Cycle Day One. Wait with me?

[ToughhGal]

My cervix feels very open right now! Ugh! Do you know when cervix usually closes for pregnancy? And the cramps is soo light but I know I'm not just imagining! Lol.

That cm is very weird but definitely have some hope for you! And stabbing in the girls is a very good sign in my opinion! I wouldn't wait too long to test if I was you

 

[mimdan]

I dont know much about checking cervical position as never done it, I do know it closes for pregnancy but exactly when, I'm not too sure..sorry hun, have you tried to google it ? So your still getting cramps whats your cm been like if you dont mind me asking

Thank for the positivity I'm trying to stay as grounded as I can, dont want to count my self out and dont want to get too hopefull, hard not to do both isnt it lol

yea I reckon I'll start testing soon, are you not going to cave in and test yet ?

 

[mimdan]

Thanx for chatting to me btw your the only one I've been talking too really, nobody else seems to keep a conversation going lol its nice to have someone to go through the tww with

 

[mimdan]

Oh yea, what did you mean by stabbing in the girls ? Lol

 

[ToughhGal]

Haven't had cramps in a couple hours. (Knock on wood). If they stop and/or don't increase I MIGHT test Sunday. And my cm I'm not too hopeful about. It now looks the same as last cycles when I got AF. White and creamy :/ The only thing that got me was the lots of cm I had that one day that covered my whole finger but that was the only time :/

And I know what you mean! It's hard to keep in touch with some on here but others are really nice! And the stabbing pain you felt in your BBs. Sorry for the confusion! Lol

 

[mimdan]

Hi

Hows the cramping today ? Or hopefully there isnt any if thats a better sign for you Yea its odd when you get different cm than your used to seeing isnt it, I didnt have any globs testerday was just more watery like I said..saw a tiny spec of ewcm on tp but would have missed it if I wasnt looking for it lol..cant wait till you test, it is exciting !

sooo IF we dont get bfps this cycle do you think you and your OH will be trying to concieve next cycle ? Or are you still going to break from it ?

I might test tomorrow depending on how I feel later today, if I get a more obvious symptom then will defo test if not I might wait till 10/11dpo IF I can lol

 

[ToughhGal]

The cramps have let off for now. We will see what today brings though! And the ewcm is weird. Did you have that already any this cycle?

And if we straighten things out we will most likely try again. He said he knows I'm the right person to start a family with so that was comforting

And if you test let me know how it goes. I would test but I feel like it's too early for me. Plus I'm waiting for some more AF signs. My acne is clearing I think. Don't know if that's relevant. Also been craving peanut butter and bananas. But I contribute that to my period cravings or maybe even a vitamin deficiency.

Really not feeling too bright!

 

[mimdan]

Glad your cramps have stayed away and no I dont normally get globs of ewcm, got constant backache, sex drive a little higher but they are normally good signs of AF for me

thats a very comforting and lovely thing for your OH to say, and glad your not going to give up on ttc just yet !

Yea I will definitely let you know when I test and the results, if bfn I'll prob test every other day till AF, thats if I get to test before she shows lol

fingers crossed those are good signs for you

 

[ToughhGal]

I think I got a few more cramps but they are just so might I can't tell! Why must my body be such a tease? Also I'm glad too but I really don't want to see a fertility specialist and be told something is totally wrong with me. That would destroy me from the floor up. And I imagine OH wouldn't be too happy either.

I'm so excited to hear your test results for the next couple days!! Hopefully one day we could be bump buddies. Now that would be cool

Also, may I ask when did you find out you had pcos? And what were your symptoms?

 

[ToughhGal]

*light

 

[mimdan]

I know the type you mean lol the barely there am I imagining them type lol so why are you worried the fertility specialist might say theres something wrong ? Do you have reason to believe there is or is it just more of a fear ?

I dont think this is my month in a matter of fact I think its probably safe to say it isnt..I always get constant backache before af and I just went shopping with OH and even said to him I think AF is about to start because I had cramps too just like it was going too, my gut tells me AF will be here tonight or tommorrow.

indeed, I was diagnosed with pcos at about 20 years old via ultrasound, my symptoms were irregular periods mainly well really thats my only symptom, at one stage I was only getting AF 2/3 times a year ! Now I'm 32 they are alot more regular and a more recent ultrasound showed its mild as they told me there were no big cysts, I had the ultrasound the second time about 6 months ago because from time to time I would bleed after sex and it would last almost a week sometimes less, but its typical because when we decided to have a break from ttc my body started to behave itself lol i think stress back then caused it too though... so now I just hope my body keeps behaving itself now we've decided to try again with ttc

