Hi everyone.
Hope you're all ok.
I've not been posting as spent a few weeks sort of blundering around in what felt like the depths of despair. (bit dramatic I know
) Anyway there was lots of sobbing and what not. I need to keep reminding myself that I'm just going through a grieving process and will survive. At the moment I'm not feeling too bad. The week in the sun definitely helped (apart from the day we went to the beach and as soon as we'd paid for our sun loungers got surrounded by a load of different families with their young babies! I shed a few silent tears then managed to get on with my day-I'm definitely taking that as a positive for myself.)
Still really struggling with not knowing what I want to do (I feel like I need to have a plan-but i do realise that 'having a plan' isn't crucial or the be all and end all) On the one hand I know absolutely that I don't want to put myself and dh through the emotional, physical and (ludicrous) financial toll of ivf but walking away from ttc is just so hard that i waver in my conviction.
I'm hoping that maybe by the end of the year I'll be able to look at fostering (something I'd always wanted to do previously) in a more positive light. At the moment considering it just seems to compound the feeling of loss of not carrying and giving birth to my own child.
Anyway self pity aside I've got a bit of a tan and indulged in lots of sweet treats, copious amounts of good food and booze! Back on my holistic lifestyle and exercise plan at some point next week.
Nobump, how did your procedure go. I hope it's been done and has sorted out the issue you were having with bleeding.
Have you had a chat with DH about fostering/adoption? I'll be very interested to know how you get on if you go down that route. I think I'm leaning towards long term fostering if we go down that route (but then who knows, after all it was just a couple of weeks ago i was considering IVF abroad!
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Jaybo, have you joined a thread for your next cycle? I intend to be keeping an eye on your progress
I'm really hopeful for you.
Mrs W have you moved yet. I hope it went well/goes smoothly.
Love and
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Lizzie, aurora and everyone else.