Hi everyone,44 and pregnant,need some bump buddies

[Lyvid]

Not good news,the doc I usually see was busy and I got to see another doctor ,she couldn't see a hb and said I was 5 and a half weeks ,I told her should be 8 weeks today and she basically told me I must have my dates wrong and to go home and cum back in a week and she wud know one way or another,I knew I couldn't wait another week and went to the midwife that I usually see .,she works at the Obstetrics unit and I begged her to see me,she saw the sac and a Foetal pole measuring 5 and a half weeks with a tiny flicker of a hb ,but there was also a huge pool of blood at the base of the cervix and she said this didn't look good ,I asked her just to be straight with me and she said it looked like I was gonna miscarry within the next few days,I just knew in my heart that this wud be the case from the hcg levels result and I felt like all my symptoms were going away ,I just feel numb to be honest ,

Oh no, I'm so very sorry hun I was really hopeful that this was your forever baby. Am sending you much love

 

[herbie]

omg no
i"m so so sorry hunni
nothing i say will make everything be ok
just want you to know i"m here if you need me
hold on tight to your DHand grieve

 

[Jax41]

Desp - I've found you over here and now I don't know what to write. I was so sure that it would all be okay this time, I'm so sorry that it's not....xXx

 

[Indigo77]

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[sarahincanada]

Not good news,the doc I usually see was busy and I got to see another doctor ,she couldn't see a hb and said I was 5 and a half weeks ,I told her should be 8 weeks today and she basically told me I must have my dates wrong and to go home and cum back in a week and she wud know one way or another,I knew I couldn't wait another week and went to the midwife that I usually see .,she works at the Obstetrics unit and I begged her to see me,she saw the sac and a Foetal pole measuring 5 and a half weeks with a tiny flicker of a hb ,but there was also a huge pool of blood at the base of the cervix and she said this didn't look good ,I asked her just to be straight with me and she said it looked like I was gonna miscarry within the next few days,I just knew in my heart that this wud be the case from the hcg levels result and I felt like all my symptoms were going away ,I just feel numb to be honest ,

you are the sweetest person on these boards and my heart is breaking for you right now. take care of yourself

 

[Indigo77]

Checking in again...hope you're ok...been thinking about you all day.....

 

[vintage67]

Oh no. Just saw this. So sorry to hear it.

 

[herbie]

just wondering how you are hunni?

 

[Macwooly]

Despie keeping you & your family in my thoughts and prayers xxxx

 

[Jax41]

Lots of love Desp, been thinking about you all the time since I read your post yesterday, so hope you're alright xXx

 

[Jax41]

Ladies - I only found this thread yesterday (was trying to hunt Desperado down) and although I don't feel that I should really be writing happy things right now I just wanted to say it's so lovely to find you and catch up with all you're doing!! So hope that me, Macwooly, Sarah and Indigo can graduate to your thread soonxXx

 

[herbie]

i know hun it"s so sad
hope you all can join us very soon xxxxxxx
keep us all updated xxxxxxxxxx

 

[kosh]

Lots of love Desp, been thinking about you all the time since I read your post yesterday, so hope you're alright xXx

same here,
thinking about you despie, hoping you're ok

 

[kosh]

Ladies - I only found this thread yesterday (was trying to hunt Desperado down) and although I don't feel that I should really be writing happy things right now I just wanted to say it's so lovely to find you and catch up with all you're doing!! So hope that me, Macwooly, Sarah and Indigo can graduate to your thread soonxXx

yessss, we're waiting here for you!

 

[Desperado167]

Thank u all for your lovely messages,I feel worse today than yesterday,think the reality of it all has just hit me and I feel like I have been run over by a bus,no matter how many times u have been thru this u are still hit with an unbearable sadness and emptiness,I just feel so alone,Sarah I had been holding it all together until I read your post and then I just broke,its wot I needed,I collapsed and dh wanted to get the doctor for me ,I think I need to cry for a long time,am always trying to put on a brave front ,think it's due to the physical and sexual abuse I suffered as a child Thank u all for being here for me and I hope I haven't upset any of you lovely pregnant ladies as I love u all and wish only the best for you,I hope u don't mind me being here for a while ,I just don't have the strength to leave yet ,will try and update soon,please don't worry ,I will be ok ,

 

[kosh]

have no words
just cry and cry for as long as you need
we'll always be here for you

Thank u all for your lovely messages,I feel worse today than yesterday,think the reality of it all has just hit me and I feel like I have been run over by a bus,no matter how many times u have been thru this u are still hit with an unbearable sadness and emptiness,I just feel so alone,Sarah I had been holding it all together until I read your post and then I just broke,its wot I needed,I collapsed and dh wanted to get the doctor for me ,I think I need to cry for a long time,am always trying to put on a brave front ,think it's due to the physical and sexual abuse I suffered as a child Thank u all for being here for me and I hope I haven't upset any of you lovely pregnant ladies as I love u all and wish only the best for you,I hope u don't mind me being here for a while ,I just don't have the strength to leave yet ,will try and update soon,please don't worry ,I will be ok ,

 

[SeaShells]

Desperado....

 

[Macwooly]

Thank u all for your lovely messages,I feel worse today than yesterday,think the reality of it all has just hit me and I feel like I have been run over by a bus,no matter how many times u have been thru this u are still hit with an unbearable sadness and emptiness,I just feel so alone,Sarah I had been holding it all together until I read your post and then I just broke,its wot I needed,I collapsed and dh wanted to get the doctor for me ,I think I need to cry for a long time,am always trying to put on a brave front ,think it's due to the physical and sexual abuse I suffered as a child Thank u all for being here for me and I hope I haven't upset any of you lovely pregnant ladies as I love u all and wish only the best for you,I hope u don't mind me being here for a while ,I just don't have the strength to leave yet ,will try and update soon,please don't worry ,I will be ok ,

Despie Letting your feelings and emotions out can only be good for you Always here for you

 

[Ruth2307]

Hi Despie - I PM'ed you yesterday. Meant every word I said.

Don't feel alone because you're not - but I understand why you're feeling that way.

You most certainly haven't upset me and I'm pretty sure I speak for everyone else too. You have been remarkable and we just want to look out for you.

I know what you mean when you're 'asking for permission' to stay a bit longer - I feel exactly the same. You don't want to leave your friends and you want to know what's going on with everyone else but at the same time it still hurts sooooo much.

Cry as much as you need to and if you feel strong enough to log then you do that.

I know for sure that I couldn't have got to today without all of you. Inside and out I'm a bit bruised and battered myself but I'd like to think that I can be there for you.

Lots of love
xxxx

Thank u all for your lovely messages,I feel worse today than yesterday,think the reality of it all has just hit me and I feel like I have been run over by a bus,no matter how many times u have been thru this u are still hit with an unbearable sadness and emptiness,I just feel so alone,Sarah I had been holding it all together until I read your post and then I just broke,its wot I needed,I collapsed and dh wanted to get the doctor for me ,I think I need to cry for a long time,am always trying to put on a brave front ,think it's due to the physical and sexual abuse I suffered as a child Thank u all for being here for me and I hope I haven't upset any of you lovely pregnant ladies as I love u all and wish only the best for you,I hope u don't mind me being here for a while ,I just don't have the strength to leave yet ,will try and update soon,please don't worry ,I will be ok ,

 

[Mellybelle]

Desp...I am so so very sorry. Its just so unfair. Big massive hugs for you.