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I know it love, took almost 3 years TTC my 1st. It was devastating and debilitating. I gave up, and when I did is when it happened. It's helping me this time by only focusing on when it's time to test. The rest, I distract myself in any way possible that's enjoyable.
Thats what i try and do too love. You know getting into a good series and reading books etc.
I felt so relaxed and even when i was ovulating and in the early 2ww i felt so calm. Then i get to 6 or 7 dpo and no cramping and then i start losing my shit.
I felt my youngest implant at 6dpo so im hopeful to feel something or even better get some implantation spotting, didnt even feel a twinge the whole 2ww.
Im sorry you had to try for 3 years.
I think im going yo call it quits when i get to 45.
Im 44 in December and i do see the odd older lady in a group im in on facebook get pregnant naturally at my age naturally.
I just pray i get to be lucky like them.
One lady on there is 45 and 15 weeks pregnant now. Thats the kind of stories that keep me going.
But at this moment right now i feel like giving up. But i always do at this stage.
Having that 3rd loss in feb gave me my hope back again that i can still fall. But that was 4 months ago now and its been nothing but stinking bfn.
How can i fall pregnant so quickly twice when we first started trying, and then going 7 months of bfns, to then finally fall again end of January and then lose again and now 4 months of bfn.
I dont understand how i havent fallen again.
Its so so frustrating.