Beeptime
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I just re-read my post and it was kinda negative-Nancy! I find this website very comforting and helpful as well. I don't actually have anyone that I can talk to about this stuff, so this is really my only safe place to be completely open. What I mean about the site bringing me down, is every time I'm on it I inevitably become consumed with testing,symptoms and obviously all of the other surrounding BFPs. It just makes me dwell on my situation even more.
And I couldn't agree more about the happy/sad feelings about other BFPs. I don't even have the slightest idea what it would be like... like never having seen the ocean, only hearing about it from others. I have a true happiness for everyone that gets their BFP because I know the joy that it would bring me if I got one. So I'm very happy that someone gets to have that joy! But at the same time, every time I'm a little envious, but more than that, I wonder what is wrong with ME? So I end up in another loop of negativity.
I just feel so much better when I'm neglecting the entire realm of TTC. No symptom spotting, no forums, no trying, no testing.
But every time I do end up back to the forums, I always find a couple special gals that I genuinely care to follow. Like you! I've been checking for your updates daily because I so genuinely want you to get your BFP
What a sap. LOL. :')
And I couldn't agree more about the happy/sad feelings about other BFPs. I don't even have the slightest idea what it would be like... like never having seen the ocean, only hearing about it from others. I have a true happiness for everyone that gets their BFP because I know the joy that it would bring me if I got one. So I'm very happy that someone gets to have that joy! But at the same time, every time I'm a little envious, but more than that, I wonder what is wrong with ME? So I end up in another loop of negativity.
I just feel so much better when I'm neglecting the entire realm of TTC. No symptom spotting, no forums, no trying, no testing.
But every time I do end up back to the forums, I always find a couple special gals that I genuinely care to follow. Like you! I've been checking for your updates daily because I so genuinely want you to get your BFP
What a sap. LOL. :')