hi all! i keep falling into this cycle of getting caught up and then falling behind again. i've felt so sick for the last week and have had no energy to read (or do much of anything TBH). But I felt great all day yesterday and no nausea so far today. so while DS is sleeping and i'm feeling good, i'm going to catch up!!
arturia- oh hun, i am so so sorry to hear about the decision you all have come to. i pray that you are able to either find peace in it and with your OH or find someone who shares in the same dreams as you. i totally understand not wanting to ruin/set you back financially. could you try and rent out the house? that way you're not losing money but can get some time apart from one another while you start to figure things out. will be thinking of you and pray that things work out just as they should.Please know that I will always be here if you are needing someone to vent to
Just read some of your later updates. He sounds like a hard individual to be with, like you had said earlier. There becomes the question of, even if he did (really) change his mind, is this someone you want to co-parent with? you have to be adaptable with kids because things can change in an instant and how would he handle that type of situation and is that the environment you want your children to grow up in? have you considered seeking individual therapy (i remember you said before he is resistant to talking to anyone) to help you work through all of this?
sweetmama- chart is looking amazing!! how are you feeling? and 6dpo is crazy early but soon a test should start showing. you had a fantastic dip yesterday...FX it was implantation! i had a massive dip to my cover (that stayed there for a few days) at 10dpo and wound up with a BFP. timing for implantation with your dip is perfect. when do you plan on testing again? so excited to see your results!
les-
so sorry about AF showing last week. hopefully taking a step back will help you mentally and emotionally. have you talked to your doctor about next steps if you aren't preggo in XX cycles taking the Prometrium?
glong- great news that they found the sac and yolk at your scan! Praying that at your next scan you will see that beautiful flickering heartbeat! only a week to go!! how are you feeling?
proud-
i feel your pain. i hope you are able to get some breaks from the nausea. how are you feeling today? glad your daughters party went well! did you do any type of theme or just have everyone over for some fun? happy belated birthday to her! yay for a good appointment and not long at all until your scan!!
matts- praying that this is your month and that ovulation hurries up and gets here for you!
green- actually, i was the only one with a May BFP and didn't realize I had put my name under April until you pointed it out..whoops! I can't wait until you start testing!!! just a couple more days to go!
tiny- EEEEEKKKKK!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!! i literally squealed when I saw your ticker and then was anxiously reading through waiting for your test post (and on pins and needles even though i already knew it was positive lol) . I am so so so happy for you love!!!! After such a long struggle I pray this is your sticky forever bean. Let me know your EDD so I can get it up on the front page.
curiosity- good luck at your appointment tomorrow!! can't wait to hear how it goes. how are you feeling?
happy-
brown blood= old blood. you're right at a good point for implantation (no matter if you're 9 or 12dpo). i literally had all of my typical PMS symptoms and still got a BFP. So spotting because you normally do doesn't mean you are out. Praying for a beautiful BFP in the coming days.
And as for your friends wedding, if I was you, i would continue to try. If you're not pregnant this month and fell next month, she will understand because she is your friend and loves you. And if you're not pregnant this month and DONT fall next month, you will regret it and wonder "what if" until you get pregnant.
kaiecee- welcome back to the tww!! best of luck for you and hope it goes by quick!
choco- glad your doctor is sending your for the US just to be sure all is well. The other ladies had some good suggestions with preseed and staying hydrated. for water, try drinking half your body weight in ounces each day and see if that helps at all. i saw massive improvements in my CM when i stayed well hydrated
liles- so good to hear from you!! so happy to hear your pregnancy is going well and hope the nausea is fully and completely gone for you. have you booked your anatomy scan yet?
missyogi- yay!!!! after all this time, it is finally YOUR turn!! how are you feeling with the wedding coming up and trying?
AFM, the last week has been pretty bad with feeling sick A LOT. Just the knock you on your butt kind. but as I get closer to second tri (next week OMG!) I'm very hopeful it will start to ease up. I have felt baby moving several times now. I felt them for the first time at 10+6 after laying still for over an hour (catching up on bnb). I felt them a couple times in the week following when i would be still. And then yesterday, they must have been in the just right position against my uterus because it was 6 or 7 times that they were moving away in there (not kicks- WAY too early, just movement). I can't tell you how full my heart feels knowing they are in there doing some early acrobatic moves lol. My next appointment is next Thursday (the 7th) and will get to hear the heartbeat for the first time (saw it at my last appointment but no doppler as it was too early).
DS started school last week and did very well the first day. The next 2 times he has gone, I've left him crying but he still had a good time and participated. Hoping being around some other kids his age will help his speech improve. he has a year to catch up in order to go to preschool at our church. Otherwise he will go to the early childhood center through the school district. Both are great options though so I know he will be in good hands!
Hoping the nausea is gone for me so I can have some energy to be around more! Other than that, everything is going great and very much looking forward to the next phase in my pregnancy!
To all.
just went to the bathroom and found spotting on my undies. If ff got my O day right, I am only 9dpo. If it got it wrong, I would be 12dpo. I just don't know what to think. I don't want to wait to O again 
