I feel very discouraged. After feeling quite positive about this month, I caved and tested last night with an ic. Hubby and I both thought we *might* see something. I didn't get too excited but tested this morning with fmu on a frer and
However, that was at 4am so when I woke again at 9am I did a different ic and again think I *might* see a hint of something.
I know I'm testing early at 10dpo and implantation, if it happened, might have only been yesterday (most common day according to countdowntopregnancy) and I got a bfn with DS before getting my bfp at 13 days after conception (I know this because we were long distance so it HAD to be that day) but I feel like I'm clutching at straws, and in need of the TTC equivalent of He's just not that into you ie if he's not calling you, he's not into you...if your test gives you a bfn, then you're just not pregnant. Why do women do this to themselves?
Hubby is not helping. He thinks I'm nuts for making him look over and over at the test last night and told me he thinks we're not pregnant.
I know whether I get pregnant this cycle has NOTHING to do with when I test and I think I am just hoping so much because I really don't want to have to miss next cycle with this stupid chicken pox vaccine. 6 weeks feels like forever to someone who is TTC.
I'm trying to look at the positives: gives us time to get into a better financial position, I might get to tick off some career goals before we have our next baby, I'll have more leave, it gives me 6 weeks to get healthy and lose some of the 10kg I have put on since last year.
Some how, none of that makes me feel any better