Hannah, I am going to Hayling Island for a week on the 6th August, get back on the 13th, then I go to New York on the 18th and get back early on the 24th.
I am not sure, I think maybe something to do with English. Maybe?
I love it, and have written an article that got published, all because I was involved in this https://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/life_and_style/health/article4044153.ece and what I wrote made Catherine cry, she then asked me to be part of another small article, again she loved what I wrote so when there was a chance for her to write an full page she asked if I wanted to do it because it would be great experience should I ever want to go down the route of writing.
Gutter credit; Natasha Adams
They were the worst words any mum can hear
Being told that her unborn child had died at 36 weeks was a nightmare come true for Natasha Adams, 23. Although heartbroken, she was determined to have another child, and gave birth to a beautiful daughter a year later
'I had just celebrated my birthday with my husband, Matt, and was three days away from the planned induction of our third child. My life was perfect.
'But in the middle of the night, I woke in a panic: I'd had a nightmare about burying my daughter. Then I had a terrible realisation - I hadn't felt my baby move for over 12 hours. I was due to go to the hospital first thing for a routine appointment, and we decided to wait until then to get checked out. That decision will haunt me forever.
'The next day, as the midwife tried to find my baby's heartbeat, I knew something was wrong. I was sent to have an ultrasound, and looked at the screen and saw my baby - so very still. In my heart, I already knew what was coming next, yet nothing could prepare me for those awful words: "I'm so sorry, but your baby has died." It felt as if everything was happening in slow motion.
'I rang Matt. My words were blunt, and I felt terrible saying them, but how do you tell a dad that his baby is dead and gone before it had even had a chance to live? 'Doctors told us that our baby had not been growing for a while, but could not give us a definitive answer for what had happened. All we could do was go home. The next day I was induced and my beautiful baby girl was silently born. As my sobs began, I knew life would never be the same again.
Precious Memories
'We named her Honey. As I held her, I tried to take in every last detail, trying to fit a lifetime of memories into a few sad hours. My heart broke when the midwife took her away.
'When we left the hospital the next day, my body ached to be holding my little girl. Somehow, we organised the funeral and said our final goodbye to Honey.
'Soon, all I could think about was trying again. I knew another baby would not replace Honey but we needed hope back in our lives. When my pregnancy test was positive, I started to sob: I didn't want Honey to think we had moved on and forgotten her.
'The post mortem had finally revealed what had caused Honey to be stillborn. I had a blood clotting disorder called Factor V Leiden, and had also suffered a placental abruption (an extremely rare condition where the placenta separates from the uterus). Knowing this, doctors were able to give me daily blood thinning injections to stop the same happening again.
'The pregnancy was tough. I was constantly looking out for warning signs and there were a few admissions to hospital, but I didn't care how many times I went - just as long as my baby was safe.
Because of my history, doctors decided to induce me at 37 weeks. Frighteningly, it didn't go to plan: my baby's heart rate kept dropping, so I had an emergency C-section. I was petrified we were going to say goodbye to another baby. But four days before what would have been Honey's first birthday, my beautiful daughter Kaysie Blossom was born safely. I held my breath as I waited for that cry - and when it came I began to sob in relief and sadness.
'Eight weeks on, everything she does amazes me, but also reminds me of what Honey didn't get to do. With Kaysie's help, our family has started to heal - she is teaching us to smile again. One day I will have to tell Kaysie about her big sister, but when that day comes, I will smile as I explain how lucky we are to have all our children.'
I enjoy writing, and I could maybe make a difference by raising awareness with it
SJ, it is getting close, everytime I think of EDD and Riley Rae, I think of you and Evelyn too. I know you are right, but my rational thinking doesnt always work
Not long til Friday
Ooooh yay, make sure you put pics up Hannah
ive ordered the rabbit for the prize as enough people have bought a number and i not had to pay my own money for it 
gotta go through it all again nxt tues now 
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