holland and barratt

Lady H - so sorry the witch came bah!!!

Oh dear I got sidetracked and lost my chain of thought (so easy when you are elderly lol!) so I know Im missing people - so big to everyone. and it's nearly Friday - Yay!!!!

afm - nothing new to report really. Ive pulled myself together after moping a few days, and have started POAS again for the cbfm, brody is looking so much better - stitches out on saturday so funny headgear (cone of shame) will also be removed and hopefully we'll go out to eat with DH and my parents on the weekend and catch up.
fingers crossed this is a lucky month for us all!!!

 

[purplelou]

ok, just remembered - big to Pad and OMM - hope you ladies are ok - I miss you xx

 

[heavenly]

Heavenly - I don't know if you already brought but superdrug and wilkinsons both carry C0Q10 and it's a lot cheaper than say Holland and barratt

afm - nothing new to report really. Ive pulled myself together after moping a few days, and have started POAS again for the cbfm, brody is looking so much better - stitches out on saturday so funny headgear (cone of shame) will also be removed and hopefully we'll go out to eat with DH and my parents on the weekend and catch up.
fingers crossed this is a lucky month for us all!!!

Haven't brought it yet as it was really dear in Boots and H&B!! So will look in Superdrug next. I did buy some Royal Jelly though.

Bless little Brody!!

I use the CBFM as well, it tied in with the scan I had with the FS, days 12 & 13 it said Peak and that is when the FS said I was ov'ing!

9DPO...I did take a quick peak at pregnancy tests in Boots today but no way was I going to buy any, it's too early, I want to wait til maybe Sunday now.

I am loving my new Iphone, downloading a load of apps at the moment, anyone suggest a good Fertility one? There are loads to choose from!!

to you all!! xx

 

[Lady H]

I downloaded My Day which is really good, records loads of stuff and easy to use (and free)!

 

[heavenly]

I downloaded My Day which is really good, records loads of stuff and easy to use (and free)!

Thank you! x

 

[HappyAuntie]

Hi ladies -

Sorry I've been MIA lately. My anxiety has been off the charts this week and I've had a hard time doing much of anything. I haven't posted because my mind has been changing so fast that I can't type fast enough to keep up with my feelings! AF arrived today, but long story short is no IVF this month. The full story is in my journal, but it basically boils down to the fact that some of our labs are out of date - HIV, hepatitis, chlamydia, my rubella antibodies, etc - and we can't start IVF until we get them done again. We'll go in tomorrow to have our blood drawn, but the stickler is the rubella - if it shows I'm no longer immune, I have to have a booster before we can start IVF.

I know our labs will turn out fine, but tbh I'm a little relieved at the delay. I had really worked myself into a frenzy in the last week about starting IVF. We'll go ahead and end our ttc break this month, just not sure how - DH wants to do an IUI and I want to try on our own. I just don't feel like wasting the bruises and drugs on an IUI when I have little faith it will work. We'll discuss it over the next couple days and decide what we want to do. We don't have to decide for sure until Sunday night, when I'd need to start the drugs.

Lou, I'm glad Brody is on the mend. And Lady H, I'm sorry about AF. I wouldn't worry too much about one weird cycle, though - everybody has a weird one now and then. And Dwrgi, looks like we'll be cycle buddies after all!

Big hugs to all of you.

 

[ipen44]

Hello lovely ladies.

I had to go out of town on Tuesday night and no time to post until now. I forgot my thermometer which caused me quite a bit of stress. Yesterday I got a severe headache. I have had 2 previous miscarriages and had a severe headache both time. When I got home last night I took my temp and dammit if it was down a whole degree!

I knew I was toast and today the showed up with all her friends. Last night was really difficult because I felt to terrible with the headache and the reality of it all. I have never had symptoms like this month so I didnt know if it was the clomid or a pregnancy. Last time when I was at the doctor they said clomid does not cause cramps. To that I say--WHATEVER!!!

Ok enough venting by me. Glad to have made it through the first clomid cycle so I know what to expect next time. This is a painful process, but having all of you helps so much. Hope and prayers for those in the 2ww. For those of us who are not, let's get ovulating and try to get some baby bellies to show off

 

[purplelou]

HA - Ive been reading your journal (stalking I guess) and I can feel your "frenzy" (you are a very good writer!) I know that you will do whatever is right for you and DH and I send you and will be rooting for you, whenever the time is right xx

Ipen - so sorry about the - Grrrr

 

[purplelou]

Hope everyone's Friday goes well

afm - I know Im going to sound like a complete bitch, but I just found out someone in work is pregnant I am happy for her, but just feel so sad for me (iykwim) I found myself being grateful that she is someone who I don't really have much to do with in a normal day (works in admin away from clinical things) Im evil I know, but today Im going to wallow in self pity!! (and have a wine tonight!)

 

[Dwrgi]

Good morning girls!!!

