Hi Ladies,
I posted here once a few months ago but i have been stalking everyone since and come back just a get an update on a few of the regulars.
A little bit of background (a lot of information coming your way)... I am 33 and DH 39. We are mid way through our 11th cycle TTC. I grew up never really bothered if I never had any children and now I am OBSESSED about it.
It took my mum nearly 14 years to conceive me (adpoted my brother 12 years earlier as a consequence) so i always knew there was a possibility i would struggle too (hence never been bothered).
My Gynae said in February that it appeared I have PCOS but all the blood tests came back fine. Last month I decided I did not want to wait another 12 months to find out something was actually wrong. If something is wrong i want to get my head around potentially never having children and having an amazing life just with my DH and our nieces and nephews. So we went to see a fertility specialist that actually specialises in PCOS. He said although no PCOS I have the profile of someone that does so i needed to be be very careful with my lifestyle not to head in that direction. He then recommended we do a series of base line tests to ensure nothing is obviously wrong.
IT HAS BEEN THE MOST PERSONALLY INVASIVE AND EMOTIONALLY DRAINING CYCLE OF MY LIFE!!!!
I have new found respect for friends who have been doing this for years!
I have been poked and proded from CD1 (yes with AF in full Flow) to CD17. Every day monday to friday. With a different male partner in the practice every time. Legs in the air waiting. great first introductions (i have a female gyane so i did not have to go through this). I have had the HSG xrays, had to force (i.e not a natural event - with actually specific timing) BD with DH for 6 days (HSG kicked my cycle out by 3 days and O'd on CD17) and had to get DH husband to give me an injection into my stomach - and then ensure BD ensued a few hours later... not exactly the most romantic. As a result we know exactly when O was going be and were told for a succesful cycle we HAD to BD CD16 and CD17. Well since I had DH performing CD11,12,13 and 14 (normal cycle) we almost ended in divorce when i told him. Seriously not worth it!!! Did not even try CD16 and recovered on CD17 with BD in the AM. 3 hours later had terrible O cramps on left side. So i hope we made it in time! (Oh the base line tests for both of us ended by showing no signs of anything obviously wrong! YAY!!!).
As i was leaving last test on CD15 doc said if no AF in 14 days POAS and if not pregnant call him. So blase. This has meant I have obviously been totally obsessed about everything and read non-stop about symptons and have thought of little else. I now have my hopes up and honestly will be gutted if it is not the month (which i have a feeling it is not)...
I just need to share the TWW. I dont expect any of you to help but I need to vent as besides my folks, DH and I have not told any of our friends we have been trying to conceive as that is all anyone talks about then!
DPO0/CD17: Terrible cramps of my left side (told would O here) for about 4 hours. Considered taking a painkiller
DPO2: Oh my word the stomach cramps! Worse then any AF cramp. Lasted about 2 hours. Way to early to be anything.
DPO3: Could scream when i took off sports bra after morning run. My nipples were so sore. Nothing since. In the afternoon Heartburn. Me? never before!
DPO4: Acid reflux? odd.
DPO3-5: CM discharge. Funny smell?
DPO5-7: Not tired at all!!! Weird as i have been working till 2am and back up at 7 am. I am a girl that needs her sleep. I am eating carbs again - so bloat could be carb related.
DPO6: Right side cramps. Lasted most of the afternoon. Only eased off when walked. felt like start of AF. More annoying then painful and nothing like DPO2. Could this be implantation? No spotting noticed though.
DPO7-9: Twinges continue in lower abdominal area.
DPO8: Sore BBs. Typical AF symptoms though and right timing. 7 days before AF due. Sore under breast and near arms. Nothing on nipples Could cry. Think I am out.
cervix also low and hardish and very "hostile" CM. Actually I did have a breakdown with DH in the am. He was not impressed as i think he is also disappointed and does not want to get his hopes up.
DPO10/CD27 (today): Seriously are we still not there yet?!?! on a normal cycle AF would only be due tomorrow! How long has this cycle been!!! BBs "tender" but not sore. Extremely irritable with DH. Again typical of a normal cycle with me. Still getting annoying twinges on abdomen - focused on the left. Feels like an elastic band being snapped onto my tummy. been several hours already this morning. Why does it keep moving?
So that is where we are. It is the first month i have even thought it would be a possibility as we were given the all clear. So it is the first month i may be absolutely heart broken. Dont want to POAS until officially late which looks like may be wed / thurs.
Good luck to all of you!
I thought I may as well see what this thread is all about 
shows her ugly face! 
