Cycle Day One. Wait with me?

[ToughhGal]

I'm thinking I did O Monday/Tuesday. Cause I think Wednesday or Thursday I had big bouts of white thick cm that covered my whole finger (tmi). Not sure about those uterus pains though! Not very normal! How are you feeling today? 6dpo?

 

[mimdan]

So does that put you at 7/8dpo ?

I've had a few achey twinges in uterus and some sharp shooting pains in boob but neither are particularly strong some of it I probably wouldnt notice if I wasnt looking for signs. I did feel wet yesterday at times but watery not creamy but again I dont feel any of this I can excited about because none of it seems to stand out as much as I'd like although hard not to be hopeful. Feeling a bit down today...oh sex drive has increased a bit to but normally does pre af !

 

[mimdan]

And yea I'm 6dpo

 

[ToughhGal]

I think that would. Another thing or two I have noticed is my BB's were a little delayed getting sore. They usually get super sore 2-3 days after O but last night is when they REALLY got normal sore. I am pretty sure I didn't O late because of the cm and lack of pains. Also, I have nasty blemishes all over me! My chest and the side of my face and even a few on my arm! I usually get those a couple days before AF but I guess they decided to strike early.

And I feel you about the hopeful part. I have been praying for your BFP. Have you and your OH been hoping for a boy?

 

[mimdan]

Just had some fairly strong o type pains on left side ! Definatley didnt imagine those ! Thats lifted my spirits up a bit but now I'm thinking maybe I didnt o when I thought I did lol stupid pcos !! Such a pain in the a**

 

[mimdan]

Aww it sounds really good for you hun ! I hope you get your bfp too !! Would defo be nice if atleast one of us did...I honestly think I must of O'd just now and if thats the case I'm out lol as last time we DTD was 4 days ago (friday afternoon) oh well I'll stick around for you though

 

[mimdan]

Yea would love a little boy we've had a few physic readings done and been told we will have a boy each time, so thats nice

What about you ?

 

[ToughhGal]

Oh, that would be a bummer but maybe there is still some swimmers up there waiting if you did just O! AF seems so far.

 

[ToughhGal]

And I have done the needle and thread test and it said my first would be a girl!! I always wanted a girl but I would be satisfied either way it goes. I would feel blessed to have my own joy

 

[mimdan]

Thats awesome ! so my fingers are now crossed for you that you get your BFP and its a GIRL hehe how cool would that be ?!

how long have you been trying for ?

 

[ToughhGal]

On and off for a pretty while. I'm thinking I may have to see a fertility specialist soon though. That's my worst nightmare though.

 

[mimdan]

Hopefully not ! How long do you intend on leaving it before you go to fertility specialist ? If you haven't conceived this cycle obviously

Hows things between you and OH today ? Are you feeling better or the same ?

 

[ToughhGal]

I don't think I did concieve this cycle. As I'm having some AF cramping. My cramping starts in the vaginal area so I can almost tell right away if I'm pregnant or not

And we haven't seen each other in three days. And to be honest I think he found another woman and wants an excuse to get out. I wish he would just tell me so I can move and let me be happy.

 

[mimdan]

Would it not be too early for af ? And plus af cramps can be a good sign too, so theres still hope I've read lots of posts where ladies have been convinced af is comming and they got there bfp

oh hun thats not good, has he not contacted you at all ?

 

[ToughhGal]

I always get AF symptoms super early! Which is such a pain. Then AF lasts six days. I only have one good week each month! Lol. I think I may test Sunday. Just for fun.

And a little. He said he slept all day and now is going to work. And I have to admit, I'm kinda like you. I feel a bit insecure at times. And this situation doesn't help too much either. I don't wanna pry but have you and your OH ever hit a point where you thought there would be no return? And if you don't wanna answer I totally understand!

 

[mimdan]

Yes I think you should test too, you never know you may be in for a nice suprise, FX !

I dont mind talking to you about anything hun, although if too personal I'll PM you lol...but yea your not kidding ! We've had a few times where its really felt like there was no way back but luckily we've always managed to sort it..and then when things are calmer and back to normal we realise how silly we were being, it helps to communicate with each other even if it starts as a shouting match, as long as your telling the other person how you feel and just as important, your both willing to listen ! and I'm lucky that he MOST of the time hasnt a problem with talking through issues (we're both deep people)
the other thing I'm still trying to master is in the heat of the moment to walk away and to calm down rather than let my emotions get the better of me and make things worse
whats kept us together though is our desire to be together, without that we'd of ended quite a while ago without a doubt !!

Insecurites are a B***H

 

[ToughhGal]

Well we did talk last night. I kept screaming and hanging up the phone. But he kept calling back over and over till I answered. When I get upset, I have panic attacks. And he knows that. But we decided that we will meet up today and talk. We might go to the river which was our first date! Please pray this blows over smoothly for me. And hopefully he wakes up in time lol. But I am glad you and your OH work it out. You guys are cute together and your daughter (I'm guessing that's then on your profile) are absolutely beautiful! I'm so jealous lol.

 

[mimdan]

How did it go hun, everything ok ?? Hope so

yea they are my girls my OH also has a daughter from a previous relationship, my daughters are from a previous relationship too so if and when I conceive it will be our first child together

thank you for the compliments thats real sweet...your going to love being a mummy, come on BFP !!!

 

[ToughhGal]

Yes. Everything is pretty okay now. I don't wanna jump and say completely okay but better. He played a joke on me and told me he wouldn't bring my wallet to me when I really needed it. Of course I over reacted and he showed up at the door with it. I could kill him when he does that! Lol. We also went to the river and out to eat. But I am having AF cramps so I'm really getting disappointed.

And awh! I hope you two end up with child very soon! How are you feeling today though?

 

[mimdan]

Yay ! I'm glad you two have sorted things out, or got to a better place...horrible when you dont get on isnt it, can be very unsettling..but good for you sounds like you had quite a nice day actually

I know you know your body better than anyone else but maybe just maybe these AF cramps your getting mean something different this time would be the icicng on the cake eh try not to lose hope yet

I'm ok today thanx, 7dpo today having some twinges/cramps in same place as where I thought I O'd yesterday (6dpo) and sharp pains in boobs every now and then throughout the day too, and last night I had a stretchy glob of clear ewcm and then another hour or two later had another glob of WHITE ewcm ? Today just feel wet every now and then and its just watery..so weather this is a sign of implantation or O'v (or AF) I guess only time will tell..got backache too