Oh no Sunshine! I hope you heal up quickly!
Ugh...I'm feeling down today. I just feel like I'm never going to get pregnant. This month would be the perfect time...My due date would be the beginning of April. That would give me the last 5-8 weeks of school off, then I would have the whole summer off with the baby. That would be the perfect scenario, so I'm sure it won't happen that way lol
I tested bfn yesterday. I have absolutely no symptoms. Usually bbs are sore, but nothing this time. I'm assuming that has something to do with the clomid. After my prog level of 10.1 yesterday, I just don't feel like it's gonna happen.
It doesn't help that right before we started ttc my sister-in-law's cousin did a tarot card reading that predicted we would get preggo in Sept. This whole time I've kind of used that as my positive thought, "well if it doesn't happen this month it will happen in Sept". Although I was kind of joking, I think it really did keep me from getting to down about it. Now that Sept is getting closer, a part of me is annoyed that we have had to try for so long. But then there is a part of me that is now thinking, "what if it doesn't happen in sept?" It's like I've secretly been banking on Sept and now I'm scared it won't happen then either and I'll be really disappointed.
I'm sure I sound crazy right now lol I think I need to find something to do to entertain my mind until school starts again! lol
but i hope for u its one bad day rite before your bfp....10 is not very bad honestly....however my doc says tht he wants to c a 15+ on a medicated cycle and 10+ on a non medicated one...i know u said u spoke to your docs ofc but from wat ive experienced it makes a diff in the way the dr thinks if i go and sit in front of him and ask questions in comparison to wat his nurses have told me wen i call...if in case they shud up your dose or sth....i personally hate tht they will check for 1 more mth and then decide..w.ats thts abt....uuugghhh ...and hey i totally understand your september theory...wen i lost my first pregnancy last yr..my mom had met an astrologer in india and he had said tht things will get fine for me after april2014....i was soo mad and chose not to believe a word bcos tht meant i wudnt get pregg for more than a yr from tht time last yr...but this whole time even wen i lost my second preg in feb in the bak of my mind i still remembered wat tht guy had said...now i kinda get confused whether he meant tht ill have a baby after april or will i get preg after april...in the first case im gud to go now sooo i keep thinking of it in tht way to comfort myself...sorry for the long story but just wanted to tell u how i let these mind games affect me too 
