Matts, yay for negative OPK!! Now onto a fresh O. Best of luck beautiful xxx
Sweetmama, isn't the TWW so frustrating! Hope this is the one for you xxx 10 DPO is still super early since the most common day for implantation is 9 DPO. It makes it so hard seeing ladies get their BFPS at 7-10 DPO, making us feel like we're out!! Still plenty of time though xxx
I'm feeling very down and bitter today. I'm usually ver active in the Aus baby Center but looking at all the posts make me want to scream and cry. Ladies getting their BFP first cycle. Asking if they could be pregnant due to symtpoms and that it's their 1st or second cycle and they've been trying for sooooo long. I've had to hold myself back from replying because I know I might be a tad nasty and lashing out at others isn't how I should be dealing with my grief at the moment. I just feel so defeated.
I spoke briefly with a midwife last night on a call Center we have here in Aus and she said that it sounds like I'll need clomid and progesterone cream. I then told her I'm still bfing and she said I can't be on either while breastfeeding!
Clomid is a big no no but I was in the mini pill which is prog only and my milk wasn't affected, so I'm unsure about that one. I don't want to wean DS and I doubt he would stand for it anyway. Even if I do get blood tests and stuff this cycle, I already know this cycle won't be it for me as I'll be going through testing, not getting a solution. I already know the Vitex is helping my O (since I got spotting and ewcm), so I'm going to continue with that but I'm thinking maybe I should just get some prog cream for my TWW and skip all the bt's? I told the midwife about my low post O temps and short LP and she said it definitely sounds like low prog. I know it's silly wanting to by pass the doctor and tests but I don't think I could bare going through all that, plus a dud cycle, all to find out something I already know?
I didn't manage to talk to FH last night as he was exhausted and we ended up taking Peapod down to the lake to feed the ducks before dinner. I'm pretty scared to even broach the subject with him as it is, as I'm terrified he will say maybe we should wait until DS weans
I know he wants another baby as well but I do also know he would be fine as well if I didn't get pregnant for another 1/2+ years
I feel like everything is against me right now and I'm helpless.
Thanks for listening to my word vomit ladies xxx
Lots of love and hugs to all you beautiful ladies
xxx