So, I went to doc just now and she was really nice and very thorough. So I'm happy about that. I haven't had any spotting or bleeding at all since that stuff came out of me. Just that brown stuff, then gush of water, then nothing all night and all day. No cramps, no nothing. This is so weird. I asked the doc if it maybe could have been a cyst that ruptured or something? Maybe the cyst was big and that's whay I missed my period and was nauseous and tired, etc????? IDK, but she said she doesn't think so because usually when one ruptures, it is very painful, which I remembered is true because I had it happen twice to me before, but it was a long time ago. I'd forgotten that they are usually really painful when they rupture, so.... ??? Plus, she reminded me that the fluid goes in your abdominal cavity, not out of you.
So I asked if maybe it was a really early miscarriage and she said that even that would be strange because if it was, it would only be "threatened" at this point because no actual bleeding has happened yet. Then she said that it most likely isn't my period because it's no spotting, and the water is strange. So right now she is very perplexed. Me too
Her guess is that maybe I'm pregnant but it may not be "viable" so she took a blood test today, I get results tomorrow morning, then do over again in 2 days to see if HCG numbers are rising or falling.
I am so exhausted from the emotional rollercoaster of this TTC thing. 2 and a half years of this is making me finally want to just give up on it all and just let whatever happen that's going to happen. I don't know what I want the results to say at this point. I'm almost hoping it says negative, and it wasn't a pregnancy - than deal with the idea that I lost another baby that could have been.
I wish all of us could get out of this TTC boat soon, because it sure is draining. I'll keep you guys posted. It's going to be so hard to go to work tonight and act normal.