SmplyBlessed
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Woot woot, hoping all goes well!
I have thought about that alot lately.
I have been in and out of a dark place for two years now with trying to conceive and honestly I don't know if I would be ok. I really thought my whole life I wanted to be a Mother, I thought that was my mission in life but now I am thinking maybe I am better off. It is hard going through this alone and not alone. It is hard being in my skin and wishing that I was someone else.
I have started to also read some self help books "surviving infertility and a lot of what they say is right and has given me somethings to reflect on. I have been programed to think certain things about being a woman, and I do have serious issues dealing with the fact that I am "broken" and that I may never be able to concieve. It is a hard road trying to turn your thoughts around and understand that I can be ok without carrying a child. I just have to get over it and start looking forward to the vacations and the time with my hubby and and my animals and take it one day at a time.
I know I am rambling but honestly there is alot of thinking to do .... I know what you are goign through.