Rainbow Makers - WTTAL, NTNPAL, TTCAL & PAL friends

[Jox]

:wave: would you ladies mind if i joined you here? Ive looked back over the thread a little but will go back and read thru properly soon.

A little about me. Kasper was born sleeping at 36+2 weeks on 2nd Jan 2010 after we found out his heart had stopped at 35+6 on 30th Dec 09 they found no cause for him dying :noe: just 6+2 weeks later we found out we were expecting again and 8 months and 11 days after Kasper's birth Leo was born by csec on 13th Sept 2010 at 34+3 weeks. Our fortnightly growth scans showed he hadnt grown since 32 weeks, all around the same time kasper stopped growing so they gave us steriods and got him out asap. We are planning on TTC in sept, except im facing possible redundancy so really need to be in a new job before ttc starts to ensure i qualify for smp. Ive been lurking round WTT but dont feel i fit in so been lurking round TTC/TTCal but dont feel i fit in there either. Do you think it would be ok if i joined you here?

Im sorry all your babies grew their wings, i will never understand why this world is so unbelievably cruel

Tasha - really hope your have a 'nice' day for your birthday and know your little girls will never be far away

 

[bornthiswayxo]

I guess you could say I am NTNPAL. I try not to think about it that way though... :/
2po i reckon... already feeling a little queasy if thats possible? IDKKK.

 

[mummymarsh]

Good morning ladies- its party day today for me... last few preps for the ann summers party.....

SJ- I spent most of yesterday sorting the ann summers party out and then had work at 5-7 and then me and steve wastched a film and went to bed, so didnt really get a look in on b&b

Tasha - how was your day??????? hope your doing ok... when was dirty dancing?????

Hannapin - how are you feeling today?????? no more wine i hope hahaha


Jox - welcome sorry to hear about kasper so not fair......

bornthiswayx0 - do you have a story you would like to share??? dont feel you have too..... ohhhhh queeziness could be a good will look forward to hearing an update on that

AFM im off for shower.... then travelling to grantham for the party and to see the pregnant SIL again i have to say she is looking bloody gorgeous tho......

chat later girls.... enjoy your weekends

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Jox]

MM - hope ur party goes well! haven't been to an ann summers party for years! Hope u have a lovely weekend!

I have a job interview today! Looks like I'm gonna b made redundant so am busy job hunting! just wabt to get into a new job so when we ttc I will be entitled to smp!

Kisses for our angels x

 

[SarahJane]

Hello everyone

happy birthday Tasha. Hope you have a lovely day today xxxxxxx

Jox, I am so sorry about Kasper we'd love you to join us in here
What do you do for a job? Hope you find something really soon xx

Hi bornthisway

Hope the party goes ok Kayleigh. Did the willy cake go down well?

Hannah, hope you are ok hun, how is your friend?

AFM on CD11 and still high on my monitor as expected but have Paul under instructions to BD more for the next week or so - he doesn't seem to be complaining after 6 months of pregnancy when I didn't want him near me

Anyway, love to all and big floaty kisses to our beautiful angels

 

[bornthiswayxo]

x

Good morning ladies- its party day today for me... last few preps for the ann summers party.....

SJ- I spent most of yesterday sorting the ann summers party out and then had work at 5-7 and then me and steve wastched a film and went to bed, so didnt really get a look in on b&b

Tasha - how was your day??????? hope your doing ok... when was dirty dancing?????

Hannapin - how are you feeling today?????? no more wine i hope hahaha


Jox - welcome sorry to hear about kasper so not fair......

bornthiswayx0 - do you have a story you would like to share??? dont feel you have too..... ohhhhh queeziness could be a good will look forward to hearing an update on that

AFM im off for shower.... then travelling to grantham for the party and to see the pregnant SIL again i have to say she is looking bloody gorgeous tho......

chat later girls.... enjoy your weekends

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thanks I hope queeziness is something good too.
As for the story... currently not. It was almost a year ago, but I still find it hard to discuss with some. :S sorry x

 

[SarahJane]

No need for apologies, nice to have you here and hopefully some good news coming your way soon

 

[Mellybelle]

Hi ladies....can I join you? I'd like to be a rainbow maker too.

