2013 losses- rainbow baby making thread...

[Neverending]

I told myself I wouldn't either or even track ovulation... oops
Lile I always have tender boobs and my hormones were out of whack and I was in a lot of pain so I'm on antibiotics for pid. All my pain stopped once I ovulated and I don't know why I think I'm pregnant.
But so far my symptoms are
Blood taste in my mouth (its stopped now) but I would even spit to see if I had blood.
Almost what feels like rlp
Pressure in abdomen
Constipated as of today it was opposite
Low grade fever going on three days
Low back pain and twinges
Crazy dreams
And I've been craving a orange cream milkshake
Pribally unrealted but my legs feel dead
And I have been getting headaches and my teeth hurt.
My cm is always lotion like but now its watery lotion like.
I know I'm settimg myself up for disapoinment
Oh and my hair is literally falling out and my skin is super oily

 

[Raggydoll]

Thanks george83 and Lucylake. Hopefully we'll get lots of this month.

Good luck Nimyra and neverending. You've got lots of good symptoms.

 

[Neverending]

My hips are starting to hurt real bad I'm not going to test yet feel lile af is on her way and seeing as it will only being my second after my mc I'm sure it will be coming soon ff predicted the 26th even though it should going by my last one be the 30th so ill probally cave but going to try and wait it out.

 

[Neverending]

I'm sorry af got you btw

 

[LucyLake]

Misscalais, Neverending, Nimyra, and everyone about to test...sending lots of love and baby dust!

 

[Cryssie]

I'm starting to symptom spot and i told myself i wouldn't. So far...
Cramping
Sore boobs
Backaches
Creamy cm (had this before my bfp with my blighted ovum)
Fatige then bursts of energy
Increased appetite (but i get that before af too)

 

[AwesomeSauce]

I finally got a bfn. Hopefully I will o soon and we can try again.

 

[mowat]

So happy for you Awesome! I couldn't resist taking another test this morning and it's starting to get lighter. Hoping it'll be negative by the end of the week.

 

[karenh]

Mowat: HCG causes a positive OPK and Pregnancy test. Most likely the HCG isn’t completely out of your system yet.

Raggydoll: Sorry AF showed up for you. That would be so special to have your BFP this month. Good luck.

Misscalais: Good luck! Only one more week until you test!

Nimyra and Neverending: Those symptoms look promising. Good luck! When will you test?

Awesomesauce: Yay! I am so happy that you are negative and you can start trying again now. Good luck!

AFM: AF is here, I have started my 5th round of Femara. DH and I had a talk last night. He isn’t sure if he can try any more. We are going to try and figure out what we are going to do. He is thinking maybe take a month of in between each month we try. I am not sure if I can handle one month Femara, one month BCO, back to Femara, then BCP. Personally, I hate the BCP, and I don’t know if my body could handle the back and forth of the different hormones. Also, that means we are dragging out how long we are trying. My thoughts have been we do 4 more IUIs with Femara and then if we still aren’t pregnant then we are just done. That would mean in August either we are pregnant or we are learning how to live child free. This plan would push that all the way out to November. Obviously we still have more talking to do. We will see what the Lord has in store for us I guess.

 

[Peacenik]

AFM: AF is here, I have started my 5th round of Femara. DH and I had a talk last night. He isn’t sure if he can try any more. We are going to try and figure out what we are going to do. He is thinking maybe take a month of in between each month we try. I am not sure if I can handle one month Femara, one month BCO, back to Femara, then BCP. Personally, I hate the BCP, and I don’t know if my body could handle the back and forth of the different hormones. Also, that means we are dragging out how long we are trying. My thoughts have been we do 4 more IUIs with Femara and then if we still aren’t pregnant then we are just done. That would mean in August either we are pregnant or we are learning how to live child free. This plan would push that all the way out to November. Obviously we still have more talking to do. We will see what the Lord has in store for us I guess.

Good luck to you Karen. I'm with you on the potential 'learning to live child free' thing. We might end up going that way too if things don't work out soon. I can't take the constant 'trying' - it kind of makes me nuts. Hopefully it doesn't come to that, but the thought is certainly been in the back of my mind.

 

[karenh]

AFM: AF is here, I have started my 5th round of Femara. DH and I had a talk last night. He isn’t sure if he can try any more. We are going to try and figure out what we are going to do. He is thinking maybe take a month of in between each month we try. I am not sure if I can handle one month Femara, one month BCO, back to Femara, then BCP. Personally, I hate the BCP, and I don’t know if my body could handle the back and forth of the different hormones. Also, that means we are dragging out how long we are trying. My thoughts have been we do 4 more IUIs with Femara and then if we still aren’t pregnant then we are just done. That would mean in August either we are pregnant or we are learning how to live child free. This plan would push that all the way out to November. Obviously we still have more talking to do. We will see what the Lord has in store for us I guess.

Good luck to you Karen. I'm with you on the potential 'learning to live child free' thing. We might end up going that way too if things don't work out soon. I can't take the constant 'trying' - it kind of makes me nuts. Hopefully it doesn't come to that, but the thought is certainly been in the back of my mind.

Six and a half years has really taken it's toll.

 

[AwesomeSauce]

I REALLY hate it when people say that 'trying is the fun part'. Clearly they never really had to TRY month after month. I LOVE intimacy with my husband. I HATE trying to make a baby.