 

[mimdan]

Yes being bump buddies would be really cool

I'll let you know how testing goes or if AF starts

 

[ToughhGal]

It's half and half. It's a great fear but then again I have had unprotected sex with two man and never became pregnant. My ex finds another girl and she is pregnant within the first year of them being together. And trust me I think they don't deserve children! They used to shoot up drugs all the time. They fight and break up constantly and harass me for no reason. I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, I try to workout everyday. I have lost 90 pounds. But yet I can't have a child! The needle and thread test I mentioned before said I'm supposed to have at least three but I just don't believe it at this point.

And oh I hope that's not what that back pain is about! But if AF starts I'm sure ill be right behind you. So we can continue into our next cycle together. How painful was it? And I'm glad pcos didn't stop you from having beautiful baby girls. That's a blessing!

 

[mimdan]

I can understand your worry but I suppose until your actually told there is a problem theres no point stressing too much because as you know stress can mess things up or make things worse. When I was told I had pcos I got really down thinking I'd never be able to have children, I just couldnt see it happening as in order to have a period I needed birth control pills to regulate so even then they were never true AF's..then when I got with the girls father after a while of living together I said shall we ttc and that was as far as my efforts of ttc went, I forgot about it carried on as normal was only one day when I decided to take slimming tablets to lose weight I thought I doubt I am but I'll check to see if pg just to be safe, was completely shocked when I saw those two lines ! It didnt feel real at all and at times it still doesnt now even though they are 6 and 7 years old but I beleive had I of been stressing and obsessing I would of caused delays/problems for myself and then to think 6 months later I fell pg again, yes truly blessed !! So moral of the story try to stay relaxed as you can, just because its not happend yet dont mean it wont..I truly believe you'll get there

 

[mimdan]

Yea if neither of us gets bfp then defo onto the next cycle together !

The cramps I felt wasn't extreme its just I had that heavy crampy feeling like she was going to start any minute, the cramps come and go the backache is not shifting lol

I'm sorry I'm replying two or three times to your one post its just ever since I done an android update for my samsung tablet it freezes every now and then when I'm replying so I have to turn it back off and on which loses what I wrote and thats REALLY annoying if I've wrote quite a bit

 

[ToughhGal]

For some reason it won't let me reply to your emails! I guess since you are from another country which is absurd. Lol. I have a new pimple on my nose. I think it's a little too late to be a witch for Halloween.

I still feel something may be wrong with my fertility but ill try not to stress too much!

Are you testing tomorrow? I'm really anxious to hear your results! And if you do get a BFP how are you gonna tell OH? Since this will be your first child together

 

[mimdan]

Hmm thats odd, I couldnt get on with that pm thing lol everytime I scrolled down to reply to your msg it kept scrolling back up to the top

oooo a new pimple and on your nose too lol do you normally get them ?

Backache eased of a bit last night but back again today a little better than its been but it seems to be worse when I'm sitting down or keeping still unless its just that I'm noticing it more when I'm not doing anything

I tested late last night after reading ladies tww symptoms and thinking ooo that sounds just like me...bfn...but then it was only 8dpo I spose and I didnt hold urine either

is tempting to test today but I may leave it untill tomorrow, the later the better I suppose, I'll be 10dpo tomorrow...I'll keep you updated.

I haven't thought of any special ways to tell him if/when it does happen, probably just shove the bfp in front of his eyes lol

did you say your testing tomorrow ? Eeeekkk !!! I feel nervous/excited for both of us !

 

[mimdan]

Hows your cramping been ?

 

[ToughhGal]

Lol I couldn't figure out exactly where I was supposed to type so I just winged it. As for the pimple, I don't think. But not sure. If I do I don't notice it lol. The acne is still pretty bad on the side of my face, chest, and even on my shoulders. I think it may be a really bad AF :/

I hope your back gets to feeling better. Unless its a good sign then keep on hurting! I would want it to anyway sorry for your bfn but you are still early! No rush (yea right). And no! I think I'm only 9/10 dpo. So don't think I'll test yet. My cramping has been a little better. I'm getting gas pains which I always get before AF so boo!!

I like your idea about just shoving it in his face lol! I would probably get a tiny cake they have at the store beside my house and get something that resembles babies and put it on top of it. Then show the BFP if he caught on.

 

[ToughhGal]

Oh and now I'm definitely having AF cramps! So I'm counting myself out boo!!