Hey girls, ive been mia bc its all too much for me right now, i am not mad or anything obviously and im very happy for each and everyone of you. i just cant handle the constant pregnancy talk to constantly remind me im not pregnant. u know? and i would never expect you guys to not talk about it, its a very happy time for you girls, u deserve to be happy- but so do i, and i wake up and go on here everday and its not helping me hearing nothing but pregnancy talk...we used to talk about everything on here. and it became less and less when more and more people became pregnant, which guys i totally understand! i am just saying for me..its too much right now-
i just got a bfn for my 3rd clomid cycle & devastated... moving to iui next month, maybe thats my answer....
so i really wont be on here that much for a while, i need a break, i just wanted to let u guys know how i feel, i just need to break away for a little, bc its making me more upset coming on here, just reminding me all the time what i dont have. and im sure u girls can understand how hard it would be if it was you
i dont want u to think im ditching u guys or anything and i love you but i need time away ..for me.
just please dont be upset with me. i really need time away, i am constantly sad and depressed and i just want to be okay, i need to stop making this consume my life and just be patient, i know it will happen one day. i just get really scared it wont. and i have no many emotions and feelings, and have been a mess lately...
love you girls and ill talk to you soon
xo