Good luck!
I think I'm taking a break out from TTC. Especially with stupid cyles (never knowing where I am with my cycle, symptom spotting about O/pregnancy, googling every last little thing) , it's so time consuming and I always feel myself getting massively distracted and obsessive about it. It takes over so many waking hours!
I've had a couple of dye runs in the past couple of weeks, and I'm sick of testing for O everyday even though the OPKs don't work with my body, always analysing every test and convincing myself I can see something .. OH said he can tell I'm starting to sway towards depression again & I just want to have some time out.
So, I think I'm going to go on the pill for a while and forget about TTC. I don't want to use condoms and see how my cycles go as I know I'll just end up obsessing over my cycles still.
I'm going to try and sort through all the baby stuff I've got in the spare room, sell what I can - it's too much having it all sitting there.
We're also going to sort out the spare room and make it into a home office, instead of having it as a box full of crap, waiting for a baby to go in it.
Also, I'm returning to my degree in October so I'm going to need the space to study and need a bit of spare time.
Going to use the money we had saved in the bank for LO#2 things and go on a family holiday together this summer instead, and make the most of what we do have.
I'm taking my life off hold and putting #2 on hold for a while.
I've got 1 pregnant woman close to me, and 3 friends who are all TTC who I know will get pregnant before I do. If I'm not going to get pregnant, I'd rather have it on my terms and in my control rather than leave it down to a body doesn't seem to want to work like it did, and be constantly waiting around for something to happen. I just want to forget about it all for a while!
I know there are people that have been TTC for a hell of a lot longer than I have, and some who don't even have #1 - so I know that I'm lucky .. but I can't really do this at the moment! x
I'll keep checking back on here though, and see how everyone is doing