 

[hannpin]

Hello all, wowww we r getting busy in here now :wave: all you newbees. We are a friendly bunch, and I hope you feel you will fit in here with us, as Jox I know what you mean about not fitting anywhere else

Sorry I have neglected you all a little lately, had a rough few days

Tasha hope you had a good birthday, and are enjoying you weekend away

MM How did the party go, hope all was ok for you, and they bought lots. Hope SIL is ok and it wasnt too hard for you seeing her

SJ how was the concert. hope the BD'ing is going to plan too

Jox sorry to hear about Kasper Leo looks a right heart breaker. Oh no about the possible redundancy, what do you do? I work with people facing redundancy as a careers advisor, so if there is anything I can help with let me know

Bornthisway hope the queezieness is a good sign, sorry to hear of your loss. We will be NTNP too come july

Mellybelle we'd love you to join us, would you like to share your story, no worries if not

AFM rough few days I feel I have regressed right back to the day we lost Harri. My friend loosing her little girl had completly brought it all back. But on a positive Ieuan has sold his truck and bought a new car which we picked up yesterday, so we will hopefully be able to save some money now on fuel. Off to take Els to the lake for a bike ride in a bit, then having a lazy sunday. I feel totally shattered.

Hope you all having a good weekend, catch you laterz xxxxxx

 

[Jox]

Morning :wave:

Hannpin - sorry Uve had some bad days i really hate when they hit and i honestly believe it hurts just as much I hope u have a nice relaxing Sunday. Elsie is beautiful

Atm I work as an administrator for a private landlord. been there for 3.5 years and never really realised how much of tossers they r. i had no support after losing kasper and all my appts with Leo were inconvenient to them!! they even asked once if I could make the scan appointments for more convenient times!! now this... tbh I never want to step foot back in that place!!

ive been applying for everything and actually got an interview as a trainee dealer/croupier, to begin with we weren't sure but i had the interview yesterday and half hr later had an email inviting me for a 2nd interview, which is on thursday evening! Not the best pay but means the mortgage is paid and we can ttc in the knowledge I'll get smp so fingers crossed. Im hoping i find out about this job in time to take voluntary redundancy but we will see! sorry thats been so long!

Thank u hannpin, may pm u if i need any info if thats ok?

Sending lots of love & floaty kisses

Xxx

 

[hannpin]

Yayy on the 2nd interview, yea please do PM me and I will try my best to help if i can

 

[SarahJane]

Hi everyone,

Welcome Mellybelle

Great news on the interview Jox, if you need any help with interview type questions let me know as I do a lot of interviewing so we could practice!!

Didn't end up going out (bottled it ) so stayed in and watched Eurovision. Truly awful as usual but Jedward were funny and I liked the Danish song.

hannah, it is understandable that the news has shocked you again I remember the first time another baby was buried at the cemetary after Evelyn's funeral, even though I didn't know them it made me cry It all seems so unfair that babies are taken all of the time.

Kayleigh - how did it go? Did you sell lots of nice things?

Today my plan is to chill out and maybe go to the video shop as I believe The Kings speech is out and I haven't seen it yet. Paul has managed to get a day flexi tomorrow too so we can spend the day together

OOHHHHH forgot to say, I had a weigh in yesterday and lost another pound this week so now 9.8 lb total since mid April! Yippppeeeeee (19lb to go though)

 

[Jox]

Well done sj on the weight loss i think ive only been 'out' once since kasper was born, i cant face it and tbh just dont want to!

I felt awful when the 1st few babies were buried after kasper but there has been 7 now it almost feels normal now hate it

I hope u and paul have a nice day tomorrow x

 

[hannpin]

Well done on the weight loss SJ. I just jumped on the scales and back down to what I was when I had Harri, so the 1/2 stone that I had put on I have lost again YAYYY!!