 

[Ceilani]

Hi ladies, may I join?

I lost my angel March 31st and we will be starting ttc again in May.

Awesomesauce - I hate when people say that too. "Ah, you're still trying....but that's the best/funnest part, right?!" /facepalm Yes, it's TOTALLY fun for DH and I to try and dtd when we're exhausted or grumpy and not in the mood, but feel like we have to in order to attempt catching an egg. It's TOTALLY fun for DH to jizz in a cup and stuff it in his shirt pocket to warm up/liquefy (for delivery to a complete stranger, to boot) while we chat about banalities.

You're right: I think when people say that, they haven't had to go through the countless cycles of charting, temping, hormones, invasive procedures, and losses we deal with in order to have a child.

Karenh - I'm so sorry hun. This road is a tiring one. Would your DH be amenable to ntnp after a certain number of Femara/IUI cycles instead of just being done completely? DH and I did the ntnp thing this cycle with no charting/temping/discussion of ttc (but also no BCP) while I wait for my first AF, and to be honest, it's been a huge stress relief. I'm ready to start actively ttc again, but it has been nice having a break.

 

[george83]

Hi ladies, may I join?

I lost my angel March 31st and we will be starting ttc again in May.

I'm so sorry for your loss, I hope the next few weeks are easy on you

How is everybody else doing? Everybody seems quite these past few days, I hope your all coping ok, it feels like the burden if being a 'miscarriage survivor' doesn't get any easier

 

[LucyLake]

Well, the witch looks to be visiting me very soon and I've never been so happy in my life! I'm ONLY 25 days past my first AF....but have always had short 26-27 day cycles so this wouldn't be totally abnormal. Cramps are getting heavier and I've had a spot of pink blood when I wiped which never happened before the miscarriage, but now seems to be a calling card to alert me that my period is near

If everything goes as I pray so hard it will, my due date will be in.......JANUARY. Just as I had hoped..Perhaps either the 29th or 30th.

Sometimes, dreams DO come true, just not in the way you predict.

Just wanted to say that my thoughts remain with Nimyra, Raggydoll, Neverending, Misscalais, Awesome Sauce, George83, and all others!!

And Peacenik and Karenh as you make decisions about TTC

And a warm welcome to Ceilani

George83, I totally agree. The burden is unreal. I feel almost bipolar as I shift from sadness as I remember the miscarriage and short time with my baby to sheer excitement about what lies ahead.

 

[AwesomeSauce]

The burden is unreal. I feel almost bipolar as I shift from sadness as I remember the miscarriage and short time with my baby to sheer excitement about what lies ahead.

This.

It does feel like I imagine bipolar would...and it can happen multiple times in one day.

Right now I am feeling impatient. Is it really only the 23rd? My latest miscarriage started on march 28, so not even a month ago, yet it feels like FOREVER. I was bfp of three weeks before my levels dropped so I need to let go of the hope that Af might show within the week. Time...it's the enemy sometimes.

 

[LucyLake]

Time is indeed an enemy AwesomeSauce, but two months out if I had known then what I know now....I would have greeted Father Time with reverence much sooner.

So get this...I had a 31 day cycle for my first post MC AF March 30. I've started actually bleeding and cramping today just 25 days later...indicative of a SHORT LUTEAL PHASE. VERY relieved I didn't get pregnant this past month as the chance of MC with such "bad" eggs from a short cycle is likelier.

I hope you get your AF soon Awesome Sauce. As mad and livid as I was about waiting, I'm so glad I did seeing such a fast period today-this means I'll o on freaking day 10 most likely which is what I've thought for the longest time was how my body works. My periods have only been 26-27 for a really long time as well. I always thought this was good, but I'm starting to see that a short luteal phase might be why I miscarried.

 

[jessshakespea]

"Just wanted to say that my thoughts remain with Nimyra, Raggydoll, Neverending, Misscalais, Awesome Sauce, George83, and all others!!

And Peacenik and Karenh as you make decisions about TTC

And a warm welcome to Ceilani"

Ditto that. I only have the tiniest inkling of what it is to TTC for any length of time. I hope you guys get where you want to be soon, wherever that might be. all of us in fact!

Time definitely feels like the enemy for me too. I'm getting older while all this hormonal miscarriage fallout is going on grrrr. AF now though and although its light it does seem to be within normal range. You worry about every little thing I guess.



Anyway, for those who have been TTC for a long time, I take my hat off to you for your determination and strength. Xxx

 

[jessshakespea]

That's great news! Seems like sometimes all of the crazy happens at once. I'm sorry it has been such a difficult time for you. Congratulations on your bfp! How many of us have got one so far?

 

[Neverending]

On my phone now ill read through later. I really thought this month was my month sincerley different from the rest but long behold 14 dpo and I started spotting assuming its my period only I don't hurt don't really think it can be anything else. I'm mad my last two periods since my mc have come every twenty days. I ovulated on cycle day 11. But I'm so upset. My partner even thought I was pregnant and didn't say anything besides I should test and he thinks this is implantion he even said it happens to some woman lol but I know its not even though I still feel like I'm going to throw up and my boobs hurt didn't even feel af coming. Ill get back on soon. I'm worried my periods are so short I was a 28day cycle like clockwork then mc now this. I guess my partner and I will wait to see if this turns to full blown bleeding I just want to scream I know it will.