had some bad news today my MIL told me she had breast cancer. she seems to be ok but I cried like a baby felt kinda bad cuz she wasn't upset and is positive that everything is going to be ok. I pray that she will be ok, I'm very close to my MIL almost closer to her than my own mother, sad to say but its true. Work has also been very stressful these last few days df is worried that my stess level could be very bad for the baby. I'm trying not to get to stressed for that reason I don't want to lose this baby and I'm scared that if I don't relax more at work I might stess myself into a mc. I don't want to use the pg card at work but I feel like I might have to just so I can get some more help. I work with mostly women so you'd think that they would help me out more or at least be sympathetic to my situation as most of them know I'm pg already. Is it jan yet? I can't wait to not have to think about that place for a year.
I told my parents 2 weeks ago that I was pg and they didn't seem to happy for me. I was a smoker before I got pg and I haven't had a smoke since a few weeks before I found out I was pg. Instead of my mom just saying congrats to me and my df she told me that I should stop drinking and smoking cuz its not good for the baby. according to her I have a drinking problem and if she really knew me she would know that I don't drink at all very rare all of my friends know that. she also went on to say that we have to save our pennies cuz babys are $$ (coming from an immigrant who came to this country with nothing and raised 2 babies and we turned out fine) and that my df has to start taking care of me now that I'm pg (like he hasn't for the last almost 10years). I couldn't believe what I was hearing she went on to say a bunch of the other stuff but I tuned her out at that point. my dad was also in the room but he didn't say much. in the end she told me that I'm always going to be her daughter and I'm always welcomed in their home, whatever that is supposed to mean. I love my parents but sometimes i can't understand why they talk to me like I'm stupid. I wish they had a little more faith in me. sorry ladies I'm having an emotional week can you tell?
hope everone else is having a better week then me