Bumblebee I feel you with the breast feeding. I started expressing as melody would just feed until she fell to sleep rather than when she's satisfied. So as soon as I'd put her down she would wake up and cry again.
So I express and she has about 3oz every 2-3 hours! Since expressing we have now got a little routine and she seems so satisfied. She does have wind though that seems to keep her up sometimes but it's getting better.
She put on 7oz in 4 days too
little chunk!
I felt quite detached at first. I don't know if I posted about the birth on here but it was quite traumatic.
I had an emergency forceps delivery after 2 days of labour as baby wouldn't rotate properly. They also had to give me a 2nd degree episiotomy. My epidural went wrong the first two times and the third time numbed me too much. And when they messed up the first two they punctured where the fluid is so the fluid around my brain was leaking for 4 days, giving me the worst headaches I've ever had. I couldn't even lift my head.
Baby was very destressed and they had to take blood saumples from her head to check she was ok a lot. She pooed inside too and we both had raised temps so we had to stay in for 3 days as they thought we had an infection.
Poor melody had to have an IV in and you can see where they tried to put it in. She has 7 marks just in one hand
I lost a lot of blood and they thought I'd needed a transfusion. But I was just under needing one so I got iron tablets.
So with all this trauma and the pain and the headaches when we came home I was very detached. James had to do everything and in the end I couldn't even breast feed. I felt like a failure.
But then I had a procedure called a blood patch where they take your own blood an inject it into the epidural site and seals the hole. Then the fluid can remake itself.
When I felt better and I could do more I felt great. I still can't do some stuff as my episiotomy is still sore and healing. But I feel better and like I've bonded more with melody.
Sorry for the big ramble, but here's my update.
Ill upload a pic of her when I can get on a computer as I'm using my phone atm