looking for ttc buddy?

[blessedmomma]

i just saw your sons birthday ticker i guess i could have looked instead of asking....

how are you doing claire?

 

[cla]

At least you can say it's baby brain. My excuse is I'm blond but my natural colour is dark brown.
I'm great, I've got my af today and I'm fine with it. I can't keep beating myself up about it.
How are you Hun???

 

[blessedmomma]

sorry af got ya. i thought for sure you had some great signs. at least you got to figure out the pre-seed this last month, wont be so stressful this month

im fine. no ms today so far. hope it stays gone. getting a headache though, but i always do when pg.

 

[cla]

morning everybody

 

[RedRose19]

good morning sorry af got you..
next cycle we will get it..

ladies can i ask a question.. it might be tmi but its not about ttc or pregnancy.. its just im having a problem with my oh.. and i dont know if im the one being uncalled for or is it him

 

[cla]

what sort of promblems????

 

[RedRose19]

ok well.. please dont think im sillly lol

but last year i found oh with loads of.. porn on his laptop.. and i dont know what maybe hormones emotions i burst into tears when i saw it and it reallly upset me.. to the point where i thought i was just a fat thing that obviously wasnt good enough for him..
when he saw me he was so upset how it had hurt me he promised me he'd never do it again... yday by accident (i dont know how i did it) but google was showing all the things he'd ever googled and that was the most recent thing i confronted him saying how could he after seeing how much it had hurt me last time and he still did it.. i mean how was he not feeling guilty.. anyway i told him it was more how he tried to hide it from me.. that upset me and again i feel like crap and i was upset yday
am i being unreasonable about this.. i know some women dont mind there husbands/fiances doing that but.. it really hits a nerve for me.. to the point where i told him it hurts to much and if i saw it on his laptop again we were over.. he promised again he wouldnt do it.. but it was more to make me shut up i think.. im making such a big deal out of it.. but i cant help it.. it hurts so much..
i mean i could understand if i never let him have sex or if i said no all the time but i dont.. i thought we had a healthy sex life hes response was that he was just simply bored and i wasnt at home

wow sorry just saw how long that is... just needed to get it out

 

[cla]

your not be silly hun i think it is a man thing
keith had loadsssssssssssssss of porn from when he lived at his moms and he used to have it on his phone 3 years ago. it used to make me feel the same, why does he look at that when he as got me.
i know, well i think i know that he asnt watched any more porn as ive hid the dvds but who knows what he does when im not there, we all know men like playing with themselfs and he can do what he wants as long as its not in my fertile time
you pair have been through a lot over the last couple of months , so when somthing like this happens it seems to hurt more.

 

[RedRose19]

i just thought i was just being silly.. but i cant help the way it makes me feel..

thanks hun i just feel like we havent even got married yet and hes bored. but he said he does find me very sexy but i ignored that because if he did he wouldnt need that stuff.. i hate it! lol

 

[cla]

i hate it when keith looks at other people. we have a lot to do with my second cousins because keith as known them since they were babies as he is about 7years older then them. well i think he likes her and we had a big argument and i said what is it is it because she is thin or because she can have a baby which i know i shouldnt have said.
its these last couple of months i hate my weight and the way i look, why are we like this???

 

[naderz]

hey girls, how you all keeping?
katie i really dont think ur oh has porn because he is bored or you like claire says its a man thing they all do it but jst cause its in their species.lol dont worry about about it, ur a georgeous girl and its you he wants, the porn is jst for a thrill, he will be thinking of doing all that stuff with you wen u get home

maybe im weird- i want to get the couple friendly porn films from ann summers. lol

melissa ur soo lucky i cud jst about get my oh to hover for me.

i love seeing pictures of everybody so we can put a face to who we are chatting and all the kids are georgeous.

 

[cla]

you are right hun about men.
they seem to think with there thingy insted of there brain there dirty little buggers.
ohhhhh ann summers you dirty girl

 

[naderz]

hehe i know, tmi - we arnt having sex atm so gerald has to keep himself satisfied

my friend does the ann summers party, they are sooooo funny

 

[cla]

well he as done his job now you dont need him till next time
i said to keith he can hang it up when i get a babyas it wont be needed

 

[RedRose19]

thanks ladies.. i feel abit better now.. plus he text me saying he was sorry to hurt me and he loves me..

i just want to be his everything hope that makes sense..

i wouldnt mind if we watched it together.. its the hiding which upset me.. like he had to go behind my back.. i felt degraded abit.. but ive told him he will truely know how it feels not to have the real thing for a while and then he will see how good he has it

anyway ladies im leaving tonight to go to my brothers wedding.. crazy how time flies.. i really wanted to be preg by now or.. have a baby to bring with me *sigh* my new goal is to be preg by xmas

i wont put a pic up i might kill you with my ugly mug
i dyed my hair it was meant to be light blonde... ive now got STRAWBERRY blonde hair

 

[Shey]

hey ladies how are you all doing?

 

[H a]

Have a good time x
im strawberry blonde nothing wrong with that hun x

 

[RedRose19]

i know but i wasnt expecting it lol.. i thought i was gonna come out blonde blonde..

lol

 

[RedRose19]

hey ladies how are you all doing?

hiya how are you

 

[Shey]

hey ladies how are you all doing?

hiya how are you

Im aight bit nervous bout tomorrow