Think I'm out too. Wasted a clear blue plus and a first response rapid test and both were negative. Either I had a bad indent on the frer yesterday or its my 3rd chemical. I'm so tired of it now. Definetly not testing anymore now. Gonna wait for af. Still got two months until my appointment to see a gynecologist. I'm not sure if I'll join next month. Will depend if I get another normal cycle and ovulate. Thank you all so much for your support this last week. It helps to have you all to talk to and to not go through this alone. It's so hard. Always think at the beginning when you first start ttc that it will be fun and exciting. Now I'm just full of dread the whole time about whether I'll ovulate next month or if I'll go months with nothing happening again. And then if I do ovulate I'm scared the whole time of another chemical. Starting to feel I'm not meant to have another. I don't think I can accept that though because I want it so much. I know I already have four and there's people a lot more worse off them me and I am so grateful for my beautiful daughters but it still doesn't change how bad I want another baby. Anyway, sorry to bring you all down. I'm just done in this evening and had enough.
