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[kgriffin]

i tested, bfn, obviously! I have no control.

 

[Lily_Hope]

Daisy I am feeling very hopeful for you!!

I think timing had been on my side this week girls! OPKs were negative from Sunday to Wed and was positive Thursday. Good news about this is that hubby made it home for one night only this week and it was Thursday night! He has had to go away again this morning (he is a pilot) but I figure at least where in with a shot this month!

It's Friday morning for me here in Hong Kong - long week at the office - bring on the weekend!!!

P.s can't remember who on here recommended 'The Great Sperm Race' documentary but I watched it & thought it was so interesting & well created.

xxx

 

[Lily_Hope]

Kate & Mon sorry about your BFN

I'm sure there is a BFP for you on the horizon xx

 

[Brookegarrett]

im still waitin to test..i really dont want to test too early so im tryin not to think about it...im sorry about the bfn dont give up..im gonna b really down if i get a bfn bc we have to put off ttc for a few months to make sure we dont have another june baby

 

[Mon_n_john]

But June babies are awesome Brooke, I'm a June baby! ; )

Sorry about the BFN kgriffin. Keep your hopes high, it will happen!

 

[futurephotos]

Lol - My hubby and I are both June babies! We think it would be really great to have our first born in June too We're going to try really hard to get pg in September!!
With that said I guess it wouldn't be too bad if we're not pg this month, then. But it's not like I want to stop trying this month just to hold off until next. I'd still be thrilled if it happened now. I'm wondering if I've already missed my window of opportunity this month though. For the last 3-4 days (after AF finished) I've had some twinges in my ovaries and it also seems more CM. I've been feeling really horny. I asked DH to have sex with me last night, but got turned down - he was tired and not in the mood at all. I don't temp regularly, but out of curiosity took it this morning to see if it was low or high and it is high already... so I bet we missed it

 

[Mon_n_john]

Good morning ladies!

Well, I am 14DPO today and took another FR and still BFN. However, I decided to take a 2nd look at the FR tests I did days ago and sure enough, 1 of them had a second line so it seems I had a chemical pregnancy this month. I'm definately not pregnant now as there is no line now.

I'm disappointed but in a weird way relieved and surprised all at once. I say relieved because with all the BD that DH and I did I really doubted that the sperm and the egg didn't meet.

At the same time I say relieved because I just got diagnosed with high natural killer cells that interfere with the egg implanting. Knowing how those cells do that (spraying toxins on the embryo) I am relieved that I'm not pregnant any more because I don't want my body to hurt my poor little embryo and for it to have some major health problem because of it.

Luckily I see my specialist on Monday to discuss my test results and I'll mention this chemical pregnancy I just had. I'm sure she's going to recommend aggressive treatment and I am onboard. I have a feeling that the next time I get pregnant after having treatment it is going to stick!

Babydust to you ladies, I hope your BFPs are right around the corner.

 

[futurephotos]

Lily- that is good he was home when you needed him to be, sounds like a shot to me!

Daisy - any news today? I'm praying for you!!

 

[kgriffin]

lily - im glad you enjoyed the great sperm race, i thought it was neat how they showed everything, worth the 60 or so minutes it takes to watch.

Mon - im sorry about your chemical, we all know how those go, but glad you know what the treatment needs to be, and good luck at your appointment.

I am off to whistler tonight, dh and I haven't been yet, but his family is taking us tonight. Let me just say, that their baby girl, Violet, is beautiful. I fed her the other night and just simply fell in love. Dh was rocking her yesterday and it was the sweetest thing. Talk about baby envy. Hoping to take it easy this weekend, haven't bd'd in days, dh is getting anxious and upset that we only bd around my fertile window, but i just dont have the energy or desire anymore. Hoping that things turn around soon.

 

[Mon_n_john]

Thank you Kate, I really appreciate that. Have a great time at Whistler!

 

[DaisyBee]

Lily... Good luck! Glad dh was there at the right time.

Mon- sorry about your chemical. Hopefully your specialist will get treatment going for you ASAP.

Kate... What is whistler? Whatever it is I hope you have fun. Sounds like you could use a break. Maybe it will be just what you need to get your mojo back!

Agree sperm race is very interesting. Dh and I watched it a while back it was on tv one Saturday. I remember us being surprised that the human race has even survived! Lol

Future.... Thanks for the prayers! I woke up this morning to NOOOO bleeding!! I can't tell you how that makes me just want to jump and shout out loud! I realize that miscarriage can happen at any time but it's just so dejavu that both miscarriages I woke up with blood first time/ spotting 2nd time on the same exact day. Huge milestone in my mind. Dh has been super worried. He asks constantly what day we are on and how I an feeling. He won't be happy til I am hugging the toilet all day. Dont blame him really as with both miscarriages my symptoms before 6 weeks Had basically vanished. I'm hoping that now we are to 6 weeks he will back off a bit. I know he just wants to know but it's been hard to not think about it 24/7 when he questions me so much about it. Hopefully we will now be able to breathe a bit.

Future- hopefully you didnt miss o! Can you usually tell when you ovulate or could it be possibly something else you felt? Also if you haven't been regularly temping could it be a fluke that it seemed high?

 

[Brookegarrett]

Well my temp is quite higher today than usual.. So I'm wondering what's goin on.. I'm sorry moon I hope u get answers.. Good luck with tha June bug future Kate have fun at whistler and daisy yay!!!!! Ur hitting milestones!!

 

[Brookegarrett]

Lol mon* stupid phone

 

[Mon_n_john]

Lol no worries Brooke.

Daisy that is so wonderful, I am really happy for you!

 

[kgriffin]

woooooooooooooo DAISY THATS GREAT~! I told you everything would be wonderful!

Whistler is a town in BC that is great for snowboarding, hiking, and all sorts of outdoors stuff, they held the Olympics there last year! Lots of beautiful mountains, and summer weather, you can snowboard and ski in the middle of summer!

 

[mirage25]

Sorry 2 hear about ur chemical Mon. Glad u can get treatment!! Next time around there will b a sticky bean!

Daisy u've been in my prayers! Glad u made it past that milestone!!! Now lets just fly through this 1st trimester

Ugh...still no af!!! I won't be testing again until Sunday, guess I just gotta wait it out....still no symptoms cause I don't count fatigue! Lol!

 

[mirage25]

Kate, have fun!!! That sounds like so much fun!!

 

[Brookegarrett]

Ok ladies I'm confused I am 7 dpo n I just got a very dark negative test it's not quite positive but it's close... What can that mean

 

[DaisyBee]

Brooke.... So confused as to what you mean?? Explain yourself girl! LOL. Do you mean dark opk? My opk I took after my bfps was dark and very positive so if that's what you mean then could be on your way to bfp!

Kate.... That would be why it sounded familiar! Have a fabulous weekend!


Mirage... Good luck with your test on Sunday. FX for you!! Not out til af shows!

Thanks everyone for all of your support. it means so much to me! You are all in my thoughts and prayers and hoping you all are just a step behind me!

 

[futurephotos]

I got turned down again tonight! I don't know what I can do so DH will be more in the mood. This wouldn't be the first time I've been disappointed with how infrequently we have sex - his desire has always been on the low side. I'm upset now because it comes as a double whammy. Before ttc it wasn't as big a deal - if I'm horny I can take care of myself. I can't make a baby by myself though!! It's both physically and emotionally challenging. Not just the not feeling wanted/desired, but also wondering how much he really wants a kid if he isn't willing to put in the effort.