I need your advice ladies. I've been on a break but am reconsidering my options.
I'm out for this cycle, as expected, started spotting so AF should be here soon (wasn't ttc in any case). My dilemma is this: I really don't know what to do next. I'm praying about it but I still have no clear idea.
My three options are:
* Trying a low dose clomid again
* Trying without clomid (I did O this past cycle without clomid but I suspect it was maybe because I had residual clomid in my system?).
* Going back on birth control pill... that might sound strange but I've had cramps for the past 2 cycles every single day. Today my left ovary (the one that is worst affected by endo) is very very sore. My back hurts. All those things make me suspect my endo is back. Cramping and spotting and feeling tired all the time is really dragging me down. So if I go back on bcp it will suppress the endo to a degree. ALSO, I won't have false hope every month and that will probably improve my quality of life. (I plan on making an appointment with an endo specialist for June, in any case.)
Now if I stop trying, the benefits are obvious as I described above. I really, really want to stop trying. The only downside is that my 1% chance of ever falling pregnant will become 0%. I'm scared that I would blame myself for making that decision one day when I'm too old to have kids at all.
Please give me your honest advice!
I am praying that we have a baby but that God's will be done and that He gives me peace of mind with whatever road is the right road. I trust that your opinions will be part of an answer to that prayer.