I havent been on a night out since having Harri yet, A few girls and I normally go out for a meal and few drinks once every 2 months, and the last time was just too soon after Harri. But they are going out again Thurs, but I dont think I can face it just yet

Ieuan's sister has her 20 week scan tomorrow, god I hope everthing is ok for her (and secretly hoping it is not a boy) She is starting to do my head in, but I know she is only trying to be nice and 'involve' me in her pregnancy.

 

[mummymarsh]

hi everyone-

welcome newbies.....

Tasha - hope you had a nice birthday.....

SJ - well done on the weight losss keep it up...

Hannpin - i hope your doing ok..... do you see ya SIL often????

bornthisway - dont worry you share your story whenever you feel ready....

AFM party was huge success i did £391 in sale and made £90 for myself i was also invited to the hens dinner and out in town with them which i accepted... so awesome had my first night out in like forever.. got fairly drunk but not too bad but im sooooooooooo tired now

xxxxxxx

 

[hannpin]

MM glad all went well with the party, and your night out. hope the head aint too bad today

lets just say me an SIL don't exactally see eye to eye. I took her big brother off her!!!! but since she has become pregnant she keeps coming over and asking for advice etc. which ok maybe I am the only person she feels she can ask (none of her friends have babies) but not right now iykwim. I know I am being harsh on her, but I cant help the way I feel just now, I hope I dont feel like this for ever, and resent her baby, because I know itis not her fault, it just seems easy to take it out on her. bad I know

So what has everone got planned for this week?? I have another busy week with work but appart from that not alot going on

Take care flowers

 

[Jox]

MM - pleased ur party was a success sounds like u had a brilliant night!

Hannpin - its difficult being round other who r pg or have babies. Obviously ud never wish this on any1 else but it still doesnt stop u questioning 'y me? Y not them?'. im not sure that ever goes away

And, docs, leos weigh in clinic & dinner at mils wednesday, interview thursday and taking babies swimming friday with bf. Good i love being on mat leave

Xxx

 

[Tasha]

Hey girls,

Lots of newbies, welcome girlies

Thank you for the birthday wishes

My birthday was actually quite nice, I was really spoilt by every one, had a fab night out, Dirty Dancing was amazing, I recommend it to everyone. The hotel we stayed at was fab too, and it was so mice to have some time with just me and my OH, cant remember the last time we did that.

It was four years ago yesterday since Honey grew her wings, four years ago since we found out today, one month today since Riley was born and Honey's fourth birthday tomorrow. So a bit emotional, when I was shopping today I heard a new baby cry and it made me burst into tears, which isnt like me at all.

Jo, good luck with your interview. I really hope you get it, you deserve that good news and it means you can TTC happily (iykwim).

MM, glad your party went well and that you had a good night out.

Hannah, I think it is completely 'normal' for it to make everything so raw again. As for your SIL could you say something?

SJ, did you get the King's Speach? I was looking at it yesterday.

This week, well tomorrow I am getting flowers etc for Honey as it is her birthday, Tuesday I am meant to be seeing the minister but dont think I can face it (is that wrong of me? He is doing the service for free so I feel obligated but I really dont want to!?!), Wednesday last minutes bits for Thursday, Thursday is Riley's funeral and Friday I might have a moment to breath.

Oh and we went in to this food court, and it had an ice cream shop, sushi etc but the smell of Burger King made me want to throw up, the only time that happens to me is when I am pregnant, do you think it is the hormones from Riley? It only usually happens in early pregnancy, so maybe as they come down it is mimicking it?

 

[Jox]

Tasha - so pleased u had a nice birthday. My earliest preg symptoms r smell and its always wine gums! oh is always eating them and I cant stand the smell when pg plus can smell them from a good way away. I don't know whether to say it could b hormones fading from riley rae or if it could b new pg hormones but u know I got my leo bfp 6+2wks after kasper was born with no af. means I ov'd & conceived around 3-3.5 weeks after his birth so all i'll say is its possible

Going to b thinking of u every single day. Please know u and ur girls r on my mind constantly.

Happy birthday for tomorrow Honey

Xxx

 

[Mellybelle]

Happy Birthday to Honey. xx