IPen-so sorry that the dratted hag showed. She is really most unwelcome. I like your attitude-at least you know what to expect with a Clomid cycle. It really does affect people quite badly, but we're all different. I had HORRENDOUS headaches with it. Keep going hun, the end is surely in sight!

Purple-so glad that you're gearing up towards THAT time of the month!! Let's wish magic thoughts on you and a at the end of it! Big hugs to you and lickle Brody!!

Missy-blooming men! They just don't think-I also think they're intrinsically lazy. I can't get any clothes in my shared wardrobe with my OH as he just throws his stuff in, haphazardly on the hanger. Takes up five times the space it needs. Really winds me up. Grrrrrrrr. He'll come home one day and all his clothes will be on the lawn, no joke! Hope you're feeling okay-try and think positive thoughts for your upcoming OV!!! Lots of love to you! xxx

HA-I will read your journal later, but just wanted to say how sorry I am that you've had this delay. It is so typical! That is one thing that I have learnt with this whole experience-nothing is straightforward. When I read your post, I just thought that things happen for a reason-like my drugs not being delivered on time for this cycle, and the subsequent mix up. Just wasn't meant to be for this month. I don't know if this will help you, but when I was told that I should go for IVF, I was in bits. And, even till that last moment before I started taking the drugs, a bit of me was resistant to the whole concept of it. BUT, and it's a HUGE but, once you do start the stimms, you feel SO glad, as it is the Dog's Bollo% of infertility treatments and offers so much more scope for success than any other assisted conception technique.

This is my view, and you may dismiss as you feel fit, but I would be reluctant to have another IUI at this stage as a. the stimms for it will further deplete my ovarian reserve, and b. statistically it is not as effective as IVF/ICSI. I absolutely promise you that it is the THOUGHT of IVF/ICSI that is the greatest hurdle, because it does make you feel that you have truly failed on your own, and you have this thought that if that doesn't work, then there is no hope, all options have been exhausted. Did you read the link I sent a few days ago about how many emrbyos to return to the womb? There was a comment from a fertility specialist who said that women would have far greater IVF success if they were referred to it by their doctors sooner rather than later. The older we are, the harder it is to achieve a pregnancy even with such aggressive assisted conception techniques. If I knew then what I know know, I would have gone for IVF four years ago after just one year of trying. But, this is the benefit of sites like this, as we can share our experiences, and learn from each other so that we can make informed decisions, rather than fumbling around in the dark, which is what I did for years.

So, the synopsis of my ramblings would be to say, go for the IVF. Face it head on-"I'm going to do this"! Get your injections up to date, take this as an opportunity to really come to terms with the prospect, and just do it. I am sure that you will not regret it!

Incidentally, my box of meds arrived yesterday-it looks hugely intimidating, but I shall just take one day at a time, and just see what happens. If I have a drugs raid, I shall obviously be writing to you from jail. Ha ha ha!

Sending you big hugs hun, and let's hold each other's hand with this one!

Lots of love to everybody, Butterfly, FM, Skyyyyyye, Lava, Pad (where are you??), Carole, Nikki, Dodger, Twinks, North Start, Lady H, Asry, Mazak, Titi, and I'm sure to have forgotten somebody, but to you all!

 

[Dwrgi]

Hope everyone's Friday goes well

afm - I know Im going to sound like a complete bitch, but I just found out someone in work is pregnant I am happy for her, but just feel so sad for me (iykwim) I found myself being grateful that she is someone who I don't really have much to do with in a normal day (works in admin away from clinical things) Im evil I know, but today Im going to wallow in self pity!! (and have a wine tonight!)

Bums, and knickers, and bollo$ and broomsticks! That is such a blow, and exactly what you do NOT want when you feel like this! So sorry hun, I know it is so hard, being confronted by blinking bumps wherever you look. But, console yourself, you'll be announcing your good news to the world before you know it, so hang on in there! I always think, what does not break us shall only make us stronger, and I think that every time I go to the staff room here and the younger teachers are cooing other the woman who's expecting twins (not that I'm against that, per say, Lava, but we get the deliberately tight dress to 'enhance' the curves, we have the constant stroking of tummy with highly smug expression on face, and we have the frequent scan pictures paraded around the place if she has been to see what's what. Yada yada yada.............)

Anyway, don't forget that you'll get there-you've proved that you can get pregnant on your own, and it's just a matter of time, so don't let her get you down! However, I would advise a drink or three later as it is a FRIDAY!!!!!! Not because you're fed up!

Lots and lots of love,
Axxxxxxxxxxx

 

[purplelou]

thanks Dwrgi - you are lovely. I am especially cheered by "bums and knickers and bollo$" - bless you! I know it is completely unreasonable to expect no-one around me to get pregnant, but it does get to you (and I know all you ladies know) In saying that if this whole forum was to announce their pregnancies this month - I would be sooooo happy (as long as you came back and visited me here!!) weird isn't it!? Ive pulled myself together again now a bit and I will have wine because it's Friday


thank you

you ladies are just the best!!!! - my sanity would have been long gone without you