Brooke - no that's not bad, often a good sign, and im having the exact same, more cm than usual as well.
Lilly - first things first, don't wish your time away. When you do get your bfp, i know it will be hard to enjoy those shaky 12 weeks, but let yourself embrace it, time gets away far too easy on all of us.
Secondly, It's okay to feel how you are feeling. Im certain we can all relate. 2 days after my SIL found out about my mc, she called me up on skype to tell me shes pregnant with her second, needless to say, i burst into tears and had to close my laptop.