So I decided I'd be a big girl and move on from the bad experience during BabyBear's nap. I found out that we had a community meeting tonight during my afternoon shower so instead of dressing in my comfy bra and pants I get dressed up. Frilly underwear, tight fitting dress, tiny bit of make up, jewelry, perfume and high heels. DH responds positively to my efforts and I'm feeling good

So go to meeting, all seems well. Comes to 7:50pm and I need to bring BabyBear home for bed time. Get BabyBear to sleep quickly and send DH a txt saying so. I race around to pretty the house and myself up, try to mask my super light AF so as to make DH more comfortable. For what? It's now past 10pm, both DH and I need to get up early so it's bedtime and I'm so tired. My eye make up is a mess because I've been crying. It's not fair! This afternoon in the shower I decided that if bd was not an option I'd show him a good time anyway... I feel so stupid
